Tuesday, September 30, 2008 2:23 AM
flu and tired.
todae.. hundred tables AGAIN.im so tired now..legs aching and everything....my left hand gt a dumb bruise.. which is so painful.. its very near the shoulder area..hahas.. todae.. very the tired.. gt a bad headache during work.. fell down and almost fell down once each.. fell down so painful lors.. hais..todae the job like someone playing prank on me.. make me look like a fool..should not say much.. but todae i gain a indirect happy moment.. although its probably nt as wat i imagine it to be.. but imagining it was alr good enuff.. hahas.. tat moment was pure happiness..i guess god is giving me some sort of reward for my patiences. :)hahas..thoughts:im really happy..sweet moments will always be kept in me.. in my heart..tat moment.. made me shine like a star.. letting me hanging on more to the thin thread of line..the thin thread of line.. magically transform into a big rope at tat moment..so easy to hang on...im happy :)Labels: tired.happy.work
Monday, September 29, 2008 2:38 AM
tiring dae.
freaking tired todae..my bones feel like breaking now..my feet hurts so badly..had been working for 3 daes straight alr..and tmr ( later evening of the dae ) i will still have to work..tat means.. 4 daes in a rowww!my feets are hurting so much now.. and i have a bruise on my left hand..and... funniest all of all..i slip and fell into the kitchen while working..luckily no one was ard.. i look so funny when i fall..guess the flooor..was way too slipper..todae.. was bad.. worked frm noon till 11.30pm.. frm the time 10am to 2am..came down with a flu... and... nt enuff slp frm previous 2 daes.. resulting in me... getting weak and everything..i feel freakingly tired.. my legs just hurts so much now..goshh... tmr still gt work.. but i must hold on.. endure it all thru...for the sake.. of happy memories..tmr is gonna be tough.. but i wun so easy give up de..! jiayou serene!! gogogo!!Hahas. alright.. tats all for todae.. im so tired..thoughts:sometimes.. u are so kind to me.. when no one is looking or knowing it..but when ard others.. u are just been so bad and cruel to me..i simply dun understand.. but i believe things are better if i just leave them tis way..i dun wanna lose u..seeing u frm far is enuff for me alr..im clear abt just wat i want frm u now.. :) and i will try my best to mantain everything between us..Labels: sick.work
Saturday, September 27, 2008 2:54 AM
todae. worst dae for this freaking year..work = freaking shitty todae.. worse dae of the all daes. Upset level = 40%family = sister purposely picked a big quarrel with me. upset level = 80%sch = sister know i skipped sch and threaten to tell parents . i told her to go ahead. upset level = 100%and of cos.. reaction?i cried.. badly..i know by tmr or so.. they will know.. and be disappointed in me...i duno why.. i just kept crying for ard an hr.. i couldn't stop myself frm crying..feeling so sad.. so miserable..like my whole world have turn dark all of a sudden..whole world come crushing on me.long time since i had such a emo emo post alr..but i just wanna remb todae..after todae's crying.. i will walk on.. with a smile..thoughts :tis are all just part of life's many many barriers.. they intend to drag me down..but i will survive.. i wun go down w/o a fight..even if im gonna die in the fight to survive..i wun care.. i nvr gonna give up tis easily.. bowing my head to defeat anymore..im gonna walk on.. and prove it with my actions..tat.. im just who i am :)and im happy to be who i am too!
Thursday, September 25, 2008 11:01 PM
hmms. just came hm after a long day out..went to eat porridge buffet with gladys and jovin..after the porridge buffet we went to watch movie...we watched Mirrors...erms. the movie is... super the gore. and disgusting..see alot of blood bursting here and there..the most disgusting part should be.. the part when one of the female actoress she was killed by pulling her upper jaw and lower jaw apart.. till her jaws seperate..very very disgusting.. :xbut overall.. the movie still not bad... i give it rating... 3/5 stars :xbut surprisingly we can go in cause tat show is M18.. :P lucky they nvr check..erms.. after tat.. we cam whore for a long time.. took alot of pictures.. and oso took neoprints too! hahas..then after tat.. we went to walk around alot..then head home soon :xi had fun todae.. but.. most of the time in the day.. my head was thinking about the 2 him..i tried nt to think of them.. but.. difficult..especially the special him..thinking about them... makes me get more and more emo..thoughts:why suddenly images of u and me.. filling up my mind..can't even concentrate.. sometimes i just wanna be by u..take care of u.. care for u openly..but.. i still duno whether are u will be the one or not..but i will wait.. wait patiently for u.. :)wait for the dae.. u look at me with eyes of a beholder :)i duno how long i can wait.. but i know i will try to wait as longas the feelings last in me... :)Labels: love.nvr.stop.humans.do.
Saturday, September 20, 2008 4:12 AM
well well well..finally time to blogg!lets start from.. thursday :)well.. met up with Gladys , Jovin , Maylene , Maylene's Bf [Jeff] , Yaoguang & Aaron..we went for movies! and dinner..hahas..we watched ' Babylon AD ' , my say of the movie is.....i dun really like it much..the technologies were abit ... too much.. and too impossible for mankind now..hahas.. then the storyline weird weird oso..hahas.. overall.. the day was quite fun.. but i spent so much tat day.. :X pocket burn hole..hahas.. we played pool after the dinner xPi won 2 times and lost 2 times :i hope my skills improving liaos :Pthen fridae...work! in the evening..food todae @ work was somehow better.. :) drinks taste better too..todae gt POTONG! x) whenever i thought of potong , reminds me of my cousin :Phahas.. he is POTONG lover =)well... work was 50-50.. good and bad..good part is..i still get to work with them..and todae is 2 person to 3 table..gladys partner Aaron and i partner Yaoguang..overall.. was kinda fun..except for a irritating auntie which i should not comment much.. :Phahas. smth happened.me and gladys went to take bus....then got tis guy and a ger..the guy duno for wat reason kept staring at me...then... when we bought the same bus..going up the stairs.. he suddenly grab my hand.. i was like ' gosh 'XP i quickly move away my hand.. so weird yet quite funny :Pnw... gonna go sleep soon already.. :Ptmr still got work..alright. :X tats all for now :)
Wednesday, September 17, 2008 10:57 PM
| The Part of You That No One Sees |
 You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.
People feel like they really don't know the true you...
Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.
Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.
It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.
You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away. |
Labels: hmms. random quizz
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tuedae :hmmms. work work..hahas.. after work.. went for beancurd..after tat.. jon's dad sent aaron and jovin home..then me and guang was waiting for bus..then we realise.. the buses we are waiting for ... dun serve for mon-thurs..hahas.. then panick for awhile..end up.. we went to find jovin.. hahas..thenn.. he cab home while jovin and me ton till morning..thanks jovin for accompanying me worrs :)then i took train.. bought breakfasts for my mummy.. then go homeee..hmms. after awhilee... fall aslp...wed:woke up ard evening time :Xhahas.. nowdaes got work everytime next day will like to slack on bed..till late late if never go out..pigggy piggy..hahas. end up.. me ,jovin , glady and guang booked full week for next week..yeah! got people pei me liaos.. hahas.. :)tmr gonna haave a outing le!!movie + dinner outing.. woohooo~!gonna go catch babylon ad and have dinnerr :)im sure its gonna be damn damn fun :)thoughts:there is so much ups and downs between us..when i thought everything was over...everything will return to be as good as new again..i have a feeling that im like running in circles..but then.. no matter how long im gonna take..i believe.. i will find the exit out of this maze... and hold the answer in my hand.."good things are worth waiting for.." tis is wat one of my fren taught me about.. :)Labels: waiting.waiting.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008 2:15 AM
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sundae and todae [ mondae ] ,both dae slacked at home.. didnt celebrate mooncake festival due to my injuried left shoulder.. find it so hard to move around..hmms.. resting at home.. hope it will recover soon.. somehow..every day waking up.. hoping tat its has recovered.. but..no improvements.. tis 2 days.. sleep alot alot to recharge energy..hahas.. energy is back.. but the pain dun seem to disappear..hmmms.. at least my back ache feels better already.. tmr go work.. so scared that tmr will worsen the injury of mine..hope tat it wun be worsen..hmms.. i must survive thru it.. and hope for the best..hope tat it can recover before the heavy weekends..friday, saturdae and sundae.. :Xim gonna give it my all.. and chiong.. hope for the best..alrite. tats all.. tmr got work :) buais!thoughts:hmms.tis 2 daes.. nvr think much stuff.. :X think de stuff.. cannot share..:P so nth-ing much to write :PLabels: after.work
Sunday, September 14, 2008 3:47 AM
banquet.
hmms. abit too tired to go find pictures..backaches.. wrists both damn pain.. and a headache to top it off..but todae.. first dae of work only wors..anyways, todae is the first dae i work @ meritus mandarin.. and they alr threw us into a wedding banquet of 100 tables.. ard 1100 guests.. : fainted sehh. stress but we still managed not bad :)hahas..hmms.. big thanks to guang and aaron and oso gladys..and a guy with big specs.. tat i duno who is he at all..he very nice.. and helped me with my heavy tray and my damn table roll roll name lazy susan..hahas..guang and aaron helped me alot lors :) without their help at tat time.. i think i die already..gladys also help me.. and oso guide me abit here and there..hahas.. :) although tired.. but todae very enjoyable..after the work.. we ended up went to rochor to makan :Phahas.. chatted alot :)i hope everyone enjoy working there and will carry on..hahas.. :) next work shift will be on tuesdae.. which we will all work again :Pthoughts :working is hard..but then the fun involved in unmeasurable.. :)i simply loving the memories at work..although its damn tiring..but im glad to have my friends to let me rely on when i need help :)big thank you to all those who have helped me todae :)Labels: banquet.1st dae.
Friday, September 12, 2008 2:17 AM
Pictures of the dae :
goshh. such a long dae todae is...hmmms. woke up late @ 11.15am :Psuppose to meet Jovin , Gladys , Guang , Aaron , Yana , Natasha and Ahmad , Dom @ 11am.. but then...was too tired ba.. couldnt wake up.. actually did wake up.. but off alarm then..continue sleeping again :Pend up rush down.. ard 12.30pm then reach snooker zone..quite empty.. hahas..pooll-pool-pool till ard 2pm++some went off half way..after lunch at toa payoh koufu.. me, jovin , guang.. zoom to find aaron.. while the others went off already.. cos... aaron's ezlink is still with us..after settling the banquet stuff...then.. end up.. we went to play pool at cine.. AGAIN..hahas.. then.. went to kfc.. have my dinner with aaron , jovin , jonathan [aaron's fren].. we chatted ALOT alot.. hahas.. damn funn...hahas.. after tat.. we supposingly went to take bus.. but i wanted to walk alone explore explore abit..end up 2 crazy MANIACS came after me.. tis 2 are.. Aaron and Jovin :Pthey ki siao one lor.. can go home dun want home.. come and folo me..we ended up FINALLY at rochor!hahas.. we finnally had beancurd.. :P yummmy...after tat.. we crazily walked to farrer park and then.. ended up me.. and aaron took 139..hahas.. he told me some stuff about whampoa area.. :)todae i know singapore a bit more once again.. hahas.. ard 12.40am then reach home.. with the last 88 :Phahas... had so much fun todae :)ty the 2 maniacs.. to entertain me :P pei me go rochor eat beancurd when they are damn tired.. :P hahas.. tyty! :)thoughts :hmmms. im quite confident tat im walking out of my past already..i have decided to let go of it already.no point making myself so sad and troubled over it..i rather make myself happy everyday..and enjoy everyday to the max that i can :)ty for those who helped me walk out of it :)and big THANK YOU for the 2 maniacs..was kinda emo then.. but u two.. sorta brought a torch into my darkness :)Labels: damn fun.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008 10:00 PM
Picture of the dae :
Its finally over! :)Yippee , finally finish my 3rd and last paper of the term..came down with very serious case of flu..during the paper.. my nose did nt spare me from the illness..but at last .. i managed to finish it :)but gt a few mistakes... sad... : but shouldnt be doing too badly..hahas.. :)ard early noon time.. i went to cut my hair~!it looks weird.. but nt bad lar :P abit nt used to it..well... after the paper.. we chatted at somewhere..then head home.. :tmr.. we gonna go play badminton! :) yippees.woohoo..~ holidae is gonna start frm tomorrow onwards!thoughts:everytime i drop..jovin,maylene and gladys will be there :)im glad to have gd frens like them :)my life revolves around them now.. its time to relax myself :)Labels: holidaes.
Monday, September 8, 2008 9:13 PM
1 last more paper.
hmms. todae actually finish the paper quite easily...but some parts of the paper oso quite hard to understand..hope i can score well.. after the paper..everyone went hm except for me, jovin and gladys.. we wanted to go to bishan library.. but then ended up.. we didnt go.. we went to somewhere else and chat..hahas.. we actually went to watch movie lors..we went to watch ' make it happen ' at 2.35pm+..hahas.. the show quite nice.. love the dances.. simply lovely.. and somemore.. the dances and the music go so well together.. :)but heard frm jovin & gladys tat its nt as good as step up 2.. hahas.. but still i enjoy the movie quite much.. hahas..after tat.. we decided to walk to serangoon again.. then we went home around 7.45pm..thoughts..took one step back..and i stood infront of the mirror..then i realise..i wasnt as good a person as i thought i was..i realise my bads..i was too strong headed already..i realise.. i often do things tat i think will be good for tat person..i decided..i will forgive & forget abt my past..its time for me to walk out frm my past..and smash the mirror.. destroy the 'me' from the past..but will it be too late...?Labels: the past.the present.
Sunday, September 7, 2008 1:01 AM
Pictures of the dae :)
welll... hahas.. todae is sundae early morning... 1am+hahas.. why am i only blogging at tis hour? let me tell u why...well... start frm fridae...fridae night time we went to study...at bugis mac... hahas... study frm ard 10pm onwards.. all the way till sat 3am.. then we wanted to walk to esplanade.. in the end.. it rained when we walked to suntec..so we stayed at the bus stop area.. and entertained each other for ard 2 hrs..then after tat.. we took train home..i reached home ard 7am... and went to sleep in less than a minute..then.. only woke up at saturdae nite time.. 11pm :Pif my parents nvr wake me up.. i will probably slept even longer.. maybe till sundae morning then wake up :P hahas.. im gonna go sleep again soon.. quite tired..thoughts:i feel happy tat holidae is coming.. but similarly..i feel sad tat holidae is coming too...im so tired now... i feeel so tired.. as if im dying...Labels: tonning.
Thursday, September 4, 2008 10:21 PM
pictures of the dae :
todae got more pictures for the dae.. found alot.. but tis 3 most suitable.. hahas.. especially the first one :)
hmmms.. todae only got like 2/3 of people came for class..
may may and gladys both sick.. must get well soon! missed u two so much..
todae without u two.. super the quiett..
hmms.. todae ofa less than 10 people inside the lab lar.. super duper cold..
tmr still got lessons.. sian.. dun feeel like going school..
but will still go.. cos.. for the sake of going ba.. hahahas.. stoning daily..
borrowed 5 books frm the library.. already finish one of them..
love school library.. books are nt bad :)
thoughts:
hmmms. things are smooth todae..
hmmms.. love the smiles on ur face.. no matter how to tough life is.. once i see ur smile.. all my worries fly away..
:) seeing u happy is my greatest wish :)
Labels: i.wish.for.ur.happiness..
Wednesday, September 3, 2008 11:59 PM
Pictures of the dae :
hmmms. todae.. OFA final exam dae..hmmms.. came in the morning 8.30.. although no lesson but then still come..cos i wanna study and make notes..ard 2 hrs.. did 3 chapters of notes for bzf.. happy happy.. luckily i manage to do up the notes... hahas.. todae.. everything went quite smoothly...i think thru alot of things ytd.. thus todae.. a reborned me.. :)thoughts:hmmms.i have decided not to dwell on sad stuff..i will smile and walk on..im gonna just be myself.. no point always acting or wat..love me for who i am or hate me for who i am :)i decided sometimes u just can't keep thinking all abt waat others said..if nt.. u will just slowly lose ur true self..somemore actually.. its happy todae for me.. :)i see him smile smile smile todae..i feel so happy too... i have already grown up..by.. a few few feelings :P i will learn to treasure memories tat we have :)time is actually 12.50am. 4th September 08 alr..Labels: grown.up
Tuesday, September 2, 2008 11:09 PM
| What Serene Means |
 You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. |
Labels: myname.
Picture of the dae:
todae..last S&W of the term.. hmms.. had badminton.. long time since i play so much badminton.. but it was damn fun.. how i wish we dun have to stop so soon :P hahas.. played 1 hr plus badminton... hmms.. well.. then.. after tat.. break time.. ate and oso had some 'candy'..after break time.. hell took over heaven.. i got kicked down frm heaven.. to hell.. 2 hrs of hell.. plus 'waterfall' make me so tired.. after tat.. bzf kana shoot agn.. my mind just wasnt with me.. hmms.. i guess.. i should try harder to appreciate her lessons and her efforts.. hmms.. after lessons.. we went to revise and do up my notes... finally finish a decent unit 2 notes.. tried it for 3 times.. finally able to write out a decent one..hmmms. now resting.. gonna chiong notes again later.. :)thoughts:hmmms. i duno.. the 2 hrs of hell make me grow up abit more already.. :P'waterfall' make me so tired.. tis is already nt the first time i did tat.. but i really hope u can find the right ger.. i decided already.. even if u be wit hher.. i will jusst have to be happy for u.. wat doesnt belong to me , no matter hw how i try... it will never belong to me.. this.. is life :)im gonna study hard.. i know one dae.. someone will appreciate me.. :)i think wat gladys sae is right.. 'if u cannot be urself infront of the guy u like.. then he is not ur true one..' so from now on.. i gonna remind myself to just be myself already.. stop always thinking how to impress him and everything.. sports is part of my life already.. without sports.. i will probably die.. :)Labels: hellANDheaven
Picture of the dae :
todae.. well.. so late still nt tired.. it should ytd alr :Pteachers' dae.. dun nid go classes..wonderful.. a break at last..well..went out with gladys and jovin for porridge buffet at marina square..nt really very nice.. but very economic..more suitable for adults than us.. cos of the dishes ba..maymay couldnt come.. sadd.. miss her ... so long nvr see her alr..welll... after buffet.. we went to arcade to play basketball... then go to carl's jr..hmms.. study mug mug mug for ard 3 hrs.. :Pthen went to orchard and play pool.. 2 hrs of kpool.. cost 8 dollars each for 3 pple.. hahas..lost 3 times to gladys.. once to jovin.. but win jovin twice.. hahas..damn fun..after tat went home..thoughts:hmms. the wounds are aching again.. i can only try to numb the pain with ur precious smiles.. i really amazed at those smiles u got.. they totally brighten up my life.. hahas.. well.. ur lovely smiles always manage to brighten me upp..and chase away all my worries.. im happy as now life is doing well.. nt exactly wonderful.. but at least better than before.. and im loving everydae.. lovely memories are generated.. to cover the sad ones.. somehow i feel.. things might nt be as simple as it is.. my six senses is working on it again.. i hope anything tat happen to u.. i wun be the last to know.. i will rather u telling me.. then i ownself realising it.. the pain will be double or even triple of the original.. :Labels: lost in u.
Kathleen Sis ❤