well.. remb about my previous post about that ger that i diao.. i saw her on bus todae again!!! hais.. but tis time i really couldn't bother to even look at her.. anyways , she is my close fren's fren who is call Shi Yun.. who back stabbed my close fren lars.. couldn't stand the sight of her.. still remb a few weeks back before i start school.. i went out with my close fren and her.. and a bunch of other guys.. she was like acting so innocent infront of the guys lors.. then behind their back.. when we in the toilet.. she was like commenting non stop.. duno wats wrong with tat idiot.. found out todae she is frm Punggol secondary.. now still secondary 4.. she is like younger yet she dare to backstab my close fren.. so irritated by her.. but then see it as she is still a kid.. i wun care about her.. just forget about her ba ... hahas.. X)

hmms. todae.. i lost my voice during the morning... was horrible.. but i manage to get my voice back in the afternoon.. but now my eyes are like burning.. duno why..

tmr might be going out with melissa jie jie.. but if justin / zhi wei not going.. then maybe all not going le.. hahas..

my heart is shivering.. shaking between u two..
u both made a good impression in my heart.. but..
neither will work out.. because i had already promise...
never to love a man without him loving me first..
tats a promise to myself so that i wun... ever get hurt...

im tired.. just hope i dun see tat shi yun again.. seeing her makes me remember how badly my fren cried.. so sad to see my close fren crying like that.. i wun ever let this happen to her ever again..! she cried till so sad.. becos she treated Shi Yun as her heart to heart fren.. and Shi Yun Betrayed that trust.. evil woman.. hate her!!

but well.. i will drop tat hate part.. hating pple are tired.. and i really dun wanna be tired out.. todae i read tempestt blog and realise their group wasn't there during celebration.. no wonder i was thinking as if the group is missing some people..

to tempestt & the rest who didn't make it in time : im SO SORRY! i should notice it.. well.. sorry sorry.. paiseh didn't realize it.. X)

to the special 2 : get well soon..! really dun wish to see u two sick.. ^^

Labels: special.

just came home from school.. took my shower.. later going to go make my instant noodle..

todae in schh.. well.. was rushing my Accounts homework during OFA class.. before tat i had Sports and Wellness lesson and we played captains ball.. i realize our class got quite a number of good players.. but then oso realize something else.. which will just be kept to myself X)

hmms.. really starting to hate her a lot.. i todae 'diao' her.. i just hate seeing her face.. i think she hates seeing mine too.. xD but then.. i hate the way she acts so freaking innocent in front of the guys.. but she is actually a devil..

my gosh.. todae lessons were still more or less the same.. but thenn... todae i was talking to my fren.. when i suddenly blabber out about a guy that im slightly interested.. he is very nice.. funny.. and well.. interesting.. but well.. its not possible between me and him.. so i will rather things just remain this way.. i dun wanna lose tat fren ^^

after sch.. we went to bought Aaron's birthday present..!! we went to a few shops ard Junction 8 and in the end went into the NIKE shop and find a rather nice water bottle ^^ i think i might consider getting one for myself too.. which is something i thought for very very the long.. i probably wanna get a new bag too.. because my school bag.. seems.. too small X) its like very deep but the space inside very the limited..

well.. thats about it..
last but not least..
to Ahmad , Aaron , Faliq , Guang and my Jie Jie Melissa and Justin :
GET WELL SOON..! ALL of u... either sore throat.. cough or flu.. so get well soon k.. for the rest that are sick and not included.. get well soon too.. cause i probably duno tat u are sick X) GET well soon.. if its cough or sore throat , i have a good European tradition remedy.. just ask me for it.. take care k.. x)

to Jwen : take care of urself k..! we will go out soon.. and oso go on our shopping spree.. i wanna go write a wishlist.. XD wahahas. and aim to buy all of the things on my wishlist.. wahahas..

ANYONE GOT PART TIME JOB? intro to me Please.
i can work on fri-sun... and public hols including sch hols..
ehhs. because of the limited time i have.. probably cannot be something less than
SGD 6/hr. thanks thanks..!!

Labels: a normal day.

well.. todae.. after i blogged in class.. i went out for early lunch.. then collect the cake and bring back.. when i bought the cake back.. and put the candles and everything.. i wun pin point but i would wanna highlight a group of people consisting gers and a guy that refuses to stand up and sing the birthday song.. im like wondering if its their birthdays.. and people are doing this.. will they like it or not.. its like such a disrespectful thing to do lors.. i mean.. just sing the song happily and celebrate it happily.. whats the point of celebrating when all u want is the CAKE.. i decided to give up on this idea of celebrating birthdays.. although my birthday is in next month.. but i have decide to abandon this idea.. because.. i really realize it totally that.. all they wanted is for their 2 dollars to turn into a big slice of cake.. they DO NOT enjoy the celebration.. all they want it their BIG slice of cake.. i really thought it will be happy thing and i will continue doing it every month.. even went to find next month's cake and such.. but now... i realize its too stupid for me to think that way.. all they care is themselves and their own group of frens...

pixel club is slightly boring.. nothing much...
mainly was waiting and waiting..
backache please recover soon..!

Labels: fall.down.give.up.

wow wow...
so glad to know so much people care for me lors..
todae backache is still not recovering.. trying not to exert myself too much.. walking practically hurts already.. but im trying my best not to show that its hurting.. dun wanna worry anyone.. ^^ especially my nice group of frens.. hahas... ^^

last night on msn.. non stop sia.. X) wanna go eat dinner oso cannot.. everyone kept talking to me ^^ hahas.. but its fun talking to kelvin.. he very caring lors..! hahas.. then adrian and Pying are so funny lars.. make me laugh like duno what.. at first meeting pying to come school together.. but i remember that i need to go open the door for my OFA class.. need to be there by 7.30am..... end up the teacher is late.. XP wait for 20mins for her to come.. its so funny.. but never mind ^^ then now in my OFA class slacking cause i FINALLY completed my OFA project!! after a long hard work.. im finally done.. so happy lors..

thenn... later got cake cutting for the April Babies ^^ hahas.. luckily my moniter very nice.. he help me go collect the cake.. then i only need to go take the paper plates and plastic forks which are already inside my locker.. hahas.. hope it will be fun lors... hahas.. X) todae got pixel club.. hope it will be fun.. going with Natasha and Jwen.. after sch straight meeting Pying & ShuJuan for quick lunch =) hahas.. long time never meet them together to makan makan le.. hahas...

well.. i think i thought of the perfect gift for Aaron's birthday le ^^ hahas.. tomorrow then go buy ^^ hahas.. water bottle.. quite nice de.. i think suitable for him.. saw it last saturday.. when i went to white sands , sports hall ^^ nice and portable.. X)

hmms.. to my Dear Dear : dun be sad.. Im Here k.. u always hide things inside urself.. how am i suppose to know what will you be thinking.. silly dear dear.. dun think so much.. i wun throw u away de ^^ sha gua , i will always be beside u.. no matter what k..!

to Jwen : fren fren..!! dun think so much.. just be urself.. im sure u will find the right one for yourself.. most guys love gers that are comfortable with themselves.. before u can love others.. u must learn to love yourself..!! thats what i learn from my other friends.. ^^ just be urself , be it others like u or not.. it doesn't matter.. as long as u are urself , people will slowly learn to appreciate u as who u are.. acting is very tiring and u will just kept straining urself mentally... till one day u will be too tired....

to my Les-bo , Pying : hahas ! u and that adrian dun quarrel le k..! must smile more often lars..! and dun always jump school le hors.. i know u dun like being alone.. i will try my very best to pei u go school.. hahas.. hope adrian can come to our school then he can bring u to school everyday le.. ^^ hahas.. but then.. he surely set his bunch of butches frens on me.. then im DEAD.. hahas X) anyways , jiayou k..! anything duno can just ask me.. ur project i complete liaos.. so need any help just tell me..

to Kelvin : thanks for ur concern.. hope u will work out fine with Stanley k..! he will learn to appreciate u de k.. im sure u will work out fine with him ^^ remember to stay happy k.. thanks for always lending me ur ear.. hearing my sorrows out and giving me encouragement.. ^^ if u nid any help , i will be here too for u no matter what..!

to Kylie : cheer up k..! must treasure kor kor hors.. dun always quarrel with him about da jie and jerry stuff.. i think he also duno who to side k..! anyways, i didn't link u cause i forgotten ur link liaos.. u always change change change.. xD till im blurified liaos lors... hahas..

to BaoChuan : wei ger! cheer up! there is lots that cares for u k..! dun ever think u are alone because im always here for u no matter what.. anything just call me k.. hahas.. u have a lot of frens around u.. so never think u are alone k..! and thanks for being there when i need someone.. hahas.. we still haven't go out yet.. hope to go out with u soon..!!

Labels: time.pass.

Saturdae.. 26 April 2008..

I woke up.. early.. @ around 9am.. duno why i woke up so early... thought of telling melissa jiejie dun wan go out.. cos no money liaos.. and oso come that one.. but still went.. cause she say no gers going.. went to pasir ris int to meet jiejie and her two guys friends.. justin and zhi wei.. hahas.. then we took a bus to downtown east.. and went into escape theme park!!

well.. this marks the start of the FUN!
we went to take rainbow first.. its very scary @ first.. then become quite nice.. u can get to see the whole view of the park.. very very nice... hahas.. then after that we went to pirate ship.. its like OMG.. the pirate ship used to only swing till ard at most 50 degrees.. yesterday it went to almost 80 degress.. its as if u are committing suicide.. its a very scary feeling.. then next stop.. we went to the haunted house.. very dark and errie.. then keep got people grab my leg.. make me so so scared lar.. hahas.. then we went viking twice again.. and we are like headache.. XP so we went to burger king.. got a drink each and took some rest.. hahas.. then i chatted abit with Justin and zhi wei.. hahas.. they actually are programmer and engineer sia.. pro lars..

then... jie's another two ger frens came.. im like.. ' jie u cheated me..!! ' she was like ' blar =x ' hahas.. but im glad i came.. then we went to play the inverter.. its so so scary... its like OMG OMG.. i kept screaming and screaming through out the whole ride.. X) then we got off.. and thats when the pain started.. my backbone started to hurt badly... we went on.. to GoKarts.. but i took care of the bags and never play cause of my backbone.. waited for very long then their turns.. then got tis bunch of dumbo.. duno hw to drive properly and bump into jie's car very hard.. i think its on purpose.. then jie and one of her ger fren went to burger king to rest.. while the other 4 of us.. went to inverter Again.. but this time round its purely fun fun fun.. nice view and everything.. hahas... then my back was farther injuried.. hahas.. till i have problem walking already.. we took 2 last ride on rainbow.. and then went off...

and then went back to pasir ris int to have dinner.. but i dun feel like having dinner.. backbone too painful... after tat we took a train to douby ghaut.. and walked to paradise plaza there.. the pub pub area.. and stood there and watch the soccer match : man utd and chelsea ^^ im rotting for man utd.. but thennn... they end up losing.. chelsea 2, man utd 1.. hahas.. at first is 1-1 de.. but then got penalty kick.. hahas.. they goalll for chelsea.. xD now they are tied liaos.. but i still hope overall man utd can win ! X)

then we went off to the cathay billy bombers to have a drink.. hahas.. it was so fun.. me and jiejie was like disturbing Justin and Zhiwei.. then Justin cause no voice can't shoot back =x got to write on paper.. hahas.. so funny lors.. then we kept shooting shooting.. till he kept quiet =P hahas.. we chatted and chatted frm ard 10pm to 12am.. i can't believe Justin and Zhi Wei 26 yrs no gerfrens, no gers jio before them x) somemore they is quite gd looking de lors.. and oso got work de lors.. i can't believe.. after tat we went to take night rider.. =x i hate night rider.. super ultra bumpy ride..! me and Justin same bus so we chatted on the bus awhile but his replies are so soft =x cause he sore throat =P he got off like 5 mins later..

it took only 20mins to travel frm douby ghaut back to my place.. =x 3 dollars bus ride X) super super ex.. hahas.. came home shower.. and go sleep liaos.. way too tired.. play too much.. but i really had lots of fun.. and laughed a lot a lot.. =x

sundae.. 27 April 2008

backache backache backache.. almost can't got up from my bed.. very pain.. then somehow manage to get up.. but ard awhile later.. went back to sleep again.. very very the tired.. still dun like sister to be at home.. nag nag nag.. always wanna try to pick a fight with me.. she just hate my parents treating me good.. whenever my parents are good to me.. she will say this say that.. her 200 dollars she think VERY BIG ar.. kept nag nag nag about it.. she earn like 2.2k.. give parents ONLY 200 dollars.. she dun even have a family to take care of lars.. 200 dollars then keep on KPKB.. hate this kind of person.. always say until money not impt.. then now cos of 200 dollars.. keep kpkb.. hate her a lot.. stupid desperate idiot..

Labels: spoilt mood.

Humans ARE scary...

this is what i came to realize.......

im so surprise to came to know that incident.. didn't realize people in my class can be this manner.. I always thought ITE people are at least 17 tis yr.. so should be mature enough not to do childish things tat always are done in Secondary School.. but im SO wrong.. i thought being good to others.. will mean that others will be good to u too... i thought looks doesn't matter.. its the inside that counts the most.. IM WRONG.. so so wrong.. todae is the day i realize... things are never as simple as i think they are.. people backstab each other.. as if.. they are playing games.. killing each other as and when they want to.. playing mind games every day.. its TIRING playing mind games.. and i hate them.. cos i for 1 dun like playing mind games.. its a never ending thing..

im surprise when i heard of that incident.. i feel stupid.. idiotic and disappointed.. but i really dun wanna cry in public.. i feel really sad to hear what they have done.. behind my back.. its really sad.. although im not close to them.. but.. we are classmates...! to me.. everyone is my FRIEND.. i treat everyone at least a friend of mine.. and THIS IS HOW they treat their friends? i dun think so wors..

i guess... in ITE.. its still like survival game.. i thought all ended in secondary school.. im like so happy finally four years are over.. BUT.. now.. its getting worse.. this 2 years might really turn out to be worse than what i thought it will be.. i thought treating everyone nicely is the way to go.. but.. u will never know.. people who are smiling to u in class.. are the people who is stabbing you from the back.. i wun mention who.. but i want that person to knoww.. although im FAT, but I dun have BODY ODOR. if i have.. secondary school i will already know.. BUT I DUN HAVE IT.. so please dun make a crap out of nothing. and i hereby tell u.. i will not hesitate to ask adults to take actions against u.. i wun hesitate to ask my parents to confront u if this carries on.. And...
please GET A LIFE.. wats the point of doing all this CHILDISH KIDDISH stuff.. i mean.. u are not YOUNG KIDS anymore.. so GROW UP.. and act more mature lars.. u are NO LONGER in Secondary school already.. so PLEASE.. GET A LIFE..

well.. whatever the case.. i still must thank u.. doing such kiddish stuff really give me the motivation.. to kick ur !*^@%^#&$.. if it stops here.. i wun comment much.. BUT.. if it carries on and even go farther.. i will take actions already.. I hate people doing things behind others' back..! BE yourself. if u dare to do it, say it. at most we come confrontation. see u win or i win. see u correct or i correct. u might have a big social circle but i honestly dun care.. its either u stop now.. or carry on and let things turn NASTY.. its really seriously UP TO YOU..

if u insist on making life tough for me.. i will make sure even if i die.. i will pull u down together with me.. and tats my promise to The CHILDISH INMATURE ONE.

and to my clique : thanks wors..! u all really are important.. u all make me go on walking whenever i meet with probs.. u all make this sentence true.. ' when the going gets tough.. the tough gets going..!! ' thanks..! and hope.. everything will be better..

Labels: the UGLY truth.

i duno.. kinda tired...
not physically but mentally tired.. things have been quite testing my mental power this few days.. its tiring me out badly... been playing mind games with quite a few people from my class recently.. totally stressing me out liaos.. im so bad at mind games.. but hopefully i can at least protect myself... i dun intend to win.. i rather it be a draw.. and no one is hurt in the process..

almost gone all the way to pasir ris.. luckily i got off in time.. before the bus go to the highway.. but then.. walked home.. hahas.. my stamina seems better.. i walked a distance and im not tired at all.. and tats great.. hahas..
came home.. sit down.. read manga.. play my psp games... then my mind started to wander off.. thinking about having a stead beside me.. caring for me.. holding my hand.. and letting me lean against him.. but well.. i promise to let things go on its own.. so.. well.. lets see who will be my rite one x) waiting and waiting.. hope its someone nice ^^

welll... thanks for the encouragement tempestt..! well.. its really this encouragements that 'set my heart on fire' hahas...
well... i simply love our new project for business fundamental.. its like business courses suits me the best.. their project themes are all my favorite..

well.. i duno wats wrong with me.. no mood totally.. better dun blog anymore.. hais.. duno wats up with me now... thoughts over flowing my mind..

Labels: overflowing thoughts

well.. i was still all happy yesterday about my class being so on ytd.. todae 2 things happened.. i feel rather upset by it.. as in disappointed.. todae was the day to get the money to purchase the cake and presents.. ended up everyone like dun like the idea of celebrating the birthdays for each months.. i really duno lars.. starting its like everyone so on about it.. then now its getting tougher and tougher.. cause i ordered the cake.. to be on fridae.. then make up lesson everyone choose on friday.. then mr starbucks said tat there is actually the celebration.. then...... everyone was like 'awwww...' i know no one wants to stay back.. they would surely rather cut short their breaks.. i was kinda disappointed cause the lady told me might not be able to change the dates after order.. then its like i can feel a certain group of people hating me.. i will nt mention who.. ya.. then i was like all hyper about creating good memories for everyone for 2 years.. then todae.. like kinda got pour cold water.. starting to lose my hyper-ness in making it nice liaos.. i thought of like so many stuff for the class.. but now.. i dun think i got ability to make it happen le lars... maybe im just not cut out for it ba...

Second happening , i feel rather sad.. but then.. no much choice.. i already cannot turn back already.. i left my group of portable³.. i actually really love working with them.. although things have been moving quite slow.. but i really can see everyone trying so hard.. and tat includes Bhai too!! he like trying so hard to make us laugh and feel so fun when we are all quiet and stuff... he is nice ^^ a good team player.. but then.. cos adilah left the group todae.. due to the progressing reasons..

that shook my heart.. and well.. in the end i chose to back out from the group.. but i duno is i think too much or what.. but i can see Aaron is trying real hard to stick this group together as one.. and stop each other from falling apart.. i told him as long as the group can work out.. i will not leave.. but then.. when Bhai was asking me from his desk whether im still part of the team.. i turn over.. and saw someone else's face who is so black.. and said.. ' no.. im forming my own.. ' after i said tat.. i feel like hitting my head against the wall.. why did i say tat sort of nasty stuff!!! but then.. its already out of my mouth.. and.... well.. Bhai was like ... 'those leave , dun join back.. dun keep get out , get in..' something like tat.. i realize it was too late to take back my words.. i really duno wat to say after that.. whenever i turn over and see the team doing stuff.. i felt kinda sad.. and stupid.. i shouldn't even thought of leaving a group tat i started off... its like so idiotic. the person who start the team now say the team cannot make it.. i felt dumb.. its like suddenly so cold.. they just do among themselves and things get rather quiet....

time to time.. i turn back and took a look.. but i realize its all too late for regrets.. i missed the times we roll our chairs around.. asking each other.. checking each other's powerpoints.. and stuff like that.. hais.. i really shouldn't have... said all those..

well... i came home.. and did a testimonial apologize in the ISP 2008 friendster.. hopefully they will see it.. and accept my apologize.. i wouldn't dare to ask to be back with them.. cause i did such idiotic things.. but then.. would really wish to get back with them.. they are really a great bunch of people cause... like... ermms..

Tempestt - she is good in organising the group together.. and giving great ideas..

Wen yan - she might be quiet but can still the group quite lively..

Bhai - starting i thought he might not do much.. but in actual fact.. he is amazing.. the way he can do things quite quickly.. and also add fun to our project..

Aaron - he is a smarty pants..! hahas.. very smart and hardworking..!

Guang - he is a funny guy XP nice and hardworking too!

Ahmad - Quick thinking.. another smarty pants..!

Labels: a sad dae.a wrong decision made.

well..

todae.. we had sports and wellness class.. then i came to know of the swimming club and ask the teacher about it.. but well.. kinda hate it when the teacher give me tat attitude like as if fat people cannot join the club.. i wondering they are really swimming or for the sexy girls go there show off their body sia.. to me.. swimming has always been a leisure.. and a way i chose to de-stress myself.. hahas.. then can go swimming quite often with kylie cause she in life saving cca in her RP.. hahas..

well..
i never know my class so on lars xP
i wanna try to make their birthday present as special as possible but time running out le.. 2 more days till Balqis's b'dae.. haiyo.. duno wat to make sia.. really can't think of something unique yet not too expensive.. ^^ but im surprise the class was okay with the buying cake and celebrate thingy XP this fridae or smth im gonna go look around and find the chocolate cake & cheesecake for them liaos.. if not.. they wun be able to have delicious cakes in time.. but im scared it might not turn out to be nice cakes x.x

hahas..
see how ba.. this few days.. Yana have not been coming to school.. i miss chatting with her.. hahas.. quite busy recently.. Projects have been coming up.. Studies have been tiring me out pretty much.. till i can't work much part time le.. too tired.. XP but its like a excuse lar.. will try to see how.. maybe find a easier more relaxing job or something like that ba.. hahas..
trying my best to spend everyday happily with my classmates.. hahas.. :) well.. talking more and more to the guys in my class.. they are so funny.. and nice ^^ really glad that i have entered this class.. the teachers are so nice & understanding.. some more their lessons always a lot of fun de.. hahas.. i wanna try to slim down.. now everyday either one or two meals.. and plenty of exercising.. =] well.. i dropped the idea of finding a bf.. i think.... maybe single is a lot better xP but somehow im starting to enjoy my single lifestyle.. who knows....
maybe i will be able to find a BF in my school.. all i wish is that he is a nice and understanding guy ^^ nothing needed more than those 2 factors.. but being single isn't tat bad X)

alrite alrite.. tats it for today.. going to read up on my business stuff.. XD
revise abit abit.. study more more..

Nub : Looks isn't Everything.. to me, its the inside that counts the most..! if a ger likes you just for your looks, then tat is not true love. that is more to admiring liao.. Not good looking can also dress up and become handsome de what.. :) jiayou jiayou! u are a devoted lover.. and tats the good thing for u.. understand your inner beauty ^^

Labels: sch.sch.sch.project.

i asked one of my friend. and i shouldn't say who. he ended up saying i might be a attention whore. and i was like wat the.... whore is a nono word to me.. i practically hate tat word. but i went to search google and found out... im really an attention whore and most people in the world hate it.. i was like OMG.. when i see the description of a attention whore.. i was shocked and devastated.. its like so sad.. but then.. thats what people said online.. i dun think real life anyone has been telling me anything near tat.. phew~

well.. sixth day of class. and i actually fallen asleep in my accounts class. was getting bored.. and fell asleep.. so tired lors.. then the office application class was great as usual.. was quite busy and stuff.. starting was really unsure that our group will work out but then.. starting to feel better after talking to them at the canteen during our break time.. to be honest.. i have a confession tat is.. starting starting i dun really like Bhai.. not really happy he joined us.. BUT.. the thing is that.. after talking to him in the canteen for awhile.. i realize i was wrong about him.. he isn't such a big slacker i thought he would be.. he is actually quite nice and quite a team player.. somemore todae oso make me realize.. the guys in our class.. are actually not bad people.. cause before this.. i thought they are very scary dao kia[s] but then todae.. during the break.. i realize.. our class is actually quite a fun bunch wors =x enjoy todae's break totally.. ^^ woohoo~ we will be celebrating people's b'dae every month le..! yay..! hahas.. its like so fun.. but then i remb when in secondary school.. ask my class give 1 dollar.. they will nag n nag n nag.. its really different in ITE though.. especially my class.. everyone is like super duper on..! then lastly we had ms Harasha's lesson , business fundamental.. we still dun have the book yet.. but still quite fun.. she never fail to make the lesson fun =x

ya.. last but not least.. something funny happened todae.. we were at the canteen during our break.. i remembered smth funny Bhai said.. we were discussing about celebrating the b'dae monthly.. he said 'dun nid. we save up the money and just open a chalet on my b'dae to celebrate everyone's b'dae..' hahas.. and one more is.. ' tomorrow remind me collect 1 dollar.. i want to buy 4d.. if strike , i give u all back 2 dollars.. ' and Liang Yi said ' the price 2k u give us each $2 ?!! ' and the rest i probably shouldn't continue.. but in overall.. this 2 people happen to brighten my day.. hahas.. ^^ it was so funny when Bhai and Liang Yi said all these xP

this two pictures are our class pictures.. one formal then the other informal.. :)
I love ISP 2008.. they are like totally CUTE and adorable ^^ crazy yet funny bunch of people..!

Formal =D



Informal ^^ [ Look AT Faliq.. hahas.. :) cute bunch of people ^.^ ]



they are the very ones that make me await every school day ahead with a smile =x just by remembering the funny and crazy stuff they did or said ^^

Labels: ISP 2008 / attention whore

school just started 5 daes ago.. hahas..
this 5 daes have been busy yet fun for me..
mondae..
first dae of sch..
fun.. but then.. weird cos i made no frens..

second dae of sch.. tuesdae..
still weird.. made no frens yet.. like can't fit in properly..
weird weird de..

third dae of sch.. wednesdae..
woohoo.. i left school early todae..dun ask me why =x

fourth dae of sch.. thursdae..
lessons starts.. wa.. our teachers are so much fun lors..
had plenty of fun.. making lots of frens already.. starting to feel fitting in..

fifth dae of sch.. fridae..
todae is the best.. hahas..
came to know almost all of my classmates.. ^^
then went home.. and i realised i wasn't the only one taking 88 home..! wee~
hahas.. after tat.. i went to meet jonathan.. and his frens..
hahas.. in the end knowing lots of pple.. watched the movie hottie and nottie.. hahas.. not bad.. hahas..

this week.. made LOTS of frens.. and had 2 movies.. hottie and nottie and untraceable.. it was so much fun..!
hahas.. hope next week will be even more fun ^^

Labels: short conclusion

i just came back from my aunt's house...

sat down and thought abt my blog.. then thought of this sentence tat describe the feelings i had whenever i see loving couples..

看着幸福的人走在街上，好羡慕他们的幸福，好想拥有和他们一样的幸福。。 可是不可能因为我是爱情的傀儡。。 永远不会得到渴望的幸福。。

which eventually become my msn nickname.. well.. its true.. u will realise if u read my previous post.. im starting to feel more and more like tat..

the english meaning is that..

walking on the streets looking at couples who are so sweet and close.. very envy of their closeness and happiness.. really wish to have the same happiness with another but its not possible because i am the puppet of love.. ever and ever won't be able to get my long desired happiness..

tomorrow going to polyclinic.. haven't think of which polyclinic to go yet.. i think going to seng kang polyclinic.. need to go see doctor.. finally decided to do something about my sensitive rashes active hands.. but then hope after seeing the doctor everything will be better ba.. if not then very sad le..

this coming monday gonna start school le.. tmr and sundae are my last days of fun before im gonna be serious and start studying.. first day of school is making me excited.. but then.. i hope everything will be fine and smooth.. :) i hope i can make lots and lots of new frens :) i have decided to try to diet and exercise and doll myself up.. i wanna be pretty .. even if i'm not slim.. i wanna look good and be confidence.. first thing im gonna do is to buy some makeup :) hahas..

todae was with my sister at compass point walking ard.. browsing.. and i suddenly feel interested in masks.. lip gloss.. lipsticks.. makeup.. foundation and lots lots.. =x duno why.. maybe what people say is right.. when u start to grow up.. u will start to learn how to doll urself up.. :)

alrite.. lengthy post.. but tats roughly all.. i go play PSP then go sleep after awhile.. tomorrow very early nid to wake up and go poly clinic.. alrite alrite.. buais :)

Labels: thoughts thoughs.

i got very very very long never update my blog..

duno why also.. just after break up with him.. damn dun feel like blogging lors.. everytime see my blog oso see the old posts.. reminds me of the short past with him.. anyways, i recieved a sms from him a few days ago.. after avoiding me for like close to a week.. then he replied.. he tell me.. ' sorry but i guess i still love my ex girlfren , huihui.. i can't forget about her.. sorry for hurting u all the way long.. sorry to have hurt u that much.. love u always.. take care.. ' and my heart was like thinking WTF.. overall i was just a puppet..

i rather he didn't reply and i just think he disappear off the world lors.. but he replied and said such stuff.. my heart totally sink liaos.. i rather he dun reply then i can act blur and say i think too much.. now he say the truth i feel rather sad lors.. i duno how to describe that feeling but i just know that.. why it must be me who always got fooled out.. why i must always be the puppet to love.. its getting so sickening and tiring.. puppet of love.. wat a name =x

well.. recently have been working at sweet secrets.. todae is the 4th day i work there le.. and todae is the best.. auntie Mona is so nice :) thousands time better than Murian the Supervisor.. she is the evil one.. but then i should not explain more on that point.. xD dun wanna be bad mouthing here on my blog.. later dirty my blog sia xP well.. today sales very good so quite happy.. :) just came home ard an hr ago.. went night jogging with my sister.. XP can't believe i went jogging right.. but then.. well , its to keep myself healthy.. going swimming tis coming saturdae.. morning swim.. will go swimming 6.30am.. the moment swimming pool open, will be inside swimming cause after that my sister have to go work =x

hahas.. dun nid to sleep tmr nite tat means =x oh my gosh .. but then.. never mind :) hahas.. duno why suddenly i love sports =x well.. going to bed soon.. tmr off.. can stay home rot.. duno this saturdae and sundae wanna go work ma.. dun feel like going work cause school starting.. wanna stay home and rot more.. arbo school start then no rotting =x cause i must work hard.. hope can make lots of friends.. :) excited.. but scared ownself go first day.. know nobody.. very LONER.. =x alrite alrite.. nite nite :)

Labels: working.sports.

we are over officially.

i kept thinking.. his chance is up. i told myself if he bothers to sms me then it means our relationship have not ended.. but todae.. totally zero smses from u.. then i knew it.. i told myself.. ' forget it. tats it. ' i should not waste any of my precious time on jerks like him anymore.. my heart feels sad.. but.. i guess.. i can't help it.. some part of me really dun wish to see us ended it like this.. but then.. i really cannot stop myself from the thought of removing u from my life.. i really hate it.. it felt as if my feelings were played again.. but then.. i rather let it end here.. then letting it carry on hurting me..

i shed tears for u.. the final tears i will ever shed for u..
i promise myself.. after tat.. i will never shed a single tear for u anymore..
we are OVER. i will end this once and for all. i will remove every single memory of u and erase u from my mind once and for all..

i think im giving up on love..
its such a time wasting thing..
its just getting me ended up with more wounds again and again..
it hurts too much.. i duno whether i will ever be able to trust anyone.. and love him with all my heart..
i hope the new school term can give me new hopes xP

well.. i went out with my sister todae in the evening.. she went to cut hair.. dye hair.. and trim eyebrows.. and we had carl's Junior for dinner.. so full but the fries was great.. love their coke light with lots of lemon!
hahas.. todae had a very good day.. had lots of fresh air.. we took cab home.. and the uncle is like... wth.. sister paid by nets.. and the uncle was like 'what, no cash ar..' then me and my sister was like thinking.. 'wa lao.. say until like we not even paying at all..' then somemore is tat.. when we are on the cab.. still on cockroach lor! eeww.. xP disgusting..

well.. finished transferring games and songs to my PSP.. going downstairs venting machine and press some drinks then going play PSP at my room relax relax.. until tired then sleep..! buais..!

and thanks to all that cared for me :)
u are the reason i can face this with the least tears.. :) arigato..
whoever is free , please ask me out.. im rotting already..!

Labels: first ended r/s of the year. sad.

this few days.. me and laogong.. dun seem to talk anymore.. he yesterday only sms me once.. then.. totally never sms me anymore le..

i duno wats wrong with him.. every night when he comes home.. he will rather watch horror shows then go sleep then chat with me.. its not as if im busy or wat.. but he wun bother.. he has definitely changed.. the him i used to know.. seems to evaporate bit by bit from the day we are together.. todae me and him already together for..6 days.. but i think its already over in my heart.. my shortest relationship.. 6 days..

our relationship is over i guess.. its just when and who says break now.. maybe even a silence break.. i chatted with my fren this few days.. he advised me that i should leave him.. because.. he really isn't a true good boyfriend.. one that always find excuses when wanna meet.. one that rather watch horror movies than chatting with his girlfriend.. i really duno.. this few days.. i have been thinking a lot about this.. but.. i really duno how to tell him that i wanna break up.. i have never said it before.. not in the past.. and hopefully not in the future... hais.. i really duno le lar...

i myself oso keep trying to think of excuses for him.. but then.. i soon realised myself running all of excuses for him already... im so tired trying to think and find excuses for him.. i guess this will end someday.. but duno which day.. a part of me.. still wants to give him chances.. and couldn't bear to let go of this dying relationship between me and him..

i will continue thinking.. now im off to work..

Labels: lost. broken heart.

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