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2009-07-18T14:14:00.000+08:00

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2009-06-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

hmms..
tis few daes has been typingg stuff...
tat is so sickening..
really hate to type those stuff...
but then..
well.. its time to forget abt it..
its all over.
never again i will let the history to ever repeat. :)
but without tat person i will never learn anything :)
so its a good lesson learnt. hahas...
well... i will learn to be able to look into my frens better..
and oso treaasure them better..
i must say a deep sorry to those real true frens whom i hurt before.
sometimes i seriously dun mean it..
but my words just came out before i can stop them >.<
but deep down :) i really am glad to have u all as my frens :)
every memory with u all isnt forgotten at all.. and is treasured. :)

learn to stand on ur own.

2009-06-19T11:47:00.001+08:00

hmms...
learn to stand on ur own :)
if u think u are so great,
why dun try going against me on ur own? :)
why dun try going against me fairly instead of going the back alley again?
cos u are afraid to lose to me? cos u are afraid that u will be trashed?
if u think u are tat gd, stand against me on ur own and stop hiding behind others..
from young, u have never stood on ur own.
tats why u never did own a mind of ur own..
start to learn early. if nt u will die later.
but thanks to you.
i learnt quite a lot :)
i learnt a lot stuff about being back stabbed, being lied to, being make used of, being a moron that allow the person to cheat again and again..
:) but those are all bad stuff ^^
u allow me to learn good stuff too..
like regain my passion for baking & photography, clay wordings, gain interest for craft making.. be more cautious to people, love my family more :)
but end of story.
i think u should stop making up ur own stories to tell ur frens :)
if u want, show them proof.
show them facts.
and stop making up stupid stories.
end of my line is...
stop dragging others in. there are people who absolutely dun wanna be drag in yet u brainlessly dragged them in causing a trouble to others.
let them know wat u said and wat i said :)
people have eyes on their own to judge. they have the right to hear the truth instead of stories made up by you & your self-pronounced 'smart' brain :)

love them lots~

2009-06-18T20:29:00.004+08:00

todae...
just came home from a trip to GIANT @ tampines :)
with my god parents.. god sisters..
:) hahas..
we had fun walking around in the big supermarket.. walked here and there...
bought alot alot of stuff :)
$200++ worth of stuff..!
hahas.. most of the stuff is for god sis's weekend bdae celebration :)
minority are food :P
among the food.. there are my sushi inside :P and strawberry milK!
hahas.. :) living here although there are small quarrels..
but daes are easier to pass by.. :)
i like the days here cause they were never boring..
we were always doing stuff occupying the time...
the time here.. also allow me to enjoy lots of good food :)
yummies ^^ alot delicious homecook food..
<3
i love my god parents.. god sisters lots lots... :) muackies!

4 yrs worth = nothing.

2009-06-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes i honestly wonder am i dumb or smart..
i can keep trusting a fren agn and agn..
no matter wat she sae.. wat she does..
i will just helplessly believe in that person agn...
i try my best warning myself history will just repeat..
but when the person promise to not let history repeat..
i will just give in..

but i duno why.. tat person choose to hurt me agn and agn..
is frenship so cheap?
well... saying to a gd fren who owes u money ' never mind , i treat as giving away money to begger '
if someone says tat to u.. hw would u feel?
somemore tis person is kinda important to u.. and u two are suppose to be best of frens..
supporting each other in their time of needs..
but then.. when tat person repeated the history... i got nothing to say..
i didnt know the 4 yrs worth of friendship cant even weight more than $20.

u everytime sae is our frenship tat weak blarblarblar...
but.. u are the very person who repeats the history agn & agn.
without fail. u will repeat the same history.
forgiving and forgetting is good..
but when u forgive someone too often...
tat person just wun learn.
maybe the 4 yrs of our frenship cant weight $20...
but i really feel its wasted..
but i will learn to get used to a life without u..
i do not need a fren tat insult another as a begger.

one dae. when u reflect back.
do realise.. if u dun wan others to say such stuff abt u, start by not saying stuff like tis abt others..
becos the world is round.. when u say tis thing to a person..
one dae another person will sae tat abt u..
and.. u are christian..
where has ur christianity teachings gotten u..
i kept telling others u changed for the better..
but i guess tats just myself lying to myself..
the truth always hurt..
but i rather bear the truth than living in ur lies..

2009-06-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

hmms...
kinda bored now with lots of emotions brewing inside me..
well.. yesterday night time....
i lost a game of mahjong.. lose quite a bit.. but luckily we play small small..
after tat we went downstairs to have pratas & limau ice :P
yoohooo~ enjoyed a wonderful supper >.< (im growing fat i think)
hahas...
totally eat till full full :P
well... after tat was comp playing & relaxxing...
hahas.. after awhile..
my god bro and his gf jio drinking and card/dices playing.. :)
we had chivas with green tea...
although im nt a big fan of green tea with alcohol...
but it taste nt bad afterall >.<
we played several rounds of different games... hahas..
learn several new stuff.. :) long time since i drank :)
and its my first time drink chivas..
before tat was drinking.... vodka and something else >.<
forgotten the name of it...
well.. drank for ard an hr to two...
then off to bed with a headache >.<
guess i too long nvr drink.. then getting a headache..

well.. now is a sundae of slacking.. supposingly gonna send my frens' flight..
but cos tmr need to go wrk early in the morning...
so... in the end cant go send them alr.. :(
to pple who are going batam or cambodia : have fun and take care :) miss u all lots~!

well.... i didnt know u think tat..
the 4 years of our frenship is tat weak..
ger u are thinking too much..
i jus need a breather thus the disappearances..
alright.. going out for dinner.. bye...

2009-06-13T01:27:00.002+08:00

todae.. i finally realise one important thing..
i finally know why i can never get along with kylie's bf & ex bfs..
becos...
simple explaination..
both of us wants her time.. but she can only give her time to one person..
thats the main reason why me and her bf can never ever get along..
wouldnt wanna explain more abt it..
but its just after thinking for a long time.. i finally realise it..

and oso maybe becos my character is kind of boyish.. so...
its like as if 2 boys fighting for her time... >.<
but then agn...
i must say i was kinda disappointed at times..
i nvr meant to want u to skip.. i alr said the choice was urs..
i didnt expect u to skip anyways.. and oso...
if u skip..
i probably will still be heading home..
i just dun wanna go there cos its really very out of the way..
but oso thanks to u two..
we dropped by at AMK hub's X Zone..
then i manage to get that interview...
hopefully can get the job.. at least got job.. low pay oso never mindd :)
hahas.. well.. todae was a very long.. been awake since... 8am tis morning till now.. 1am plus still not sleeping :)
maybe i just simply wanna enjoy my holidays...
i want everything to be smooth sailing :)
becos after tis 3 weeks...
probably will be hell for ard 2 mths...
hmms...
sometimes..
friendships are something weird to me..
the more i wanna treaasure something..
the more easily i will lose tat something..
sometimes i really simply cant trust anyone..

im sorry.. but the bond between us is over.
i can no longer decieve myself abt us..
we really arent gd frens after all...
everything abt us.. every single memory... was..
made up of lies... and masks..
its enuff alr.. i seriously dun wanna lead tis kind of life anymore..
sorry but im sick of making effort for this frenship.

fun day

2009-06-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

todae..
finished sch at 11am..
shldnt mention anything abt sch..
nothing happy happened as usual :) but im fine..
there is 1 thing happy! natasyah was so nice to share her dunkin donut~
yummmyiess~

changed and went to meet huiru jie , jeanette mei and my kylie darling..
hahas.. kyliee came half to fetch me.. and huiru jie and jeanette mei was at the platform..
we trained down to... Dhouby Ghaut..
and went to P.O.S.H and bought brownies!
long time since i had themm. yumm ~
i had my fav, triple choc~ :)
then we walked off to the Cathay..
and had aston~!! :)
yummmy~ had the usuals..
4 of us all had different double up ^^
yummy :P really love eating there.. so full and kinda economic :)
hahas.. after tat...
we walked to hemisphere cafe..
chilled there..
played card games... unoo~
hahas.. so funny.. had a great time there.. chit chat and stuff..
there nt bad.. quiet.. gd for chit chatting but drinks kinda too expensive >.<
hahas..
after tat.. we went to P.S daiso walk walk... for ard an hr >.<
leg pain sia.. walk here and there.. hahas..
decide on some stuff..
then we seperated.. kylie walked ard waiting awhile more then leave..
sorry to leave u there ger! so so sorry to pangseh u :(
but really no choice.. =/ sorry arhs >.< *guilty*

well... me , huiru jie and jeanette mei went off.. to meet..
mummmyyyy~~ :) at pasir ris.. hahas..
had dinner together..
i duno why.. they always so happy to see me..
makes me feel very happy too :)
imptly. im here becos of them so im very grateful to them.. :)
they gave me the values i treasure in life..
without them.. im probably just normal as another..
thanks you u all for making me into who i am.. :)
sincerely grateful..

feels great todae.. took my first big step..
gonna live up to my favourite line :)
life gonna be alot more different frm now on ^^

weekend of relaxation

2009-06-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

i had a great weekend :P
hahas..
i went to my godma's house..
friday went swimming.. lovely swim..
jacuzzzi.. & suana..
hahas..
had a lovely morning relaxing my body...
and also sorting through some stuff..
well.. everything is in a clearer view now..
no longer misty and clouded..
all become more clear.. and easier to evaluate..

hmms... whole entire weekend spent in utter relaxation..
feels great to stay over at my godma's place..
tat place.. everytime makes me dun feel like leaving at all..
well... i feel alot better sorting thru everything and learning alittle impt fact i forgotten..
:) great.. all ready for the last week of tis term before holidays kicks in! :)
gonna go find a part time wrk ^^ arent gonna waste tis holidae :)

2 accurate quiz

2009-06-03T20:53:00.001+08:00

did 2 quiz on facebook..
result was accurate..
first quiz : what is your inner self?

Your Result: A Moonlike Person
You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has dealt blows before. You tend to think about things alot more than other people. And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely. Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases.

second quiz : what kind of mask do you wear?

Your Result: Pain
Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right.

feww daes..

2009-06-01T19:10:00.000+08:00

many things have happened for the past few daes..
been quite some time since i last blogged.. ard 1 week plus alr..
i guess.. i have grew alot more soft and weak..
i easily cry nowadaes.. which isnt good..
todae i cried when teacher made a very unfair statement...
'now. no more ISP rock, now. is ISP rude
im kinda... really disappointed when she said tat.
and pin pointed me at it..
she said some teachers made complains to her tat..
a certain someone has been disrupting their lessons and was very rude to them.
but the thing is... i make sure that i knocked on the door, greeted the teacher, pass the brochure to her or the class monitor and thanked the teacher before i go out..
tat was what since young i learnt..
and now someone is saying im rude?
i feel... so wrong and tat.. my teacher did not asked me abt it before annoucing to the whole class..
i honestly hate tat sentence she use..
i can never get rid of tat image of her saying tat sentence in my head..
i broke down nt only becos im wrong.
but i felt as if tis tiny act of mine has spoil the reputation of ISP..
my monitor and a classmate was nice enuff to say they believe im nt tat sort..
i felt happy tat at least there are people who trust tat i wun do tat..
the thing is...
the ones closest are the ones.. tat nvr spoke..
hahas.. i guess.. nowadaes no one stand up for anyone anymore.
not even ur good fren.
or hahas. maybe i was the only one thinking she is my gd fren but actually to her..
im just a ordinary classmate whom he/she gonna see for 2 yrs of ite life, tats all.

tis 1 week plus... really alot of things happened to me and around me..
i suddenly feel life is taking so much out of me... till im so drained.
so soft and so weak..
i wanna be able to stand up strong once again..
im kinda mix mix todae..
sad and everything emoish becos of sch stuff..
happy becos i had a lovely dinner with mum and dad..
i miss eating dinner as a family..
i would exchange anything just for dinners like tat..
i wanted to tell them abt todae.. but..
i cant bring myself to spoil the lovely mood..
so i had to trapp the emotions inside of myself..
sometimes when i fall.. i really dun feel like getting up anymore..

18th birthday

2009-05-25T02:52:00.000+08:00

i met with gladys and went to dorothy perkins walk walk :P
she got herself a yellow top/dress..
hahas.. after tat we went to cineleisure to meet with jovin, louis & dejun..
hahas.. gf came to meet me awhile to pass me the present (monkey)!
hahas.. thanks gf for the cute monkey soft toy :)
thanks dejun & louis for the cute teddy bear too :)
hahas.. we walked around cineleisure... walk here and there..
then we went to take neoprints! :)
hahas.. 2nd time on my birthday take neoprint le :)
1st time was last yr with my clique at bugis..
tis yr is 2nd time... hahas.. took with gladys, jovin, dejun & louis..
hahas :) after tat...
we went to takashimaya to walk aroundd...
and they ordered a birthday cake for me at bakerzin...
hahas.. thanks people :) u all are so sweetttt~!!
then we bused to the cathay..
and had our dinner @ aston.. chit chatted & makaninggg...
went back to cineleisure for our moviee~!!
night in the muesum 2 !
hahas. 5 out of 5 rating!
simply lovely and special..
unrealistic and intersting..
just what i always like :) dreamt abt :)
then after movies... we went to cuppage mall and celebrated my birthdae with the cake at the basement :P
hahas.. fun and interesting experience...
after tat.. we went to xzone at dhouby ghaut there..
thanks for the lovely night...
i will always remember my lovely 18th birthday :)

hahas..
we had dinner at aston :P
look at the five faces. :P
five different main course each...
chit chatted and eat eat eat :P
extremely full :P

in total...
i recieved 3 cakes :)
yummmy. thanks everyone for making it such a memorable 18th birthday for me..
i love u all lots lots :) MUACKS! <3

sch... hahas :P im gonna be awake agn in another 3 hr's time :)
gonna try my best for everythingg~! tmr gonna be a long dae :) jiayouuu!

a early morning on my 18th bdae.

2009-05-23T03:17:00.000+08:00

tis is wat i have been doingg for thursdae and fridaee >.<
hahas..
thursdae went to meet kylie to nebo.. chit chatted..
brain stormmed lots of stuff and killed alot of my brain cells...
hahas.. end up the result was gd.. she gave me alot of useful ideas..
hahas :)
had dinner at her place there...
then fridae...
met mummy and daddy @ J8..
they accompanied me to artfriend there see things..
end up waste the trip cos nvr really buy anythingg..
then off we went to plaza sing...
dine at hot tomato agn :P
i had teriyaki chicken with spag :)
yummm yumm.. :) set meal...
end up 9 dollars only :P
hahas.. so worth it~!!
then we went walk alot at daiso...
bought alot of stuff.. total of 19 items :P
but i only bought 4 among the 19 =x
then went to kylie's place and start doing the stuff...
try this try tat...
now my nails all.... scratched till very badly.. >.<
hahas.
tmr going watch movie with gladys , jovin , dejun and louis..
hahas.. hope its gonna be fun :)
i hope my faith wun fail me.. but im already all ready for this important day :P
my 18th birthday ^^
woohoos~

thanks mummy and daddy for accompanying me run here and there >.<
sry to waste u two's travel fares :P
thanks lots for hearing me grumbleee =x
many thanks for helping me out repeatingg.
ty darling for accompanying mee. im gonna wear that tube which u encouraged me to buy tmr! :P
hahas... hope everything is gonna be well :)
nite nite :)
happy 18th birthday to myself :)
hope i manage to get a soft toy for as one of my present ! *prays*
thank god for everything :) amen.

advance advanceee~

2009-05-20T01:18:00.000+08:00

woohoos~!!
went out with my gers! :P
gladys.. jovin.. maymay.. natasyah.. balqis..
thanks for the great day :)
it started off... with movie :)
the uninvited..
not bad.. 3 out of 5 ratingg =)
not really very nice.. but twist was nicee.. :P
after tat... we went to chit chat at paradiz plaza..
hahas.. after tat may went to meet her bf.. and the rest of us...
went to play lan..
played dota with gladys >.<
sry nata for speaking too loudly >.<
there really cannot hear myself ><
after tat... we went to chit chat.. snap pics at a new shoppingg mall..
duno wats the name.. >.<>
well.. after tat...
we went to rochor there eat beancurddd!! :X yummyy.
snapped more pictures there..
chit chat lots too.. after tat.. we went to a free space area at laselle..
and play true or dare >.<
kinda funn.. but after awhile.. we got bored.. and chit chat...
then after tat.. 10 plus and home we went~
i recieved a turtle soft toy pencil case & a OP tshirt :)
thanks.. i nvr recieve shirt as a bdae present before.. >.<
thanks mum and dad for my new phonee :)
been wanting one for very very longg :)
lovee u all~ cant wait for my bdae to arrive...
hope on 23rd.. everything will get alot alot better.. ^^

had badminton trainingg..
was damn tired after spending 10hrs in school...
oh gosh.. my tiredness is getting the better of me already >.<
serene needs some self disciplineee!!

angel and demon.

2009-05-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

well..
fridae went to meet my huiru jie..
hahas..
we had kfc at tampines there for dinner.. before heading over to my godma's house..
yipppee..
so fun.. we chit chatted.. i chatted with my jeannette mei..
hahas.. although the fun was short lived.. i was happy..
it felt.. im home..
chatted with them until kinda tired then i went to bed..
saturdae..
lunch had minced meat porridge cook by my god mummy..
yummy.. simply delicious.. love home cook food :)
simple but tasty :)
i actually planned to go home on sunday night.. because..
i really love being there..
although just for a few days..
but i felt as if i return to my real home..
where i truly relax and love..
dinner had home cooked dishes cooked by mummy personally..
gt fries.. chicken wings.. soup..
vege... tofu.. fish..
yummm yumm~
eat till very very full.. long time since i had such a home cook food spread..
i felt.. at home..
then... went for movies with my keng jie and jeanette mei and xiu zhen jie..
ANGEL & DEMON ~!!
rating.. 5/5!
must watch~! the twist is simply lovely..
for me.. its best movie of the year..!
damn high quality moviee :) love it..
the plot is full of twists.. and suspension~!!
excellent movie..

then... after movies..
the bad part came..
dad demand me to go home becos sundae nid go..
pray for big uncle..
i wasnt given a choice..
i probably know my own choice and reasons..
but well.. im home already.. going against wat i had in mind..

alrite.. going to go sleep soon..
a part of me had disappearred..
wonder when i can find tat part back..

damn accurate >.<

2009-05-12T23:19:00.002+08:00

todae.. i did a damn accurate personality test..
@ http://www.goldinuniverse.com/
my frens and i tried..
all accurate >.<>
the results......

You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.
You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.
It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realise those dreams and to turn them into reality.

first bdae present.

2009-05-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

first bdae present~!!

hahas.. its a mug frm Gideon & Kylie..

suppose to have work todae frm 3pm to mn..

but then.. the manager cancelled it suddenly tis noon =.=

so retarded.. so i went home.. and decided to meet them for dinner..

to celebrate my bdae cos next week kinda hectic..

hahas.. :) i rather celebrate advance than belated..

well..

met them at PS at ard 5 plus~

then we went to eat at Hot Tomatoes..

that place food is nice and its cheap.. :) ard 10 dollar each person for a filling western dinner set :)

hahas.. yumm yumm..~

should visit there some other time again ^^

well.. after we eat and chit chatt..

we went to the arcadee~!!

hahas.. had fun over there.. then off we go for Kovan..~

there kylie bought her grandma some porridge..

then we went to her grandma place and she place her the porridge..

chit chat with gideon abt steamboat and stuff..

hahas.. after tat kylie went to bring chubby and tiffy down.. and we met..

Thai..

hahas.. chit chat alot alot.. chit chat chit chat..

then ard 10 plus , decided to go homeee~!

hahas.. tmr gonna be another long dae..

got events meeting after sch.. and... then gt badminton training oso..

hope training will be interesting enuff though..

nite nite.. :)

wonder if tis yr's bdae is gonna be any different frm the others..

week after week..

2009-05-11T02:44:00.000+08:00

hmms..
previous week has been a long tiring week for me...
alot of activities.. hahas..
mondae : swimming with gladys and jovin.. absolutely fun :)
tuesdae : badminton training.. enjoyable but tiring..
wednesdae : s&w.. badminton agn.. soso average..
thursdae : badminton with jovin , gladys , maymay , wenyan , tempestt , yiling , liangyi , yaoguang and aaron.. was kinda fun.. coming thursdae going agn.. :)
fridae : didnt do much.. slack at home..
saturdae : slept till early evening :P shiok.. energy recharged.. dota dota..
sundae : stay home.. chit chat with dad.. lunch.. slack & slack..

hmms..
got sch at 8.30.. till 11am..
then after tat.. 3pm gt wrk till midnight..
confirm damn tired >.<
well.. for the sake of getting wat i want in life..
guess tis is just part of it..
alrite.. im really tired.. time to go sleep..

tis week's schedule...
mondae : sch then wrk.. till midnight >.<
tuesdae : sch.. events meeting.. then badminton training..
wednesdae : s&w... cfm tiring oso >.<
thursdae : badminton session at Yishun Sportshall with the people frm last session >.<
fridae : nt confirmed yet.

gosh.. another busy week..
tiring tiring..
alrite...
oyasumi~

ISP U ROCK~

2009-05-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

hahas.

tis is one of the daes tat will be hard to forget :)

it will be part of the 2 years i have in ite :)

well.. we had a ISP U ROCK event :)

very funn :) laughed so much in the event..

didnt know tat our class are actually all kinda child-like..

love things like playing with balloons and such :)

it was fun as everyone was active..

forfeits were funny :)

hahas.. todae.. at tat event.. i guess every1 felt together like a big family..

then in s&w.. ISP won against another class.. so proud of them although i nvr join in..

but seeing them winning and being so happy sort of make me feel happy for them :)

although my badminton skils seems alot worse than ytd =/

well.. farther injuried my left leg.. will was alr twisted on mondae after a swim >.<

slipped and fell.. accidentatly twisted my ankle..

didnt know it hurts.. ytd hurt alittle and todae hurt till kinda numbing..

=/ tmr gt badminton session with a few pple frm my class and my usual clique of 4.. hahas..

hope my left ankle wun hurt so much for tmr :) nitey.

sports everydae is tiring me out totally.. yet dota crave still alive..

precious moments.

2009-05-03T04:26:00.000+08:00

hahas..

well... tis is the first time i collaging using so many fotos..

spent quite some time adjusting the things.. cos different fotos at diff time of the dae..

hahas.. >.<

well.. its a foto tat consist of all the precious memories i had.. 1 from almost every outing i had..

unless i couldnt find a foto of me with sum1 else.. =/

hahas ^^

lovely memories forever in my mind ^^

all those memories are unique and one of a kind..~

never will those memories be re-created..

all outings were different..

some is alot pple.. some is just a small group..

some is whole dae..

some is just a few hrs..

some is plenty of activities..

some is just a few activities here and there..

but wateva the case is..

all were fun filled for me :)

absolutely enjoyable precious moments..

love my photography cos..

u can never see the ugly side of humans inside the fotos i take..

all the innocent smiling faces :)

u can see nothing beyond that smile..

which is good in a way for me..

i never like the realistic world.. not a kind of place i belonged to..

here i am.. 4am plus in the morning..

typing all tis.. hahas..

most pple i know would have already been deep in their sleep already..

but im glad.. at a certain point of time..

i left a certain memory in those pple i know.. be it good or bad..

those were the marks of me in their life..

im already happy enuff tat i have all the precious memories i would love to have..

i would give anything to forever keep those moments in mind..

but my poor memory wun allow tat to happen..

thus tats wat my blog is for :)

personal reference for me.. to know the important and special moments..

:) nite nite.. im so tired now..

fun filled day.

2009-05-02T15:43:00.000+08:00

went to ehub to meet gladys , her bf (glenn) and dejun...
at first louis was coming too.. but something caught up...
well.. first we went to buy tickets for HorseMan then we went to nihon mura..
and had our buffet high tea there.. :)
we ordered lots and lots of food..
and i ate alot of makis =x
hahas... while they ate alot of sashimii..
well.. the food tat not bad..
but the service needs to be improve by alot..
we left there at ard 4pm..
then we head for the arcade..
and played a few games there..
after tat.. ard 5.. we went for the movie , horseman..
its not bad.. 4 out of 5 rating..
the gore is definately there..
and the ending was touching for me..
although the movie almost made me puke..
well... after the movies.. we went to the arcade agn!
and played initial d 4 & basketball game :)
so glad tat me & gladys manage to beat dejun & glenn's highscore :)
was totally amazing for me cos i dun really know hw to play..
i think mostly of it is gladys score =x
so much funn~ :)
then we left for pasir ris mrt stn..
bought drinks and shared them on the way there..
then we train-ed down to dhouby ghaut..
and hang around there for awhile before going to paradiz plaza..
actually wanted to play L4D but the lan shops were all full..
so we ended up at the arcade =x
and played alot of games.. :)
damn damn funnn~
ard 10.45.. we headed for the bus stop and all went home..
so much fun i had :) till i came hm exhausted and couldnt even finish typing..
had to type all tis on the next dae i woke up :P
hope a day like tis will come again soon :)
finally the month of may have arrive..
hope the whole month will be fun filled and smooth sailing for mee~!!

grapeee.

2009-04-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

i havent been blogging muchh...
was kinda busy with the sch stuff...
finally have some spare time to sit down and blog..
hahas..
mondae ended sch.. then went window shopping with gladys and jovin..
at far east plaza..
we walked and ended up chatting at one place for 3 hrs ><
hahas.. had so much fun chattingg..
after tat.. was a shared dinner and sushiisss~
then home we goo...
tuesdae was kinda boringg =/
waited 5 hrs agn for badminton training ><
hope next week onwards can use the time more meaningfully..
we had a movie in the library and borrowed some books during the 5 hrs..
after tat was badminton training..
had much fun playing with balqis..
i still got so much to learn..
so much tat i nid to improve on.......
i wanna be able to play properly together with grape...
hahas..
well.. went home after tat..
parents was so thoughtful tat they bought dinner for me..
although i protested against it >.<
hahas...
wednesdae which is todae...
had s&w.. woohoos. fun..
other classes were plain boring i guess =/
hmms..

some stuff happened tis few daes..
i was soon to realise..
liking grape doesnt mean i have to put my life on hold to wait for him..
grape is important to me..
but then...
liking him now.. one sided...
is gonna get more and more tough as the daes go pass...
seeing him just makes me feel so carefree..
so happy..
being able to talk to him makes me feel... happy..
im satisfied just being able to be around him..
having him as a stead is wat i want..
but.. now.. its satisfied..
at least we dun avoid each other...
which might happen if i ever confess to him..
i duno.. honestly.. im at lost when deciding anything ard him..
or involving him... im lost..

busy busyyy

2009-04-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

thursdae...
we went out...
after the long boring talk..
we went to plaza sing to celebrate kissie's bdae which shld be on the 24th =/
so much fun..
we ate at kfc..
then we went to istana park and snap lots and lots of pictures together :)
enjoyed myself alot :) so so funn~~
hope there is more to come ^^

nw... gonna sleep quite soon..
just came back from work not very long ago..
backbone aching alot now..
sobs.. gonna rest my tired body..
todae wrk gave me lots of torture..
but i learn tat.. sometimes u just have to grit ur teeth and bear with it..
im just so glad everything is over...
gonna take a week's break frm wrk.. way too tiringg..
tmr might be going out with cousinnns =/
hope its gonna be fun..~
niteeee~

understandings.

2009-04-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

hmms.
tis few daes kinda busy so never blog muchh...
mondae had sch in the morningg.. and wrk in the evening till late night..
then tuesdae like zombie in sch >.<
had badminton training..
kinda fun but weird too.. =/
waited for 5 hrs for tat 1 hr of badminton ><
todaee.. had s&w..
favourite subject excluding the NAFA test. xP
hahas.. badminton bazooka! =x
damn damn funnn~ ^^
well...
kinda tired.. can feel my throat burning after a round of run =/
duno why.. maybe body getting sick soon.. ><
lack of rest then exercise alot... =/
hahas.. tmr gt 2 hrs classes... after tat going to a talk =/
then after the long draggy 5 hrs talk..
we gonna go out celebrate kissie's bdae!! :P
woohoos. cfm damn funn~! miss going out with my clique :)
Gonna bring my camera there for lots of snapshots!!
cant wait for tmr...! ^^

we are history.

2009-04-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

well..

we went movie watchingg~!!

we watched ' taken '

its very nice and cool :)

very matrix style.. hahas.. :P

:) well...

before movie watching.. me , gladys , jovin & louis went to arcade to play games..

so fun sia! :P

we played alot different type of games while Dejun is still on his way frm his earlier activites..

hahas.. :)

everyone had so much fun..

after movies we went to istana park there with snacks & drinks.. and slack at there :)

hahas.. so much funnnn~

well.. fridae was work after sch..

then.. after tat.. saturdae is oso work..

todae finally gt some time to slack :)

and relax myself..

later going meet my god sisters..

and then tmr gonna be sch and work..

gonna be a busy week ahead..

hope my body will be able to take it~!!! :)

jiayouuusss~

some stuff.. once lost is lost..

no matter how hard u try..

u wont be able to retrieve it back anymore..

i love our frenship just the way it WAS..

but then.. everything seems so different now..

im so tired frm always repairing the cracks in our frenship..

its tiring me out totally..

i miss the old days which was easy and stress free..

but those days are only in history..

becos u and i have both changed for the worse or better..

i tried too hard till im starting to crack from inside alr..

tis few daes..

2009-04-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

well..
tis few daes hasnt being blogging much..
cos kinda busyy..
well.. sch started.. first dae of sch.. guess wat we (gladys, jovin & me) did =x
we went to find dejun at his work place after sch ends..
hang ard there till he finish work.. and we chit chat and such..
hahas.. so fun..!
had a great meal at swenson :):):)
after tat... 2nd dae.. tuesdae..
after sch went to kylie's hse to bake stuff with gladys after sch..
had some fun there too..
todae.. finally some badmintoonn~~!!
hahas..
had so much fun todae.. :)
but now whole body oso tired...
:) tis few daes so much fun and laughter.. hope things will get even better :)

i need to understand u more..
i really have so much tat i wanna find out abt u..

mentally drained.

2009-04-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

todae..
went to cut hair with my aunt at fusion...
after tat.. slacked at home.. last dae before sch reopens..

disappointments.
planned before the holidays to bake cupcakes for april 14..
and now.. everything is destroyed..
just become i relied on someone's confirmation..
i guess.. i shouldnt rely on anyone at all..
at least.. not her anymore..
everytime.. she makes me rely on her..
when i rely on her.. i get shit from her..
to her.. april 14 nt important.. but its important for me..
have u always realise one thing?
when something happened , u always ask me to UNDERSTAND you.
when im UNDERSTANDING you.
whose gonna understand me?
sad to sae.. understanding oso have a limit.
im getting tired of always going your way..
giving YOU understandings tat U request..
wat abt ME?
i always try my best to put u first..
but.. i had enuff.
i trust u with my plan..
and now everything has went down the drain..
u help me onto the peak of the mountain and now..
u kicked me off the mountain..
im so tired of all tis...
keep trying to lie to myself.. for wat fcuk!
everything dun seem to go right.. tis wrong tat oso wrong..
when will lady luck come for me..?

family bbq

2009-04-12T05:03:00.000+08:00

went to...
a family outing~
bbq at downtown east.. cos sis took a chalet for the weekends :P
hahas..
overall.. it was serious fun :)
we will do this again somedae i hope :)
hees..
we had lots of yummy food..
chicken wings... mashmellows!... hotdogs...
and lots more :P
all yummy yummy~!!
had so muchh funn~ yippeee..
i guess.. a few stuff tat happened have changed my thinking abt some stuff..
well..
some stuff are better gained thru experiences..
commitments are hard to bear with..
but i will try to stay commited into actions tat my thinking had set..
suddenly.. i feel so scared of losing anyone dear to me...
i dun wanna feel that horrible feeling agn..

god.. if u are going to take anyone away from me..
please take me..
i dun wan to go thru tat feeling of losing someone dear agn..
it hurts so badly.. i can still remb the pain till tis day..
it hurts.

drained

2009-04-11T04:53:00.000+08:00

hmms..
love is smth tat can seriously change someone..
it can drive someone to madness..
but it can oso drive someone to strive hard..
life is something tat everyone has to go through..
the world is unfair.. no doubt abt tat..
sometimes... i just feel so tired being around humans..
although im a human too..
but i duno why.. i experience such weariness..
exhausted by all this humans around me..
love isnt blind...
love makes u turn blind.. to everything around u..
i had enuff for todae..
my postivity is maxed out alr for todae..
my stamina is so weak..
i cant be positive all years long..
whenever i reach home..
inside my room.. its when i can recharge the positivity by being neutral mood..
im so tired out...
being positive.. and smiling no matter wat for the whole dae..
till.. my emotions are all drained...
i have never felt tis way before...
like u cant even find 1 bit of positivity in u anymore..
totally drained out.. no energy..

had buffet at sakura with my aunts and my cousin.. my sis & her bf..
kinda nice.. but the standard dropped..
well... after tat was shoppingg....
we shopped for hrs~!!
and i gt myself 2 topman shirts :P
to me , its very nice ~
hahas.. overall todae damn fun..
tmr going bbq with family and relatives at downtown east..
hope it will be fun :))

2nd trainingg

2009-04-10T03:03:00.002+08:00

hmms..

2 pics of the dae.. its linked..

one at the top is a house with a heart door..

the picture name is door into the heart..

the second one which is at the btm..

is a big bunch of keys..

im trying to imply is that..

im trying hard to find a certain key tat can unlock that heart door of urs..

well.. i know it will be kinda hard..

but i wanna give it my best shot at it..

probably u wun ever know about all tis..

cos i dun intend to tell u anything abt it..

until.. next yr.. if next yr , i still have the same feeling for u..

i will accept my feelings and confess to u..

on the condition tat by tat time.. im already able to love myself..

im still learning to love myself..

because if u cant love yourself... you cannot love another..

so... tat will be at least another around 8 months..

well.. :) im gonna jiayou on my side to work out the plan..

from now onwards..

i will be studying & working on the same time..

its time i earn my keep..

:) im tired of always asking extra money frm my parents.. >.<

i wanna be more independent!!

well..

went to banquet training agn with gladys..

todae didnt do much.. time passed very quickly..

well.. before going for the training..

i actually had lunch with gladys , louis & dejun...

at PIZZA HUT!

hahas.. deliciousss...

so long never eat baked rice... yum yumm~!!

we joked and laughed thru the whole entire time there..

after tat... we went to the arcade!!

XP super the fun.. hahas..

we drove.. shot... =x damn fun sia~~!!

hahas... after tat.. louis and dejun have to go off for their moviee..

and me and gladys went walking ard...

hahas.. after tat was training for us...

kinda got teased by the senior assistant director =.=

he is oso training us..

and he kept teasing me >.<>

hahas..

after the training..

was dinner and lots of chit chatting with gladys..

then home sweet homeeee..

tmr.. oso known as laterrrr...

gonna have buffet at sakura international buffet restaurant >.<

with my aunts.. keith and sis and her bf...

alrite... tats all for todae..

my determination... seems stronger than before..

i wanna be able to hold on to this feelings..

i dun wanna lose them..

i will try my best to hold onto my determination and find the right key..

i'll wait for you.. and myself to be ready to confess to you..

scars

2009-04-09T03:27:00.000+08:00

why tis picture todae..?
well...
tis picture is a heart... tear into many many pieces..
and a tape trying to tape it back..
no matter how it is tape back..
it will always always.. have scars on it..
so... hearts are very fragile things..
hearts are one thing that heals with time..
but... scars can never disappear.. never..
scars are things tat.. can nvr be heal..
not by time... not by anyone...

well...
i went to banquet training at conrad hotel with gladys..
not bad the training..
learned a few stuff... :)
well.. tmr gonna lunch with gladys , dejun & louis..
hahas.. got training again.. >.<>
nida wake up at 9am.. byees.

2009-04-06T23:19:00.001+08:00

woohoos..
tis 2 daes so... BUSY~!!
hahas.. yesterday..
went to ecp with gladys , jovin , kylie , keith , dejun & louis..
hahas.. found a shelter.. we had picnic then they went cycling..
i sat there and did some photography and drawingg...
hahas.. after 2 hrs.. they came back.. we finished the food..
then off we went homeee..~!!
after i reach hm..
chit chat here and there.. slept at 5am >.<

todaeee...
went to meet desmond and kylie..
hahas..
we went to buy tickets for the Unborned!
>.<
ended up only gt me and kylie..
the movie is 3.5/5..
the storyline is kinda weird...
its kinda abt twins..
well.. the animation is good..
the sound effect nt bad..
main point is...
its more scary than MIRRORS or OMEN.
>.<>
overall..
we had jelly legs after the movie >.<
after some shopping at carrefour..
home sweet home..

jiayouu!!

2009-04-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

the above....
is the fairytale of rapunzel..
cute right..?
well... it belongs to the fairytale world only..
in reality...
none of this will ever occur...
fairytales are good to dream about...
but it will nvr come true in reality...
tis is a fairytale.. which i wanted to live in..
but... too bad.. reality has never fail to wake me up..
well... i guess we dun really have a choice whether to live in a fairytale of reality...
no one wants to live in reality if fairytales can last forever..
but sometimes reality is really too scary.. and frighteningg...
till it freaks me out..
sometimes... i wish we can choose which dreams can come true..
and which wun..

im already trying my best for u..
but its been so one sided slope... till..
im feeling so breatheless...
so....exhausting...
keep trying to climb up on the slope... yet i just seem to be slipping off...
more and more...
the slope seems to get harder and harder to climb...
i seem to be slipping off more than i can climb..
im trying to reach the top of ur mountain...
well.. starting from tmr onwards... im gonna...
go on a diet on my own ^^
hope i will suceed..
im not doing it just for you.. but oso for myself..
i wish to see... a prettier me..
nt the me now..
i wish to be able to look into the mirror and love wat i see..

steamboat dinner

2009-04-01T04:10:00.000+08:00

steamboat outinggg with gladys , jovin , Dejun , Louis , keith and kylie...
seven of us... went to la mei zi steamboat restaurant and eat...
eat till..... so full >.<>.<
goshh.. think we all ate too full~
well... we went to suntec sky garden and took lots of pictures!
hahas.. >.<>
but too bad :P i promise nt to publish themm~!!
hahas... well...
long time since i had so much fun & laughter...
well.... overall todae...
play till kinda tired...
had so much fun eating & chatting..
alot of jokes happen during steamboat dinner...
for the first time.... i ate so much during a buffet.. and didnt stop much for 2 hrs?!
hahas... :) i think next time wanna eat buffet must call more pple..
chit chatting lets me survive thru buffet sessions..
after all tat... slack alittle at suntec mac...
then off we go for homee!!
hahas..
after tat.. was a dota session with keith and dejun~
later results coming out alr.... goshhh >.<>
nervous me...

workworkwork

2009-03-31T14:47:00.000+08:00

sundae..
went to work at holidae inn hotel..
in the early morning... somemore...
the previous nite didnt sleep at all..
couldnt find my black skirt or my black shoes >.<
in the end... my mum manage to find another black skirt..
and i had to go to mustafa to buy a pair of black shoe >.<
luckily gt my cousin accompany me go to work...
if nt i think i will sleep my way on the train.. >.<
well... work was nt exactly very tough..
alot more relaxing compared to meritus mandarin...
well... the managers are kinda nice and friendly... :)
the staff there.... are the usuals... =/
well... work ended at 6pm...
went to had my dinner with gladys and keith(my cousin) who were oso wrking with me..
then... went to eat beancurd.. yummmy!
hahas...
then bused home..
paiseh keith & gladys , i kept leaning against u two when slping x.x
after i reach home... fainted on my bed straight away :P
coma for the next 17 hrs.. >.<
hahas.. woohoos~

mondae..
slacked at home the whole eveningg.. since i only woke up @ 3pm >.<
well....
was kinda fun... cos my cousin is around accompanying me..
but wednesdae he is going home already..
so sad.. how i wish i had him as a real brother >.<
then he can always be around to pei me :P

todae...
nw prepared to go out le...
meeting gladys , kylie , louis & dejun for shop shop @ orchard..
then after tat... going meet jovin too at evening..
tonight going to have steamboat dinner! woohoos~!! :)
confirm will be damn fun..
tmr exam results coming out le >.<>
im kinda worried nw...
>.<>.<
omgggg...~~~

prawning agn

2009-03-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

ytd...
keith and I went to meet kylie first at kovan... then we trained down to orchard..
meet with gladys , dejun & louis...
then we went to shaw house there.. and had mos burger as lunch..
then off we went to far east plaza to shop shop and walk ard...
then after tat...
went to cineleisure to hand in some stuff for the wrk...
then slack abit... after tat.. head for plaza sing to meet jovin...
then off we go to prawning at bishan!!
hahas..
didnt catch alot...
i caught only.... 1 for the whole nite >.<
maybe cos share rod.. then i didnt really prawn alot... =/
well...
but gt tis 2 uncle very nice.. give us their prawns..
funny lor >.<>
hahas.. ^^
well... after tat... we bbqed some prawns.. as usual.. it taste great.. :)
after tat... cabbed with kylie , louis and keith...

well... some stuff happened between the whole outing...
but.. well.. its over.. i just hope it will nvr happen agn..
i guess we were both at fault.
i ought to have take the issue better =
im sorry.

well.. im sorry for whatever tat happened..
i shouldnt have lose my cool when i know u meant no harm..
i was very affected by my backbone pains..
tats why wasnt exactly in a good mood..
and lost my cool so easily...
but well... i really hope u wun ever do tat agn..
i felt so hurt of wat u had done..
crying seems to be the only thing i can do..
other than crying i duno wat to do alr..
i really couldnt believe tat.... u actually did......................
but.. it was a fact tat u really did it..
i hope.. it will nvr happen agn...
i doubt i can take another blow.. i duno hw am i suppose to...
explain to u.. hw important our frenship is to me..
yet.. it seems nothing to u.

in life. its either to kill or to be kill..
i chosen nt to kill. thus im killed.

days of fun

2009-03-27T11:05:00.000+08:00

well..
tis few daes been kinda fun & busy..
it started on wednesdae....
i went swimming with gladys & kylie...
damn fun and we talk abt some funny stuffs too...
had lots of fun...
enjoyed the day alotalot with them...
after tat, gladys went home...
then me and kylie went to have dinner together...
so filling till i almost puke..
then after tat...
i went to kylie's house and baked CUPCAKES!
hahas =x
after baking was home sweet home for me...

then thursdae...
i met with kylie at 1030...
and we went to had heavy breakfast...
after tt... we were playing at the badminton court while waiting for gladys and dejun to arrive..
after they reach.. we played till around 4pm..
we had lots of funny moments.. i laugh till stomach ache sia..
kana whacked twice by gladys >.<
heng nothing much.. nt big injury..
hahas.. had so much fun & laughter...
i really like all the badminton sessions alot..
all so fun :) and really brighten the dull week...
after badminton.. we went to the cafe and had the cupcakes i made...
and there was tis... freaking rude china shop assitant =.=
i shld nt mention much. but she went seriously overboard.
well... after leaving there.. kylie went home..
the 3 of us bused to amk...
then me and gladys went to our interview at cineleisure..
was kinda funny..
the two of us in sports attire.. carrying badminton rackets at cine..
hahas..
the interivew was... sucessful :)
next week gonna start wrk alr..
after dinner... with gladys and jovin...
went to meet my cousin as he will be staying over my place..
till mondae..
hahas.. well...
later going window shopping in the afternoon with gladys , louis and Dejun + keith & kylie..
at nite gonna go....
PRAWNING!
woohoos :X
cfm damn fun again...
nw having severe backaches..
damn pain... =/ gonna hv to endure it then..

beloved

2009-03-25T04:31:00.000+08:00

couldnt sleep... =/

duno why cant sleep tonight...

well... look thru the pictures...

realise a few things...

and decided to make tis collage...

it have all the people who i truly love and treasure in my life..

people whom i wanna always have in my life..

well... i wanna sae a BIG thank you to all of them.. :)

hahas...

all of them have left alot memories in my life..

there were happy and sad memories...

but sad memories are meant to be forgotten :)

and happy memories are meant to be kept in my heart :)

i wanna thank you all one by one :)

start with.....

BeeBee my soft toy :P , although its just a soft toy..

but it had walk me thru alot of tough moments in my life..

it had experienced alot of teary moments with me..

as well as joyous ones too...

then.. my parents.. although we always quarrel..

but in my heart.. i love u all a lot..

just we all got a bad way of expressing our loves & concerns..

i know u all love me a lot.. tats why i really wanna give u both a gd life..

next.. sister..

we always quarrel...

but we are blood related..

its just our character are opposite of each other..

and...well.. lots of stuff happened..

but i will always remb the happy times we had..

then... my cousin keith..

we dun really talk a lot.. cos i nvr go every fridae gathering..

but i have my own reasons for not going...

probably nvr gonna tell u why..

but i really like talking to u.. especially cos..

u are the closest relative i have :)

=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

nw... end of relatvies/family..

frens :)

gladys...

you are always the joker of our clique..

having u ard is always full of fun and laughter..

hahas.. my buffet buddy :)

u nvr fail to brighten any dull outing days :)

jovin..

although kinda naggy :P

but... very caring :)

very careless... yet cute :)

thanks for always showering ur concerns :)

and thanks for always hearing me out..

yana...

my sayang in sch..

although sometimes our views crash..

but.. i always appreciate the times we had..

the memories we share..

thought i might nt be ur best fren..

but.. u will always be mine :)

maylene..

we do hv views crashes too =/

but... ur cuteness and bubbly always make me smile :)

love the memories we share :)

dejun & louis..

hahas. probably none of u two gonna ever read tis..

although we know each other only for very little while..

but ur jokes had always been brightening my days..

ur encouragement.. gentleman-ness...

are greatly appreciated :)

thanks for being such a gd fren~!

hmms.. im missing out someone.. :P

obviously if she looking at tis post..

she shld be searching for her name =x

well.. she is Kylie :)

we went thru alot of tough times when we're in high sch..

alot of bad moments..

but those are the moments which strengthen our frenship..

as we grew from experiences..

our frenship stands stronger..

i know there isnt forever..

but i seriously hope... we can be best frens forever :)

thanks for being there for me..

understanding me..

cheering me up.. listening to my grumbles..

thank you a lot :)

i really appreciate tat all :)

most imptly.

i must thank god for giving all my beloved to me...

all of u are like colours of my rainbow..

without u all...

i cant imagine how dull my life would be..

i cant even imagine wat kind of person i would be..

thank you all for every effort u hv gave for our frenships :)

i love you all lots~!!

botanical garden

2009-03-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmms.. todae..
meet gladys & keith at 11am+ for a interview...
woohoos~ finally gt 1 dae job frm agent..
hope got more jobs to come ! :)
well.... well...
after the interview..
we went for lunch @ KFC Cineleisure...
after lunch.. we went window shopping at far east plaza..
then keith went off for his 1 dae hilton sg hotel wrk...
then we decided to head for botanical garden!
hahas... we walked thru the entire botanical garden =/
and we ended up at the end of the garden.. somewhere at bukit timahs >.<
after tat...
we bused back to orchard and caught a movie.. Paul Blart the mall cop..
hahas..
damn damn funny.. 4/5 rating for the movie...
good for laughter and worth the ticket.. :)
after the comedy movie..
we went to Plaza Singapura for our dinner..
yumm yummy... at kopitiam tat indonesian rice stall..
hahas.. after tat was home sweet home..

next two daes gonna be kinda busy..
tmr... swimming with gladys and kylie :):):)
then... thursdae.... badminton with DeJun, Louis , Gladys and Kylie..
hahas.. :) busy busy...~ fridae shld be prawningg!
sundae gt work.. so probably saturdae will slack at home..
hope keith can stay over.. hahas.. then got pple pei me liaos~
tats all... im gonna go shower and sleep soon..
tired tired~

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i duno why...
i dun understand hw u can make my heart beat fast...
but.. for now..
i only wanna know you better...
i wanna figure out who u really are...
i wanna understand u...
i will be trying my best.. :)

meaningless life

2009-03-24T01:47:00.001+08:00

well..
why tis picture of the day?
well.... tis picture shows a lady.. thinking which mask to put on..
suddenly.. looking back..
lots of people... ard me... tat i know... have been wearing masks..
i do not understand why make it so hard for urself...
its like.. nobody ever know when who or who is being herself/himself..
its scary for me.. cos... i hate it to hv to be aware of everyone ard me..
but tat seems to be the only way to protect myself..
but... its so tiring...
tats why sometimes i just love staying at home..
dun hv to be aware of anyone... =)
can be myself at home.. dun nid think of wat others will think..
hahas... wonderful at times :) but kinda bored sometimes...
recently nvr do much..
cant find any pt jobs.. so everydae rest at home..
fully charge until cannot charge le..

i didnt know when i fallen for you...
i just have tis special feeling whenever i see u..
my heart skips a beat at times..
its like.... as if i waited forever for a guy like u..
but sad to say...
im nvr gonna tell u all tis..
past experiences had provided me with enuff evidences..
tat confession doesnt work well...
well... im just gonna be by u..
see whether feelings are strengthen or weaken by time...
tis time round.. i leave it all to nature...
if it works out.. then good..
if not.. then its okay too...
im feeling so attracted to u.. yet......
we are so apart...
but i know.. tat... i only know very little of u..
its the feeling tat make my heart race..
but for nw.. all i can do is wait.. and go with the flow.......

badmintonn

2009-03-20T23:59:00.001+08:00

hahas...
well...
todaee... badminton session with.. Gladys , Jovin , DeJun & Louis..
at hougang stadium..
Thank Jovin for helping me bring racket ^^
hahas...
we started half an hr earlier tis time round =/
hahas... we played from 3pm-6pm...
in between.. lots of laughingg... smackingg... injuries x.x
hahas...
damn damn fun ^^
welll... todae i learnt quite a few more stuff abt badminton...
played till my right shoulder muscles damn pain =/
we are going prawning next saturdae agnn!! =x
but tis time round early morning >.<
hahas...
well... i really had lots of fun and laughter todae...
and i got myself 2 new nicknames frm gladys the nickname generator :P
hahas... 'cataput' and 'slam-dunk'..
hahas.. =/ i shld nt elaborate wats with the nicks :P
well... i honestly had lots of fun...
lots of jokes todae ^^
hope next fridae gt badminton session agn ^^
after the dinner.. home sweet home...
had 2 dota games with DeJun...
then off i go.. slacking with my psp..
tmr gonna hv a gd dae's rest.. cfm wake up body ache =x

well...
honestly.. u are just a vase..
u got the looks.. but inside of u...
u gt nothing at all...
i duno why u love fooling with guys' feelings..
betraying them agn & agn.
is it in ur genes? i really dislike u alot...
i duno why u love hurting guys...
but i really hope u will just stop hurting guys..
cos one dae.. karma will visit u.
u made me regret alot intro-ing him to u..
if i hadnt done so 5 yrs back..
maybe tis tragedy will nvr happen...
i cant imagine why u love to spoil his life...
he had such good future but nw...
he is nothing but a empty soul.
one dae. karma will get you for it.

actual time : 4.26am 21st March 2009.

prawningg

2009-03-18T23:59:00.001+08:00

todaee...!
WE includes gladys , yana and keith..
we went interviewingg...
and tis 2 hotels are so.... )(*%$#$%^&*(
they made us go there for nothing and waste 1 dae !!
waste my beauty sleep !! >.<
then after tat.. jovin came to meet us..
well.. after gladys left for her piano lesson,
we went to my mum workplace makan dessert...
yummmy!
after tat yana left for homee...
so me , keith and jovin head to Bishan to meet gladys and her bf..
for tonight's activity : PRAWNING !
the 5 of us met up with gladys's frens , DJ & Louis..
hahas.. 7 of us had dinner together at the prawning place..
then we went to prawninng! at first was kinda disgusting cos of the bait..
but after tat was fine ^^
hahas... we used 3 rods and we couldnt even catch 30 prawns >.<
cos we were kinda new to tis prawning activity but it was damn fun !!
hahas.. gt tis 2 kind souls actually gave us their prawns XP
which is alot alot.. ard 2kg plus of prawns ^^
but i didnt take home any... =/
well... after prawning we did a mini bbq and bbq-ed the prawns we catch on our own..
it smells great and the taste was great too! although kinda saltish :P
well...
overall i had fun todae.. really really lots of fun..
and took many many photos todae.. close a hundred >.<>
im so happyy ^^
serene is happy todae :)

actual time : 3.14am XP 19 march 09'

2009-03-18T01:59:00.002+08:00

tis is the picture of the dae..

why tis picture..? its a picture of lots and lots of diff colour pencil in a container..

to me.. it represents the different type of things tat happy in our life..

unpredictable.. and the colour represents the different mood we have when a certain thing happened..

the colour is decide by ourselves.. although we cant control wat will happen..

we can control and decide our mood when we realise wat happened..

and wat kind of mindset we gonna take to face against wat happened..

see not the rain.. but the rainbow after the rain..

most of us only survived or died in the rain part.. we usually dun make it all the way till the rainbow part...

but... some of us made it to the rainbow easily.. why so?

cos.. attitude :)

their attitude to life is so positive tat rainbow appears easily in their life..

rather than thinking hw suckish ur life is..

might as well spend time thinking how u can actually improve ur life?

i used to be one of those who everyday think how suckish my life is..

till one dae.. a certain bird came to tell me abt this..

then i realise... i have been wasting alot of time pitying on myself..

rather than picking myself up..

its time all the self-pity ended. :) i must pick myself up and move on..

time wait for no man :) my youth has a certain expiry date..

and.. before it expired... i better spend it wisely as time traveling is still not quite available in tis world yet.. ^^

tats all of todae! :)

Im going to interview with my cousin and my frens agn at 2 other diff hotels..

wish me all the best ! :)

kylie and me formal day out

2009-03-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

Today..!

i went out with kylie..

dressed in a formal attire.. cardigen + tube dress! >.<

she also dressed formal to go along with mine attire =x

we met at around 11 am...

then off we go to plaza singapura.

we had our brunch at the kopitiam there..

its finally reopened!

we waited so long for tat indonesian rice stall~!!

of course we had tat as our brunch.. still taste as good as always..

after tat.. we both had dessert..

then we went off to arcade...

hmmms.. guessed wat...

we at first play ard... then kylie played them big big machine..

tat allows u to play a certain times till u reach JP for the soft toy...

hahas.. she won herself a stich! :)

thenn...

she touched my heart... by getting another same of her stich for me..

i was so damn happy..

she really didnt have to get me anythingg.. but she did..

ended up.. she spent around 80 at the arcade.. >.<>

well... then we ended up talking abit abt our past..

we know each other for ard 4 yrs already.. time flies -_-

well.. lots of stuff happened between us..

but now.. the stuff tat happened between us seems to have made us grow up..

time has given us the power to understand , forgive and forget..

after tat... we went to buy tickets...

we end up deciding to watch ' Race to Witch Mountain '

to be honest , i always thought tis movie is kinda dumb >.<

but... it surprised me with the interesting storyline and unpredictable outcome :)

its really nice and touchingg.. and the animation was... woohhooo!!

hahas.. :) i will rate it 4 out of 5...

becos..... it will be better if its 3D :) cos the animations suit 3D style better!

well... after movies... we went off to ikea... carrying our stich on the train...

everyone was staring at our attire and the stich >.<

hahas.. it was kinda weird.. but we soon didnt care much about it...

well.. after kylie is done with her shopping at giant and ikea..

we went back to her place.. and she started fixing up her stuff...

after tat was dinner.. then home sweet home..

hahas...

i really enjoyed myself alot todae..

:) happy happy day i had ^^

ty kylie for todayy.. sry to hv made u spent that much on the stich for me..

i really feel so guilty =/

welll... wadeva has happened between us is over alr :)

we have alr moved on and forgive & understand the issues..

so let it disappear with time :)

actual time : 2.46am 17th March 2009. :) tuesdae.

life

2009-03-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

picture of the dae : bed of roses + nails.

hmmms... why i choose tis picture?
it reflects life.
life is just like the abv...
the roses are the beautiful stuff that happened in our life...
and the nails.. are the negative stuff that happened in our life..
and our life is make up of both the roses & the nails..
no life is complete without the roses & the nails..
the roses made up the happy moments..
and the nails made up the sad moments..
it just depends whether ur life have more roses or nails..
but you can always choose to remove the nail and place a rose at there..
becos its your life..
its ur decision and you have the choice whether to make it..
a beautiful life filled with roses and little nails..
or... a sad life filled with nails and little roses..
the choice is in your hands. :)

well... todae i did nothing much..
slept till afternoon.. woke up and dota...
had lunch and chatted with dad...
then dota agn.. psp oso...
hahas.. relax sia! :x
long time nvr so relax already..
todae... up till now.. won 2 dota matches.. and lost 2.. =/
hahas.. the won matches... was really fun..
the lost matches.. was oso fun in a way :)
well...
overall its kinda fun... then after the matches..
went to have a chat with dad.. and sis.. and had tibits..
well.. soon gonna have a chat with a new fren i knoww frm garena!
hahas... X) oxydeprived i know u will be reading this!
thanks for the dota games todae! :)

homee.

2009-03-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

seeing this ss made me super the happy..!!

hahas.. well.. tis is wat i did todae.. =x

DOTA.

hahas... first time i got monster kill so im damn happy! =x

but after i gt the monster kill.. i get ganged up by the opponents.. =x

hahas.. but it was funn! :)

well.. suppose to go badminton playing with Jovin , gladys and her frens...

but couldnt wake up at all =x

hahas...

so i stayed homee whole dae.. made my own dinner..

and dota awayyy =x

abit no lifee todae =/ but its the few daes of rest I finally got..

after that long long studyingg weeks..

my resting will end once tat hotel training starts..

and we get cracking with banquet banquet banquets...

till sch starts again =/

so now is the short term slacking no life days =x

tmr should be another day of slacking and staying homee..!

hahaas :) love the daes i have whole dae to myself =)

i sorta miss the daes we hadd...

the fun we had..

the laughter we shared..

but now.. after i realise..

everything was just a mask..

things changed..

i refuse to keep lying to myselff...

i dun wanna let myself live in the world of illusions anymore..

its time.. i live the life in the way I will prefer..

u are out of my life. my thoughts. my soul.

becos.. u are all lies..

actual time : 12.12am , 14 March 09' Saturdae.

12 march 09

2009-03-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

todaee...
going to interview with Yana , Gladys , Jovin & Keith..
suppose to meet at 12 noon...
but my alarm clock didnt went off so...... =x
hahas.. only managed to reach there at 2pm..
after lunchh.. we went to Conrad Hotel to interview!
hahas... after tat.. acutally planned to go Grand hotel to interview..
but no more vacancy le...
well... so we were sitting at alot of different places..
chit chattingg.. and crappingg..
till i did smth damn sinfull!
i really didnt realise i said tat.. infront of himm..
i know i shouldnt have.. but.. it was a slip of tonguee..
x.x made me felt so guilty noww...
ermms.. after awhile more.. me and keith went off first...
then home sweet homeee..

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hmmms... i duno wat am i to youu..
u are makinggg.. such a hurricane in mee..
its killing me from within..
and i cant help it..
im helplessly trapped with u..
pls.. someone... save me from this blackhole..
im losingg every bit of what i always hold onto..
every scarr is killing within mee..

maymay bdae outingg

2009-03-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

todaee...

had tourism examm in the morningg after studyingg for... 3 solid hours..

the paper is kinda average.. nt too tough but nt easy either..

well... tat was tat...

finally... HOLIDAYS arrived! :)

well.. met my clique of gers in the afternoon after a refreshing bathh...

hahas.. we went to the Cathay to watch a moviee...

'He is just not into you' , the moviee is...

super meaningg.. and it taught me alot new stuff..

it made me realised wat was i doingg with my life too!

its nice , meaninggful & a highly rated MUST WATCH moviee!! :)

u wun regret watching it.. damn meaninggful for me..

after tat... we went to cineleisure to have dinnerr... and camwhored @ youth park..

during all tis happenings...

my feet was achingg damn badly cos... i was wearing heels >.<

damn pain frm all the continous walkingg up & down.. to and fro...

end up leavingg earlier cos...

im feelingg damn shagg and my legs were aching damn badly..

i didnt expect the pain.. it will take a longg time to recover...

so for at least the next few mths... i cant wear heels..

=/ after reach hm & showered , dotaa all the way..

tmr still got interview in the noon time siaa...

im off to bed soonn! nitenitee..

had so much fun todaee.. happy happy.. but paid a heavy price for it..

well... tis abovee phrase...

was gotten thru a test i did..

it was a psychology test.. about how far am i willing to suffer for love..

hahas.. kinda nice and accurate..

but most importantly, i really like tis sentence..

'when i said i loved you, i meant forever'

its like... super sweet..

but... is this sentence even possible?

no one knows..

actual time : 3.24am 12 March 2009.

scars

2009-03-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

todae...

its mainly about scars..

hahas.. tis topic has been floating in my mind for sometime...

why there are scars when the wounds are healed..

why sometimes.. even though the scar on the outside disappearred..

the scars inside will never disappear..

i dun understand why i forgive pple that hurt me..

but i just feel like forgiving pple..

bearing grudges against pple are too... troublesome for me..

too.. tiringg... too... wasting of time to bear grudges against anyonee..

i just forgive too easily for my own good..

>.<>

but.. its something I couldnt change.. i tried changingg..

but my heart softens damn easily..

hardening my heart would probably take something damn serious..

well..

being dumb or wat.. i simply dun wanna care :P

i love the way i am..

wat for force myself to change to someone im not and will nt be :)

its time for me to sleep already.. tmr still got marketing paper..

which i didnt study much for..

just couldnt concentrate.. all the best to myself..

bakingg

2009-03-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

todae...
woke up very very earlyy... xP
ard 9++.. so tired still...
right hand slight achingg.. =/ duno whyy..
showerred and went off to meet kylie at hougang..
had breakfast together at qiji..
yum yumm~ so full..
we went to buy baking stuff...
cos she wanna bake a cake on her own for her precious cousin.. :)
and im going to accompany her..
in the end.... she supplied me with some baking ingredients...
and im gonna make my own cake too~

after we reach her house..
we started preparing and bakingg...
had so much fun.. was kinda worried that my cake will fail..
cos its my first time making a cake.. and...
my cake was taking a long long time to be fully baked..
kylie's cake was very nice :)
hahas.. lovely decorated..
but the cream was kinda tricky!!
but we managed nonetheless~ :)

well... our cakes turn out successfully wonderful~!!
it makes me feel like going repair the oven at home...
but.. dun hv the resources to.. for now...
hmms.. im gonna try to master the skills of bakingg~!!
hahas... it burns my baking interest up again..
hahas... i love baking stuff...

hmmms...
i dunoo.. exams are coming real soon...
and... i know tat.. im nt in the right mood yet..
duno whyy.. my study mood are all gone..
stress like duno wat now..

mood swings.

2009-03-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

thursdae...

sch ended very early at 10.30 due to...
many class cancelled cos of the teacher..
hmms... well...
after tat.. was studyingg at different places with gladys and jovin..
couldnt really find a suitable place for studyingg..
well... we ended at novena area to study..
during we changing study places..
we went to cotton on and walk ard..
i bought a cardigen.. my first cardigen! and its kinda cheap too!
i bought a slippers too! :) black in colourr...
after tat was dinner.. and home sweet homee...

todae..
met gladys and jovin @ 10 plus... studied...
till ard 1pm... then...
went for lunch.. after tat we went to play badminton at hougang sports hall..
we played badminton together along with 3 of gladys's frens..
their name was... Louis, De Jun & Muthu..
i think =x im nt really good with names...
after badminton.. we clean up and went for dinner...
chit chatted abit.. and we gonna meet up agn..
next fridae.. for another badminton session :)
hahas... well.. tats abt it..

recently duno why...
my mood swings are getting alot worse...
at home.. when im alone..
i lose control of my mood damn easilyy...
i even cried myself to sleep ytd night..
i duno whyy... i couldnt really control my mood..
whenever im outside..
i have to control my mood swings very strongly..
i dun wanna freak pple out with my rapid mood swings...
the stress is killing me badly...
i can feel every part of my cells dyingg as the days pass..
i duno why.. and i cant control it at all..

actual time : 1.39am 7th March 09'

4th March 2009

2009-03-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

hmms.... well...

i made my own dinner tonight :)

tried first time...

used.. mushroom.. minced meat and egg :)

taste nice.. but it serves 2..

i cant eat finish at all.. :P

so full lors =/ well... it taste good.. probably nid more salt..

taste kinda plainn.. i had it with porridge :)

hees..

todae in sch..

nothingg much happened..

tmr after sch gonna revise and chiong marketingg...

=) hope i will be able to do it~!!

frens chalet and mount faber

2009-03-02T01:44:00.000+08:00

tis are the very few pics i took =/
didnt have much things for me to take..
or its becos... im too tired to even want to take pics of themm..
2 nights of no slp made me a zombiee..
i was like freaking tired...
well..
overall.. it was fun & scary..
some stuff happened tat scared the wits out of me...
we watched 2 horror movies.. 'cinderella' & 'shutter'
i was so frighten.. =/
well.. the fun part was there too as always..
we laughed alot.. played alot..
tilll =/ i got a burn mark on one of my fingers..
pain sia.. but its alot better now already..
during the 2nd day of the chalet... early morning i went home and went mount faber to
take photographs before returning to the chalet at evening time..

tis are some of the many photos we took there :)
we took many photos there... cause it was really.. damn nice!
hahas..
we met up at ard 11++
then reach harbourfront at around noon time...
went to the interchange de food market..
and had our full delicious lunchh...
after tat...we should be going to take bus go up mount faber..
but kylie wants a cable car ride >.<
so we went to take the cable car ride..
which the view was magnificent :)
totally awesome! i simply love the view..
snapped alot of pictures.. of the lovely sight..
mount faber is magnificent as well..
lots of lovely sight..
the place is simply dreamy and lovely..
i wanna hold my wedding there.. i even thought of the perfect area..
hees.. :P pretty placee~
simplyy lovelyy~ im sure lots of gers will love tat place..
we oso went to handerson wave.. which was lovely..
but way too long to complete for us :P
but the view from the handerson wave was lovely :)
well...
after all tis fun..~
its time to focus on mugging alr..
last week before exams :)
might nt be blogging much :)

chalet

2009-02-28T08:44:00.003+08:00

hmmms.. yesterdae.. fridae afternoon..
i went to my dardar & honey's chalet..
hahas.. wanted to go home at night time...
but i just.. i just.... =/ tempted to stay :P
in the end , i stayed...
well.. but for the whole night i never sleep at all..
we was sharing ghost stories.. while some are already aslp..
there are 3 gers.. but ard 10 guys x.x
hahas.. we drank alot of liquor too...
hmmmms.. we had lots of fun & laughter...
and now im damn tired..
but i cant sleep.. cos i promise kylie im going to mount faber with her today...

3 collages with fun and laughters

2009-02-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

todae...
i bring my camera to schh.. and we snapped lots of pictures together~!!
hahas.. todae laughed alot alot in school..
although todae is kinda short school day..
but i definately had fun with my clique of gers.. :)
overall , todae was simple pure fun & laughter...
after sch... 3.30pm was public speaking course.. last session already~

the above picture... shows.......
my public speaking course group :)
the group picture was taken todae...
unfortunately... our class guys had ENT presentations..
but the session was fun as always...
sad that it was the last..
im sure everyone enjoyed the public speaking course..
how i wish ms nair will be our REAL ITE CA..
then our class confirm damn happy..~
well.. thats tat...

after i go homee....
i saw my sis.. and her bf... in the kitchen.. preparing the ingredients..
the two chef of the night , Kathleen & Alex~!!
Alex kor is preparingg Fried Rice Secret Reciped..
and Sis is preparing Cheesecake..
i didnt help at all =/
i did help with the eating though.. hahas...
the fried rice was delicious.. i finished every single grain :P
the cheesecake was lovely too.. delicious~ :)

well.. todae i really enjoy it alot alot..
every single part of todae made me happy~
i really laughed alot todae..
i seriously love todae.. as everything had went smoothly..
and it had been a happy day for me..
hope tmr will be as good as todae :)

rainbow.laughter

2009-02-25T23:49:00.000+08:00

why tis picturee?
cos... its how im feeling about todae..
the rainbow after the storm..
todae things are slightly more smooth..
everyone smiled/laughed a lot todae.. and i totally had my fill of laughter~
well.. i hope this rainbow will last for every :)
i want good memories to last forever..
and bad memories to disappear forever...
after every storm. there is always a rainbow :)
heees. tats hw i feel todae :)

hmms..
todae did nothingg muchh... cos so much stuff piling up on me..
BC report... TPS revision papers... Marketing notes...
im almost breatheless..
this week veery busyy... starting from tmr onwards... >.<
thursdae - public speaking course.
friday - fren's bdae chalet.
saturdae - mount faber photography session
sunday - botanical gardens with sis~ =/ and i havent start memorising =.=
my gpa 4 flying away alreadyy.. >.< myself ="">
somemore nid to find part time job for holiday..
so tat i can buy my dream phonee~~
so expensive x.x heart acheeees..
alright.. i nida go rest alreadyy.. damn tired..
nighty night.. :)

drained and restless

2009-02-24T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmmms... tis picture of the dae...
the cracks on the floor are cracks in my brain..
the pieces of cracked land are pieces of my thoughts & memories..
uncountable.. and unlinkable >.<
alot of things unsolved are stored inside.. unable to get the answer i want..
because... im a human..
im naturally worrying about alot of stuff before finding the solution..
well.. its human to be tat way i guess..
and tis is why there are alot of cracks..
i tried to glue the cracks and tried removing the whole entire part of it...
but.. it failed everytime i try..
sometimes i will just choose to run away from it..
throw everything in the back of my head..
and just do things that relax myself and smoothens my spirit :)

todae in schh..
had BC test.. was so drained after tat..
then... marketing quiz =.=
tmr got marketing test.. and i havent studied at all..
im so freaking tired..
i duno wat is causing tis unexplained restlessness in me..
i just dun feel like doing anything at all..
except for gamingg.. chatting ard.. watch tv.. all the leisure thingss..
im so sick and tired of studyingg.. mugging.. trying to squeeze everything into my mind...
tis sunday im going to go botanic gardens with sister~! yay! :X
now to think about saturdae with kyliee... =/
fridae is settled as fren's chalet.. thinking to go or not..
maybe not going liaos.. duno...
see friday energy level then decide ba..
gonna go sleep.. suddenly damn drained.. nite..!

photography with sister

2009-02-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

its kinda a sudden thingg...

hahas... my sis came home telling me about tis lovely tree..

and off we went for photography sake..

hahas.. we two sisters finally are alike in one way..

we both are photography maniacs...

hahas.. =P we both love photography alot alot..

hahas.. took alot of pictures of tat lovely tree...

those are a few of the many pictures we took :)

alright.. im gonna go sleep soon.. night~~!

new week.

2009-02-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

todae...
done nothing much.. had captains' for S&W last lesson and badminton too...
but captains' wasnt as fun as last week.. maybe cos...
of some issues between races =/
i duno.. but well.. badminton was fun as ahmad was joking ard..
and me , natasha , yana and balqis.. were laughing and laughing away..
enjoyed the time with them..
although its really short.. ard 15mins~
syarif oso played awhile too.. tat part most funny..
me , yana , ahmad and syarif...
syarif and ahmad made me & yana laugh alot :)
its good to have pple who jokes ard with us..
it helps me to relax alot.. especially when they made me laugh..

why i choose tis picture for todae....
its a picture symbolising my relationships..
no matter its friendships , boy-ger relationships , kinship..
the locks are representing the difficulties.. and complications..
while the red ribbons represent the bonds between each and every locks..
when u unlock one of the locks , it will affect the others in a way or another..
in life... relations between each other is like the abv picture..
all our lifes are interlink with each other..
each of our actions will affect one another...
i learnt tis principle in school today..
should not mention wat happen...
but.. sometimes.. things just dun always go your way..
and sometimes... trying hard and hanging on kills..
sometimes.. u will just have to give up..
because if u continue trying.. probably the results will worsen..

endless path

2009-02-22T23:59:00.001+08:00

its sundayy..
the last day of the week agaiin..
as usual for my weekends..
nothing much of activities..
spent todae slacking at home.. playing psp wasting time away..
a few dota games included..
hahas..

hmms.. why did i upload tis picture?
cos...
my life is like tis picture..
a endless path in a forest..
the fallen leaves are representing the different scenarios happening in my life..
and the trees are representing the different stages that i have to go thru in life...
the amount of themm?
countless.
trees will continue to grow.. and leaves will continue to fall..
hahas =/ im not sure how many people realise..
life is a endless path.. and u will..
never know wat is at the end of the path until u reach the very end..
someday, i will get tired of walking on this path..
and disappear on tis very path..
but for now.. i will carry on walkingg..

actual time : 12.58am , 23 Feb 09'

sentosaa

2009-02-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

was suppose to update my blog ytd..
but i sort of forgotten about updatting.. hahas..

well.... hmms.. i was suppose to accompany kylie to send her lappy for maintainence..

but... i couldnt wake up in time..

so i met her in the afternoon @ 1pm..

we met at hougang mall..

i bought my camera memory card finally~!!

then off we go..

we went down to orchard.. reached cineleisure.. cant make up our minds on the movie to watch.. so in the end.. we went to play pool.. 2 games.. and i won~ just plain luck i guess..

well... then.. we sat and chat awhile.. headed for kfc for lunchh~!

the service is good.. but the food kinda... cannot make it..

not tat nice already..

after tat.. we went to hereen for some window shoppingg..

saw a hottie and NUM shop..

hahas.. then.. the most unexpected part of the day...

we decided to go to...

SENTOSA x.x

funniest thing was.. i was wearing jeans.. x.x and elbow sleeves..

and kylie was wearing tshirt with skirt..

and we werent planning any beach trips..

we went there.. took a lot of pictures of scenary and ourselves :)

had alot of fun although its for a short time only..

after tat.. we head back to vivocity.. went to daiso to shopp awhile..

after kylie bought her stuff...

we back to kovan to eat...

at pouggoul nasi lemak.. =/

expensive but not bad :)

after tat off home i went...

after showeringgg.. dota and chat ard with my frens till 5.30am >.<

goshh.. then went to bed...

todae... only woke up at 5pm+ =P

hahas.. had a good night's rest :)

tats all ba =/ byes.

2009-02-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

perfect pictures of the dae :)

black and white formatted :)

well...

i was all happy.. and excited abt tomorrow.. cos i thought..

finally can go buy my camera's memory card..

but ended up.. x.x nt enuff money now..

parents dun wanna lend me.. so should be.. G_G

well.. no point dulling.. sulking about it.. cos...

its gonna change nothing >.<

kinda tired out now.. todae did alot of stuff.. after sch..

me and my classmates went to the library for a few hrs..

we joked alot alot..

and i practically laughed till tears..

after tat.. was public speaking course..

its kinda fun and interesting.. the lecturer is very nice..

i had fun.. the time passes very quickly..

after tat.. i had dinner at J8 with natasha accompanying me..

then i trained homee.. after tat.. was..

dota , day dreamingg.. and searching of the pictures above..

hahas.. thought through alot of stuff..

welllll.... im gonn go slpp..nite.

nightmares.

2009-02-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

the above is the perfect picture for todae...

x.x well...

i was daydreaming the whole entire dae..

totally not myself at all..

cos of the nightmare i had..

dun ask wat is it abt...

its too gore and disgusting..

far worse than the movie saw serials..

x.x till the point i had to force myself to wake up to stop the images..

i dun even know why i had tat dream.. totally.. no link..

now whenever i close my eyes.. i see those images..

well.. apart frm that nightmare..

real life oso gt my usual nightmare..

as usual.. my powerpoints always get edited..

in a way or another.. hais..

i guess not everyone have the same pride for powerpoints as i do..

well.. to me.. every powerpoint is like a.. masterpiece..

once it gets edited by others..

its destroyed.. lost the original essence in it already..

well.. not everyone has the same level of appreciation i guess..

but i cant blame anyone for tat..

different people gt different thinking in different situation..

alright.. im going to sleep..

no point sinking in my sadness..

i think im too tired to dream much alr.. so i shld be able to get a good night's rest..

nitee.

actual time : 19 feb , thurs , 1:22am.

bakingg.

2009-02-17T23:45:00.000+08:00

i went over to kylie's house tis afternoon and made cookies..

made cookies for fun !! :)

first time bake chocolate chip cookies.. really scared not nice..

came out not bad :) edible at least x.x

well... hmmms..

munch munch munch..

the overall process was damn fun.. but tiring too... x.x

well... not bad attempt for my first time baking cookies...

hmms.. was kinda emo-ing...

thinking to let go of him or wait for him..

then... i suddenly decided wat i want in life..

i will let go and move on..

life is not just about bgr, guys, steads.

i will lead a good life with or without themm... they are not impt..

and not a must to have at my point of life..

my fren suggest a cheap shop for purchasing of memory cards x.x

gonna call up and ask.. if its true.. then fridae i gonna visit it :)

and finally get my camera memory cards..! wahahas..

finally can start snapping non-stop xP

thanks kylie for kept trying to encourage me with him..

but.. i gave up =/ sorry to waste ur efforts..

but i really dun wanna be a toy.. x.x

paper frenship

2009-02-16T21:03:00.001+08:00

todae...
now finally sitting infront of my comp relaxing...
so tired.. bones and muscles tired..
todae.. i finally felt like a fool..
doing so much.. yet no one seem to appreciate it..
rather than appreciating it.. u all were wanting to edit it..
i duno why i stay up till 4am for..
as usual.. u all were first jump to editing it rather than appreciating it..
well.. forget it..
i gave it my best.. u wanna edit then edit all u want..
nothing seem good enought for u all.. unless its u all ownself do de..
i realise i been going with the flow too much..
till i lost my own direction..
luckily im still in time to find my own direction..
and re-schedule my stuff.. :) its never too late i guess..

well.. i thought we are good frens..
till the week i was sick.. i suddenly realise our 'good frens' term is build on..
nothing but paper.. its so vulnerable.. and easily to be flipped..
no concern was from u all..
the only stuff i heard from u all is.. project project project..
dateline dateline dateline..
worse sms i seen in tat week was about asking me to do the project even though im sick..
becos of..? DATELINE.
i didnt realise u all thought im a no life person until tat week..
i was sick and all u all said was PROJECT & DATELINE.
i feel retarded for even thinking we were GOOD FRENS..
im just a used tool.. a used puppet to complete ur projects and to meet datelines..
whenever u had a change of plan,
u wun ever tell me. i feel like a idiot.. thanks for making me feel like one..
i go the cross country becos u PROMISED me u will accompany me all the way..
in the end?
u back out todae without telling me.. if i never ask jovin, i will never find out..
im ALONE for the run. but luckily , i still have time to back out of it..
if not, i really will be a idiot tat day.
thanks for making me like a fool , a idiot.
i treated u as a good fren, and u treated me as a fool.
i honestly got nothing to sae about u anymore.
i tried to fit in alr. but i had enuff of trying so hard for a 'paper' frenship.

enuff of the crappy stuff..
todae other than all those crappy stuff..
i had s&w..!! finally after a month x.x
we had captains' ball.. although some accidents cope up but I certainly had fun :)
miss the sort of simple fun :) & simple happiness..
tmr going to kylie's house.. maybe baking cookies.. Yay~ :)
for now.. im gonna rest my tired muscles.. :)

fortunate me.

2009-02-16T03:09:00.001+08:00

finally finished my marketing powerpoint presentation...
while my other group members are snoozing away..
im finally done with the presentation... x.x
so freaking tired..
my shoulders are achingg.. finish my blogging then off to bed..
well.. hmms.. i shld probably start with my vdae happenings..

saturdae
hmms...
ard 7pm+ i went to meet kylie first..
ate my dinner under a tree at a playground area with my takeaway xP
hahas.. she was with her chubby and tiffy :) cute doggs!
well.. then thai came to meet me..
hahas.. pass him his vdae present.. [btw , thai is my ex bf xP]
well.. hahas.. the present is special.. first time make vdae present for someone..
hahas.. tis is my first time spending vdae with someone other than my family..
we went to the place we stead.. which is at.. punggol end :)
its a remote beach.. >.<
so we sat at the stone wall there.. chit chat.. tickled each other..
disturb each other.. hold hands.. and joke with each other..
it was.. a blissful moment for me :)
a lot other couples were there too.. hahas.. some families were there too..
well.. tat night at the beach.. it was really sweet for me..
awakens a lot of the memories between us..
tats it for vdae :) its my favourite vdae of all for now x.x

sunday
hmms...
only woke up at...
hmms.. 4pm x.x
hahas... met my godmum, 2 god sisters , god brother , god brother's gf , god brother's cousin & his wife.. @ suntec city , kushin-bo :)
ate kushin-bo ^^ lovely buffet as always.. second time im having it..
yum yum yum.. ate a lot of food.. goshh.. sinfull..!!
left at ard 8pm+..
head over to their place... the best news is...
im given a camera~!! by my elder god sister :)
thank you so muchhh!! i have waited so long for a camera of my own :)
finally i got wat i waited so long for.. :)
im so so happy.. joyous and joyful~ xP
full of joyy..!! the first person i show was yana :)
i miss my sayang so muchh! she is always there for me..

MANY thanks to Yana [my sayang] , Kylie [Good Buddy] , Keng Jie [my elder god sister] , Kathleen [my real elder sister] for everything good that had happened to me so far in this yr..
thanks to Yana and Kylie for always being there :) when i need to share my joys and sorrows..
and especially last week when i was sick and none of my frens seems to care..
thanks Keng Jie for the lovely camera.. [she made my dream came true]
thanks Kathleen , my real elder sis.. for showering me with care and concern when im sick in the past week.. im really glad i have the four of u :) happy and blissful me!

tats all.. time to sleep.. nite nite all!

valentine's dae.

2009-02-14T15:25:00.000+08:00

hmms..
firstly.. Happy Valentines' Day to ALL :)
singles or attached.. doesnt matter :) todae's weather is lovely..
hahas..

secondly.. ite bishan really wanna make me angry to death x.x
send me debarement letter for vdae gift sia.
x.x see alr = moodless. s&w 71% then exams all cannot take..
wat kind of rubbish is tis.. last 2 monday is teacher ownself cancel..
then why become no attendence sia. =.= irritated.
mondae i gonna go scold them all liaos.. x.x waste my time..

thirdly.. i hope tonight weather will be good.. x.x dun rain pls..
i wann windy windy :) cooling but dun rain >.<
hahas.. hope everything will go smoothly..
tis yr is the first time i make a valentine's dae present x.x
hahas.. well.. i hope he likes it..

fourthly.. tis whole week.. i never go sch much..
was sick for the whole week sia..
rest at home everydae.. sleep and sleep away..
finally feeling alot better le :)
mondae returning back to my hectic lifestyle of schling agn..
x.x sians. =/ tmr i cfm whole dae gamingg..!! =x

tats all for now.. :)
hope everything will go smoothly..

happy. sick

2009-02-12T14:13:00.000+08:00

lols...
well....
todae just went to see the doctor at polyclinic..
my left hand super ultra the pain lors.. x.x
had a blood test.. >.<>
but its to check whether gt dengue or not..
hmms.. oso took some medicines... x.x
after tat had lunch and medicine after tat..
tis few daes although im sick.. alot good stuff oso happened :)
im so so happyy..
alrite.. shouldnt sae much.. but..
im looking forward to tis saturdae for the first time in my life.. :)
i nvr look forward to tis saturdae as much as now in my whole life..
yipppee~!!

fever . up and down.

2009-02-09T19:11:00.001+08:00

hmms..
todae went home earlier.. by... 1hr =/
really buai tahan alr.. duno why my body is burning up.. then cooling down..
then burning up.. then cooling down..
hope i will be fine :)
nothingg much happened todae..
hmms..
as usual ba.. except tat..
i scored 31/31 , full marks for my unit 9 marketing test.
hahas.. i was so delighted and surprise cos..
i didnt pay much attention to tat topic..
im glad my extra studying hrs pulled me up..

but i wasnt feeling right for the whole dae..
temperature rise and drop.. repeatly since ytd nite.. >.<
hmms.. alright.. i shld go get something to munch..
buais.

pasta.sleep.

2009-02-07T23:59:00.001+08:00

todae... my lunch/dinner is.... home made pasta by my sis and her bf..
yum yumm =) i had like... 2 bowl..
actually its breakfast/lunch/dinner..
its the only thing i ate todae.. =/ so full now...
i slept the whole saturdae away =x as usual :P
i only woke up at 5pm+ when my sis woke me up to eat..
hahas.. after tat..
i spend the rest of my dae playing dota..
hahas.. tried phantom assassin.. =x
quite nice.. :) and i pawn alittle =/
but i still nid more practices~!

oh ya , HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JOVIN :)

hahas.. alrite.. going to bed nw..
tmr still got to go to aunt's house to pray..
to mama : no matter wat happened , we will always be here for u..
we duno wat happened.. but we know tat.. u can count on us being there..
for you no matter wat.. really hope u culd tell us.. we all are so worried..

actual time : 3.23am 8th Feb

long long 6th feb

2009-02-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Picture speaks a thousand words..

so there are alr... 2000 words with the above colleages..

hahas.. the two abv colleages shows wat we do during the outing todae :)

hmmms..

todae.. we went to seoul garden for buffet makanningg! [ total for 14 student meal : $211.30 ]

after tat.. went to cineleisure to play pool.. [ total for 3 tables split by 10 pple : $102.80 ]

at first wanna watch moviee.. but then >.<

in the end went to play pool..

hahas.. i only won like 2 matches.. lose like 4 matches lor -.-

my skills getting more and more bad.. =/

hahas.. after tat..

we went to isetan park..

drank.. chit chat.. cam whoringgs.. & slackk~!!

well... we took a lot a lot of different of picturess.. :)

i was the one snapping pple's pics away.. =/

hope i didnt irritate anyone todae with my continous pictures snappingg~!!

thanks to all for being so nice to let me snap their pictures :)

maybee i will organise another outing like tis..

but with more planningg..

hahas.. ohya. todae.. me and gladys finally went to sign up with badminton clubbb :)

and oso... join crosscountry =/ x.x but thenn.. i join crosscountry is for the experience..

hahas.. nt to run! i probably walk walk walk ard >.<

hmms.. im glad with the way my life is now..

i duno wat to answer him..

im trying to find the forgiving part of myself..

but its kinda hard.. so... im nt sure.. hais..

tats all..

actual time : 4.13am , 7th Feb early morningg ^^

DIY box

2009-02-06T01:27:00.000+08:00

todae...
had communication session with the overall in charge..
her talk is kinda funny =/ and sort of interesting i guess.. hahas..
after tat.. we had S&W theory test..
was kinda.. retarded =x
hahas.. after sch..
i went home showered and change..
then met gladys go shopping =/
i bought.. a new belt for my top tat i will wear for the s.g outing..
and oso bought 2 pairs of lovely earrings :)

main thing is...
i was looking everywhere for a suitable big box for dom's present..
couldnt find it after walking for total of 4 hours+..
then... i decided to DIY the box then =/
bought wrapping paper.. and found a ordinary goods box..
used like 2 hrs+ just to make the box look nice and presentable..
so proud of myself.. my first time making it..
its really nice.. so proud of it =x

well... tis two daes was especially busy for me..
didnt have much time to revise my studies..
next week onwards , gonna study hard alr!
i had so much fun going out with gladys for shopping spreee~
and spent so much >.<
hope the s.g outing will be funn~!
im gonna be camera ger of the outingg!

paramore

2009-02-05T02:04:00.000+08:00

♥♥ paramore. ♫♫♫♫♫♫
hahas. 1 hell of a great band!
simply lovelyy..~!!
hahas... caught the fever from balqis..
i like my new blog songg.. super the nice sia :)
hahas.. well.. i love them cos their songs are really nice :)
the leader singer , harley.. she so.... pretty lar! darn chio!!
=x alrite.. todae nvr do much..
kept thinking abt presents presents presents..
goshh. head gonna burst soon..
spent alot of money on presents.. =/ bank emptied.
hahas... well.. its worth it for their smiles :)
tats all for todae...
im so tired.. nida go off do more alr.. :)

highlight for todae : ms melor scold me in marketing class sia =.= i was like... 'wtf'..
becos she was giving us a exercise to do.. no books allow so i cant do my notes.. then i finish doing le.. cant do my notes.. so i decide to play psp.. and she screamed at me.. as if.. i just killed someone in the classroom.. ' NO PSP IN MY CLASS ' tats wat she said..
maybe she is jealous i gt psp and she dun hv..
bleah =P sometimes i like her lessons..
but sometimes i just feel like giving her a tight slap..

>.<>
hahas.. well.. hope everything will proceed smoothly :)

soupsoup

2009-02-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

hmms.. todae..
came home after sch..
gladys and jovin came over to my place too..
we decided to cook again.. recently,
almost every week one cooking tgt session :P
hahas..
todae... the dish of the dae is... zha-pa-lang soup~!! :x
hahas..
ingredients got... minced meat ball.. fishball... tofu..
golden pin mushroom.. button mushroom.. tomato.. & cornn!
the result - excellent :) better than expected.. :P
hahas.. the soup taste good.. and we had macoronis with it :)
taste great~!! nt too saltish.. nt too bland :)
jovin oso fried long bean eggs.. quite nice oso :)
ate alot.. darndarn fulll~!!

hahas.. after tat... todae something made me angry..
but i shld nt sae much >=(
hmmms... todae passed quite quickly though..
look forward to fridae..
cfm gonna be a crazy nutty day :)

unlucky start

2009-02-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

todae....
changed a new blogskin..
cos somehw the blogskin got error.. then bobian change lor..
hahas.. the new one looks good too :)
thennn.. hmms..
todae in sch..
came late to sch.. missed marketing lesson..
heard they played some game >.<
lols.. after tat was purely lessons and still... lessons..
S&W cancelled sia =( finally thought got S&W le...
then nw... sadddedddd~!!
after classes 3pm..
trained down to Khatib with Jovin , Gladys , Yana , Natasha , Balqis & Mad..
studiedd. and then had cheese fries & hawaii pizza with gladys and jovin at new york pizza..
kinda tastyy.. and very worth the price :)
hahas.. planned things for tis coming fridae.. chatted..
i hope.. tmr will be a better dae..
tis weekend going temple.. pray for tis yr..
seems to be having alot of minor accidents just at the start of the yr..
hahas.. hope everything will be more smooth ba :)
i must learn to control my temper.. and emotions btr tis yr :)

sundae

2009-02-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

todae....
went to compass point..
did marketing plan with gladys, jovin and maylene..
gladys's bf is there too..
well.. we went to library and did the project..
finally finished all of it..
after tat..
dinner timeee..
went to makan... at little red house @ ECP..
uncle's treat.. for ren re..
ate alot of stuff..
got pepper crabb.. sharkfin soup..
noodles... vegeee.. prawnn.. lots moree..
so full... the bill was.... scary >.<
1.3k for 2 tables.. ard 20 person..
ard... 65 per personn...
hmms... after tat..
came homee... me & my sis played with my web cam =/
going to slp soon.. tmr still gt a long dae in sch.. =)

makan-ingg @ little red house.. >.<

Me and my sis fooling with my webcamm x)

thurs&fri

2009-01-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

todaee...
i just woke upp..
still feeling so tired..
yawns yawns... well..
just ate the fried rice my dad cooked..
nw at least just tired.. not hungry..
gonna dota later.. with some of my classmates..
hope i will improve bit by bit.. :)
afternoon should be got go out with gladys and jovin..
but i was... way too tired..
and just slept my day away... =/
tmr... should be going to fren's hse for CNY celebrations =x

thursdae..
finish sch at ard 1pmm...
then me , jovin and gladys went to serangoon stadiumm..
i only did 2 rounds of stadium run.. a short sprinting..
and plenty of other exercises like...
jumpiing jack , 100 sets..
jumping on spot.. 100 times..
and a few others.. was really fun :)
after tat... we went over to serangoon int there..
then.. we had our lunchh/dinner..
hahas.. yumyumm. the mixed vege rice is great :)
thenn... we chilled at the.. beancurd shopp..
chit chat.. crapped and joked..
then went to mac and chilled again..
slacked.. crapped.. joked.. till ard... 9pm..
finally home sweet home :)

i really appreciate having such lovely frens :)
they nvr fail to make me laugh at least once a dae :)
time to go practice my dota :):):)

frens are lovely

2009-01-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

just finished a dota match..
the result was.... 1 : 7 >.<
im sure a feeder nwadaes.. i duno why oso..
probably the internet connection is killing me...
but its alright.. one more week..
and singtel will be back in my arms :)
hahas..

class was kinda normal.. except the part tat...
i was absolutely tired out..
well... after sch.. gladys and jovin came over to my hse to cook...
pasta~!! hahas.. it was delicious but too salty and we cooked...
too much too =x well.. after eating.. we slacked in my room..
after tat.. late evening we went to compass point to walk ard..
hahas.. chit chat.. walk ard.. ate some junks :P
and then off to homee...
i hope i can play dota better infuture... =
i gt lots of stuff...
that i seriously need to learnn :)
time for bed...
tmr after sch going stadium with jovin and gladys.. buais~!!

CNY first day

2009-01-27T04:35:00.000+08:00

just reached home frm a midnight movie.. darn tired..
before tat was hongbao collecting @ aunt's house..
hahas.. had mahjong session & i lost.. luckily..
no money played..
tis yr probably no gambling for me..
hahas.. luck nt tat good..
well... after tat.. we went to catch a midnight movie..
Love Matters..
kinda nice lar the movie..
was darn funny and comedy-packed..
well.. quite meaningful though.. reminded me of a lot of stuff..
after tat.. the lift was like... not working alr.. so had to walk down the escalator..
guess what happened?

i twisted my ankle >.<
darn pain for tat moment.. but i carried on walking downn..
i promise myself.. im nt gonna wear heels and walk down escalator..
=/ by right... tmr gonna meet my dar & honey and some others at noon..
for movies.. but i doubt its possible.. since both of them are dead drunk..
at battie's place sleepingg.. tmr cfm hangover.. and they still nid to go home and change..
cfm is dun nid go liaos.. or will only meet at evening time lar..
hais..sian sia.. spoilt my plans =( hais.
drunkens drunkens drunkens..

reunion dinner.

2009-01-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

well..
todae.. couldnt exactly wake up.. cos...
last nite too late then sleep =/
hahas.. i only slept at 4am+ :P
well.. in the end.. only woke up at ard 11.45am..
hahas.. quickly gt showered and cabbed down with my sis..
reached my grandma hse...
slack slack slack till ard 3++..
then me and my cousin aka god bro , keith..
went downstairs to buy bubbletea.. but it was close..
so we ended up buying other drinks..
was helping the adults buy their tiger beer.. end up...
the cashier see my cousin too young.. >.<>
asked for ic.. =.= then bo bian cant buy.. cos both our bdae nt yet reach..
hahas.. was laughing abt it so muchh..
after tat.. ate reunion dinner..
watched tv.. slack agn.. then went homee..
tmr gonna be a longg draggy day..
hahas.. tonight gonna shouye..
goshyy im getting so tiredd..

tis is a bottle of anna sui's perfume , secret wish..

my sis gave it to me.. so kind of her huhs =/

once in a million yrs :P but i thanked her anyways.. :)

actual time.. is... 1.24am :)

pool.

2009-01-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

todae..

finished classes @ 10.30am...

after tat went to TPY's mac and had my lunch there with...

nata , yana , ahmad , syarif , aaron , guang and faliq..

hahas..

after lunch we went upstairs and played pool..

played all the way till ard 3pm..

after tat.. chat and slack.. then by 4pm+ i left...

hahas.. bused home..

then was using the computer whole night..

overall..

todae pool was quite fun.. and we played/fooled ard alot..

as usual ba.. hahas :)

seeing this picture..

immediatly reminds me of cs =/

hahas.. i was searching for 'gummy bears' and saw this picture.. so cute =)

2009-01-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

hmms.
now having tummy upset.. =/
shouldnt have ate mcspicy..
but i ate it.. agn..
now my stomach is feeling so awful..
hmms...
starting to feel alittle sick..
sneezing away already.. pls dun let me get sick..
i still wanna spend a lovely CNY de.. dun wanna spend it on a sickbed..
hahas.. well..

todae was quite a plain day.. hahas.. cs awhile after class ended one hr earlier..
hahas.. before tat.. we were doing out tps presentation..
the result came out not bad sia :)
hahas.. well.. earlier in the dae.. during first lesson was marketing.. =/
almost freak out in the lesson..
we were playing a quiz gamee.. and i had to represent my group sia..
darn stress while representing my group.. luckily i didnt get any of my answers wrongly :)
yippeee.. finally my studies paid off in a way :)

well... tats probably it..
tmr havent decide wat to do yet after schh... so ya..

thoughts:

hmms... well.. now i came to know more..
the light of truth is hurting me so muchh..
i fallen endlessly for u.. down into a pit of daggers..
piercing its way thru me.. yet i helplessly continue on..
why am i continuingly falling for u.. when its hurting me so badly..
its hurting my heart.. deeper than anythingg..
but i choose to stand beside u.. although my scars are hurting me..
haunting my every night.. driving me to nuts..
im losing my energy day by day.. totally drained..

actual time : 12.41am.

parents.

2009-01-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

now im confused and frustrated..
im starting to lose whatever thoughts i held..
hmms.. study hard to give parents good future..
study hard to get a good job..
study hard to survive thru the economy..
all noble ideas..
now i will just throw them aside..
becos i know why im studyingg..
im studying becos i want to..
not becos for others or anything else..
its for myself.. i slack becos im stressed up..
i hate being stressed.. but cant help but feeling the stress..

2009-01-21T18:12:00.000+08:00

todae is kinda a sleepy dae in school..
plenty of writing.. studyingg.. till my head is gonna burst..
hahas.. but todae has its fun parts tooo~!!
hmms..
we ate at canteen..
then went to student hub to cs during our break.. had so much fun..
then after tat.. we went to class..
hahas..
todae is a happy dae for me too :)
todae im really very happy..
we chatted so much..
just able to be ard him is good enough for me already.. :)
im happpy enuff :)

my 201st post

2009-01-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

todaee....
long dae i hadd..
hahas.. it was suppose to be the day tat sch ends earliest..
ended up =/
i went home darn late.. only reached home like 9pm when my sch ended...
at 11.45am.. =x
after class ended.. we went to play CS @ student hub.. till ard 2pm..
go canteen makan.. then off we go the bishan library..
after awhile.. we left there and head for khatib's mac..
yana, natasha and balqis wanted to do marketing plann...
ended up... we joked.. fooled around.. crapped..
and they nvr do much abt it =/
after tat... yana went hm changed & natasha went homee..
then me , yana and balqis zoommm down to expo..
thinking tat there is a john little roadshoww..
ended up.. =.= the place was desserted..
hahas.. so we chatted at bk.. after tat went to get subway cookies..
then we went hoommeeee..

this is a picture of a cat i took at khatib @ ard yana's place..
its so.. fluffy and cute :)

todae im very happpy...

i scored 43 out of 50 for my marketing class test..

which i was worrying abt..

yana top scorer sehh.. she scored 47.. so proud of herr..

balqis and ahmad scored 43 too =)

im proud of their great improvement..!!

keep it up and they will be doing well.. and able to get into poly :)

somemore todae i had fun.. lots of laughters..

and took such a lovely picture of the cat :)

happpy happpy dayy.. :)

i oso finally fulfilled one of my wish/aim :)

im losing it.

2009-01-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

argh.
todae nvr go sch... overslept till afternoon >.<
way too tired.. cos ytd too late sleepp..
slept at 4am plus due to script writingg.. hahas..
luckily todae no presentation.. phew~
well.. i guess.. no other choices..cos when i woke up..
already in the afternoons le..
tonight i will sleep earlier.. and pray hard the rest nt angry with me =x

Sundaeeee..

the three rings.. are wat me , my dar and my honey bought :)

top one is mine... middle one is dar's.. and the bottom one is honey's..

my ring bigger than theirs lar >.<>

i like my ring cos its special.. nt average ring design :)

its kinda the uncommon design.. :) concave in style..

well.. sunday is a long dae for me..

the day started off... with..

porridge buffet at suntec city..

with dar, Shawn and Yongjin

=/ couldnt really eat a lot.. i promise..

next time i go cfm eat more =/

hahas... after tat.. we went to downtown east to book chalet..

hahas.. after tat.. we shopped aroundd..

and i bought smth for dar :)

hahas.. after tat.. we went to orchard to meet honey..

i got so blur tat i mixed up lucky plaza and far east plaza..

goshh.. in the end we stayed at far east plaza till ard 7pm..

in between.. many stuff happened.. but overall.. we crapped..

we played.. and we enjoyed ourselves..

well... after tat.. we went to cineleisure.. and played pool..

darn fun :) we joked and crapped there.. took pics and laughed like hell..

after tat... went home.. did my script for presentation.. hahas..

ended up.. slept at 4am+..

i dun undersstand why did he dua us.. after making us wait for close to 3 hrs..

i dun seem to understand.. maybe cos our anger level are different..

and we hold different thoughts.. maybe..

i just couldnt fit in.. i tried my best.. to pretend im happy and everything..

i honestly tried to laugh.. but i cant.. becos.. i can never stand.. being lied to..

being dua-ed.. and the person dun even apologies.. as if..whatever he did was right..

have a taste of tat one dae.. and u will understand my feelings..