Wednesday, April 23, 2008 5:46 PM
mood.sad.sad.sad.
well.. i was still all happy yesterday about my class being so on ytd.. todae 2 things happened.. i feel rather upset by it.. as in disappointed.. todae was the day to get the money to purchase the cake and presents.. ended up everyone like dun like the idea of celebrating the birthdays for each months.. i really duno lars.. starting its like everyone so on about it.. then now its getting tougher and tougher.. cause i ordered the cake.. to be on fridae.. then make up lesson everyone choose on friday.. then mr starbucks said tat there is actually the celebration.. then...... everyone was like 'awwww...' i know no one wants to stay back.. they would surely rather cut short their breaks.. i was kinda disappointed cause the lady told me might not be able to change the dates after order.. then its like i can feel a certain group of people hating me.. i will nt mention who.. ya.. then i was like all hyper about creating good memories for everyone for 2 years.. then todae.. like kinda got pour cold water.. starting to lose my hyper-ness in making it nice liaos.. i thought of like so many stuff for the class.. but now.. i dun think i got ability to make it happen le lars... maybe im just not cut out for it ba...
Second happening , i feel rather sad.. but then.. no much choice.. i already cannot turn back already.. i left my group of portable³.. i actually really love working with them.. although things have been moving quite slow.. but i really can see everyone trying so hard.. and tat includes Bhai too!! he like trying so hard to make us laugh and feel so fun when we are all quiet and stuff... he is nice ^^ a good team player.. but then.. cos adilah left the group todae.. due to the progressing reasons..
that shook my heart.. and well.. in the end i chose to back out from the group.. but i duno is i think too much or what.. but i can see Aaron is trying real hard to stick this group together as one.. and stop each other from falling apart.. i told him as long as the group can work out.. i will not leave.. but then.. when Bhai was asking me from his desk whether im still part of the team.. i turn over.. and saw someone else's face who is so black.. and said.. ' no.. im forming my own.. ' after i said tat.. i feel like hitting my head against the wall.. why did i say tat sort of nasty stuff!!! but then.. its already out of my mouth.. and.... well.. Bhai was like ... 'those leave , dun join back.. dun keep get out , get in..' something like tat.. i realize it was too late to take back my words.. i really duno wat to say after that.. whenever i turn over and see the team doing stuff.. i felt kinda sad.. and stupid.. i shouldn't even thought of leaving a group tat i started off... its like so idiotic. the person who start the team now say the team cannot make it.. i felt dumb.. its like suddenly so cold.. they just do among themselves and things get rather quiet....
time to time.. i turn back and took a look.. but i realize its all too late for regrets.. i missed the times we roll our chairs around.. asking each other.. checking each other's powerpoints.. and stuff like that.. hais.. i really shouldn't have... said all those..
well... i came home.. and did a testimonial apologize in the ISP 2008 friendster.. hopefully they will see it.. and accept my apologize.. i wouldn't dare to ask to be back with them.. cause i did such idiotic things.. but then.. would really wish to get back with them.. they are really a great bunch of people cause... like... ermms..
Tempestt - she is good in organising the group together.. and giving great ideas..
Wen yan - she might be quiet but can still the group quite lively..
Bhai - starting i thought he might not do much.. but in actual fact.. he is amazing.. the way he can do things quite quickly.. and also add fun to our project..
Aaron - he is a smarty pants..! hahas.. very smart and hardworking..!
Guang - he is a funny guy XP nice and hardworking too!
Ahmad - Quick thinking.. another smarty pants..!
Balqis - She might be really quiet.. but she is really good at work..! another quiet smarty pants..!
see.. so many smarty pants.. XD and some more.. all are quick workers when they put their mind to it.. ^^ but thenn... well.. its too late..^^ hope to have more chances grouping with them in future.. portable³ will always be in my heart no matter wat ^^ i will always remember the funny fun sessions we had.. especially the one in the canteen..
hmms.
maylene and gladys ask me go swim swim...
i agreed.. but duno when they going.. ^^ happy sia..
i got classmates that like SWIMMING.. tats like... a 1/10000 chance..
nowadaes more people prefer land sports like cycling and blading.. which obviously i known none.. and are afraid to learn cause fall down very pain de wors..! hahas.. well.. ya.. tats ard all ba.. todae accounting teacher say she love our class.. so happy to hear that..! all our teachers are nice.. just like second parents to us.. ^^ hahas.. understanding and many more virtues..
tonight thinking either go buy shoe.... or...
go thai's place get games then go kylie's place get games X)
duno lars.. see how..
P.S - Miss Harasha.. get well sooonnn..!! ^^
Labels: a sad dae.a wrong decision made.
Kathleen Sis ❤