pictures of the dae :



thinking and thinking..
all my stress juice all come out liaos..
so freaking tired nw..
i have been trying so hard to make the notes.. but its so difficult...
hmmms. i guess.. im gonna try to mug harder and harder..
trying to best.. i must nt fail like tis..
i will not give up tis easily..

thoughts:

i wun give up without a fight.. even if it means tat i will be super the tired.. i wun give up so easily de.. i promise u i will mug hard means i really will.. i will mug hard todae and tomorrow.. so that i will be able to enjoy the soccer on tuesdae..

i miss the good old daes.. when we do nothing but play and play.. but those daes will return after the exams.. tats wat i believe.. so for nw.. everyone just mug hard k!

thanks for the thought Jovin.. i oso wanna stop thinking abt that issue.. im trying very hard to forgive and forget abt it.. but it arent easy.. im trying very hard already... but then.. i cant.. everytime i see their faces, everything just came rushing back into my mind.. i wanna erase it away oso not possible.. hais.. but i promise tat i will not be sad abt everything and emo emo emo.. i wanna be a happy ger... :)

Labels: mypromise.

todae no picture of the dae...
way too tired already..
lazy to go and find..
hmms.. todae afternoon go and meet Jovin, Gladys and Yana @ city hall area..
then we go do the dumb dumb task..
really dumb.. we merely stood there for 2 hrs..
then can go off le.. but 22 dollars quite gd :P

hmms..
well.. after tat we went for KFC.. then went to suntec's arcade for baskteball :P
then downstairs.. starbucks.. hmmms..
quite tired nw.. nite!


Pictures of my mood todae:




hmmms.
todae im ultra super the happy :)
after sch's teachers' dae concert..
me, yana, natasha, faliq, aaron, yaoguang and Syarif go to Toa Payoh...
makan @ the fork and spoon foodcourt..
ermms. tis is one of the rare occasions tat i spent 4.50 on mixed vege rice..
some more is 2 vege type and 1 meat type only..
quite expensive but its good food though :)
yaoguang, aaron and syarif oso ate frm the same vege store..

then after eating.. we went to the snooker zone.. funny thing is..
the whole big area.. only got us :P
but after awhile... got other people who came too..
tthe tables quality very good... but then.. :X pple there quite strict..
hmmms..
played against all of them.. :)
so fun.. some win.. some lose.. wins mostly are tyco wins :P
but still had my share of fun and oso learn quite a few stuff..
thanks to aaron who kept guiding me..
yaoguang and faliq too!
we oso try snooker.. first time i play snooker..
ermms. quite bad at it.. but had fun tooo!

after tat... zoom homme.. :)
quite tired todae..
tmr still nid to accompany jovin go make ic then after tat still nid to go..
do some extra work stuff..
gonna rest earlier tonight.. then tmr nite or sundae gonna study ACF and oso...
go do my notes for BZF...
cause someone told me 'study hard lars. exams coming already! start mugging larss!!'

thoughts:
todae happy memories filled me to the brim..
im seriously happy..
i just wanna be a simple ger..
enjoying simple happy memories...
happy memories can give me 'sugar rush' too..
hahas.. makes me so hyper lors..
im really very happy todae.. one of my happiest dae..
hahas.. actually can count as my happiest dae of the year..
smiling and smiling.....
todae.. the barrier between us disappearred..
even temporary i still feel happy..
i will try to continue being myself just like todae..
todae.. somehow i remove the mask of mine.. and come out frm my world..
i totally enjoyed myself todae..

Labels: happiness.

Picture for my mood todae:

Labels: understanding.

picture of my mood todae:

Labels: love.has.fallen.frm.heaven.

picture of my mood todae : its a heart tat is frozen , so is mine....





Picture in describing my mood todae :

hmms.. todae we played soccer... and it started raining.. but we continue playing X) not feeling well already.. can feel the cough getting worse and worse... hmms.. had dinner with a fren.. i realise im trying to enter a world.. but the locks are getting more and more complicated.. trrying to pick the lock isnt tat easy.. hmms.. tmr got S&W.. can play soccer sehh :) hahas.. tis wednesdae and fridae gt concerts.. then next mondae dun nid go school.. yay :) finally a proper break.. to rest my tired bones..

thoughts :

hmmms. letting go seems alot better for me.. im feeling better already.. maybe i should really let go of smth tat dun belong to me.. hahas... todae.. for the first time.. i let go of my feelings for him.. and just try to lead a dae without feelings for him.. feel quite weird at first.. but then... slowly.. slowly.. it gets better.. i watch frm a show.. one of the characters inside sae ' even if one dae u dun love me anymore , i will still love u no matter what or who u are. ' so sweet lors :)

well... frm nw on.. im gonna be more sportyy.. :P i wanna be able to run away and dun pant tat much alr... hmms.. but its toughh.. i will try to slowly quick quick tone uppp.. then i wwanna lead a healthy lifestylee. :) heees.. :)

Labels: im just me.

tis is for the previous blog entry..abt angel on the outside, a rebel at heart..
its perfect to display wat my necklace is showing :)


thoughts:
hmms. nvr talked since thursdae nite..
feeling kinda sad over it.. but..
now.. can only bear with it ba..
hope things will become better lors..
hmms.. todae whole dae slack..
think thru alot of things.. im so drained now...
hmmms..
i found A good picture to show my mood :)

mood of the dae :

Labels: locked.

this is the necklace..
i have been looking for a necklace like tis one for very long..
my first necklace bought on saturdae.. 23 August XP
the 23rd days seems to be always the best for me..
hahas.. well.. its a necklace with 4 rings..
2 rings craved with rebel , the other 2 craved with angel..
its meaning of the necklace for the owner is.. a angel on the outside.. a rebel at heart XP
damn suit me... love it so much... thanks to kelvin.. he sponsor me part of it..
if not.. i cfm not enough money then can't buy... hahas..

hmms.. [sat] todae i went in the morning to pray for my grandma , her 2nd yr dead anniversary.. then after tat.. 3pm+ then went to meet kelvin.. we long time nvr hang out alr.. he treat me to cafe cartel.. then after tat.. we went shoopppinng! OBVIOUSLY im like broke.. so i window shopped.. while he bought lots of stuff XP after tat at night.. we had coffee and chat.. my legs like breaking lors.. his legs also like breaking..

after tat.. went home... rest.. XP im so tired now.. hahas.. blog blog blog.. then gonna rest soon i guess.. todae i chat so much that im so so tired.. i dun feel like getting off the sofa even.. XP and now watching the eye.. i probably watch half and stop.. cause like very creepy.. XP hahas...

now is 1am.. XP hahas.. tired.

Labels: my.beloved.necklace.

went to watch movie..
4bia.. quite nice..
but the movie qquite disgusting.. nt good for the faint hearts..
hmms.. even when im out.. i can't help thinking..
when are we ever gonna take agn..
are we gonna be like tis.. seeing u and her getting closer as daes go pass..
all i can do is stand there and watch..

feeling so useless..
can't even anything if i want to..
i feel so tired all of a sudden.. coughing non stop..
my virus seems getting worse..
so freaking tired..
is it time to let go already..?
or clinging because of the feelings in my heart..?
i only know with / without him.. i still got my lovely pals :)
who are always there for me during my Ups and Downs..
:) i love my 3 good frens :)

im breaking into pieces and pieces..
droopping into nothing-ness..
im getting tired.. of everything..
tired of waiting for the right one.. tired of doing things..
tired of creating memories.. to replace old ones.. im tired..

Labels: yawns.

thoughts:
well... i feel tired.. restless now...
hmms... todae went to sch.. almost sleeping the whole dae..
super the tired.. XP feel like sleeping..
yawnns..
later going out for movies.. dun really enough money alr..
so broke now XP
feek like wearing long skirt and printed tee..but then...
i askk my fren.. she sae nt really matching wors..
flu and coughing seems worse as the time passes...
cough and cough...
well.. im still gonna go ahead and wear tat attire XP even if..
it makes me look freaking weird XP
xP hahas.. coughing like mad.. doctor said ytd.. im down with a virus..
hmms.. so its not the same as the usual coughs?
or whattt.. i wonder..

Labels: cough.

everytime..
i feel idiotic..
for quarreling with him..
but then.. im just so angry with all that things happening..
FORGET ABT EVERYTHING , SERENE!
dun think abt it le..

thoughts :
im feel dumb..
feel insulted.. feel bad..
i guess.. its time to let go of wat i like..
and walk on.. its time to leave the past.. its enough alr..
its caughting onto me alr..
i did so much..
its either he is some insensative idiot that dun get it..
or he just dun wanna get it..
suan le ba.. its time to let go of the future tat dun belong to me..
like gladys said ' when u like a guy , no matter how much u wish to just be frens with him.. u will still wanna be his gerfren de.. bit or pieces.. ' hais..
guess wat she said is right..
well.. enough of thinkin.. now im just gonna throw it to the back of my head..
i have my close frens.. tats wat tat seriously matter to me..
not him..
not todae , not tmr , not forever...

Labels: emofied.

todae nvr attend sch....
feel so sick todae.. hahas..
then i nvr go sch... mc for todae..
flu and cough... after go polyclinic..
i went to amk there.. find gladys and jovin they all..
hahas.. saw them play pool..
then after tat go eat.. and arcade play awhile... in the bus feeling super the sleepy..
reach home... dun feel tat tired..

tmr going out wors.. but i still feeling super the sleepy worrs.. :P
dun feel like going sch tmr.. cause i feeling more and more tired..
but then.. cannot lar.. will miss out alot if i dun go sch tmr..
cause todae alr nvr go liaos.. see how it goes..

thoughts:
seeing thru him more and more..
i duno why.. but starting to know him more and more..
reading him deeper..
makes me realise that he isnt the guy that i think he is...
but then..
i duno.. he is slowly changing to a man that i duno..

Labels: weirdo.

my nose.... like tap..
keep flowing and flowing....
ytd alr caught a cold during soccer match.. cos of a rainn...
hmms.. now the flu just keep flowing non stop.. very xin ku..
hais.. tmr duno well still go sch ma..
feeling so uncomfortable.. but then one dae nvr go sch..
i will miss them alot alot de.. :)

todae... soccer :P damn fun..
hmms.. ty to LY for letting me kick away his balls.. :) hahas..
happy.. todae i tried defender and goal keeper.. at first cannot..
in the end.. still can save a few XP hahas..
good start alr :)
i will slowly improve bit by bit..
todae everyone play sehh.. except for syarif cos he still injuried..
then its like freaking fun :P
hahas...
i injuried my left arm.. but now ... okay le..
my right leg gt bruise.. damn pain..
:P but todae seriously damn fun..
love it when so many pple play together..
hahas.. damn damn fun..

thoughts :
i hope everydae will be as lovely as todae.. :)
i wanna improve on my soccer skills :)
well... i love my friendship with alot of people....
enjoying everydae with happiness.. :P


i have decided alr..
i made up my mind about what i wanna achieve..
life seriously is ups and downs.. until quite tired..
well... i have been thinking and reading back my blog.. then i realised..
all my recent posts are so emo...
i decided to cheer up :)
hahas.. no more emoness for me now.. at least not for quite some time...
im gonna stay to look at the bright side of life..
no point keep emo..
make myself sad and everything for the stupidest reasons..
i will learn to appreciate myself once again :)

i todae realise...
alot people ard me..
are also emo-ing de.. just that they nvr tell others only..
i wanna be able to love and care..
i oso wanna be able to be love and care for.. :)

Labels: love.care.

hmmms..
skies turn gray...
raining and raining now...
the sky is getting darker and darker... and i can feel my emoness coming right up...
hmms..
maybe its time to let go of things tat nvr belonged to me...
the emoness , the sadness....
and hug hug , embracing life with happiness and positivity..
well.... i wanna heal my heart... remove all the negative.. and sadness...
i know i can never forget abt u..
u already deep in my heart.. and i seriously know... there will always be a part of u in my heart... till time slowly go pass... and till memories fades...

thoughts :
time and time again.. i have fallen..
who will give me his hand... and pick me up..
hmms.. i duno who will be the one who pick me up.. and heal
my heart.. removing all the sorrows and sadness tat is in my heart..
i will be waiting for my healer.. to bring me away frm..
all tis pain and sorrows tat im going thru... and..
clear my clouded mind.. before my resistance become fruitless..
come quick , my knight of light.. bring away all the darkness..

Labels: emoing

sentosa trip :P
freaking fun.. but damn tiring.. my hands are all red..
todae at sentosa.. rain stop rain stop rain stop...
damn fun but tiring.. ate quitee alot. had my share of fun...
my blister hurts.. my twisted right leg hurts too..
think tmr nite going see sinseh... bandage the 2pid leg if nt okay yet...
hahaas.. will nt say much abt the day's happenings but its a fun dae :P

hmms.

thoughts for todae :
fall for you - secondhand serenade
always be my baby - david cook
your love is a lie - simple plan
with you - chris brown

Labels: sentosa.

i drank too much..
hahas.. at least nt drunk.. only high..
after thinking.. i feel so dumb to have drink tat much because of him..
todae wake up with a headache..
feel so freaking dumb.. so embarass infront of the guys to have drank tat much..
duno wat got into me..
just feel freaking emo because of wat i seen..
i duno why i get so emo.. when i see him and her.. i feel like giving up..
although i did alot and tried alot but so what.. in my heart,
i already know the ending of the whole thing..

wats the point of going for something tat wun end up nicely.. it will just end up
as nothing... i will just be wasting my time... just like the 2nd guy i like in my life..
try so hard.. try so much.. try for 4 yrs then waste all my time...
but then... tats wat others sae.. to me... i always find it fruitful.. due to all the memories...
but tis time round its different..
i duno lar.. i will just to take a step at a time.. and slowly think and decide..

thoughts:
i wun give up this easily..
i will keep on trying and trying.. till
the dae i manage to get the loveliest memories of all..
:) to me, memories are the most important and lovely thing..
the things i want most is memories in life :):)
no matter how much needle beds i nid to walk on.. i will walk on..
for the sake of memories :)

Labels: determinations.

i feel relieved...
all is solved between me and him..
i dun nid to worry that he will avoid me anymore le :)
i guess risking it..
made a big stone lifted off my heart.. :)
im so glad that i dun have to lose a potential good fren..
:) im so happy now..
todae like rollercoaster..
sadness , crying , laughing , smiling , angry , confused..
lols. im glad that the dae started with the worst feelings.. angry and sadness..
then during breaktime.. lead to crying and confused.. then..
after sch at amk mac with jovin and after tat.. laughing.. and smiling.. after the stone is remove.. i feel even more happy now.. smiling smiling full full..
im all happy now.. tmr got drinking session sehh :)
happy.. nt cfm will drink lars.. but can go out i happy liaos.. if nt at hm..
very very the bored.. hahas.. im so hungry now.. nvr eat dinner.. waiting fr parents go sleep .. then can cook and eat XP wahhas..
hungryyy. growling tummmyy..

Labels: hungry.relieved.

time and time again.
why must always be the ones tat are near me to be the ones tat are hurting my heart..
i duno how to look straight in ur face anymore..
now tat i know the truth..
the painful truth.. hurting so much.. till i can feel my heart cracking bit by bit..
why must things always turn out this way..
u all dun get it how much it hurts me..
but it seriously hurts so badly..

i can feel my heart bleeding...
dripping blood down me...
u make me seriously duno how to face him anymore..
seeing his face or her face.. reminds me of the painful stab im trying to forget..
but.. im glad finally i know the truth i have been suspecting for so long..
all i want is to continue being frens with him..
i dun want him to know a thing.. because.. im too afraid to lose him..
too afraid to risk it.. too afraid of his avoids..

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u make me feel like a idiot..
like a fool..
i suspected.. everyone say im wrong.. but then..
the truth just backed up my suspicious..
the ugly truth hurting me so badly.. tat i wish its just a nightmare..
tears wanting to flow but hold back by my stronger self..
now i know.. friendship can be the dearest... but it oso can be a great pain..
friendship to me... its like a double edge knife..
i really wish to forgive u.. but i seriously can't..
wat u are doing.. is hurting me so badly.. taking away every single bit of courage i once had..

thoughts:
u destroyed everything im trying so hard to protect and keep..
u act like an Angel infront of me..
and did tat behind my back..
i couldn't believe it..
but its the.. ugly truth..
if i didn't suspect u,
i duno how long im gonna continue being a fool..
a idiot.. a dummy.. letting u fool ard with me.....
u took away every single bit of courage i once had.. now..
the misery is starting to grow..
all because of the words u said to him..
the power of words.. is so scary.. and hurtful..

Labels: heart.pierced.

ouchies..
just came back frm swimming with maymay and gladys..
had dinner with them too..
my right leg hurts so much..
im feeling so freakingly tired.. as if im gonna collaspe almost instantly..
Yana asking me talk on fone..
my heart is so messy..
quite a few person have been telling me that its getting kind of obvious already....
but.. seeing him.. is my only motivations...
i dun wanna stop all tis.. how i wish time will always stop here...
letting me live in my own happy moments...
but... let people usually say... happy moments usually dun last..
my heart is so messy...
my alchohol craving is starting up again ...

thoughts:
my heart is so messy..
i honestly miss seeing u...
im feeling like a fool...
although my heart hurts.. but i can't help falling deeper and deeper for you...
everyday im walking on needles..
it hurts but... i just can't helped it but kept walking on and on...

Labels: heart.hurts.

it hurts...
my tummy aching so much...
soccer todae during break... wasted 1st hour trying to find a soccer ball / open Syarif's locker to get the ball...
finally manage to open it with Yana's locker key... lucky seh tat her locker can actually open Syarif's locker.. :)
then after tat.. when changed and then go street soccer court.. todae play soccer.. i was thinking like who will be injuried todae seh.. turn out.. im the one with the most injuries.. tummy muscle very pain... then.. right leg thigh area the nerves pain.. walk walk ard.. whole body like aching all over.. thanks to YG for the bruises :P kidding lar.. hao lar hao lar.. dun make him feel bad liaos :P anyways.. i expected it lars.. when i recieve the first one.. i already seen all tis coming :) luckily the third and the fourth i use hands block.. :P the 4th one even became hand ball sia XP luckily they say nbm nbm =/ i should have become the goalkeeper... :P hahas..
after tat... went for bzf.. then now... in ofa.. super the tired liaos.. drained..
im so so tired now.. feel like going home liao lors.. but then cannot.. later still gt accounting class... yawns..

thoughts :
I have fun today... but quite tired..
injuried but had lots of fun =x erms..
they call it the price of fun :P
i have fun.. then i must endure the pain thru it :)
somemore its not his fault,
is I ownself wanna block then nvr block properly :P
careless me.. my reaction too slow le lars =/ hahas..

whenever i see that u are happy,
i become happy too..
even if im suffering,
i automatically recovers XP

Labels: soccer.injuries.

happiness is to be found by your own hands...
being happy or sad is to be deemed by yourself de..
i todae... finally think it very clear..
happiness seriously is ownself decide de...
even if its ur saddest moment...

hmms.. todae S&W.. careless Syarif fell down the stairs and sprained his ankle...
syarif.. Must GET well sooonnn!
well... we had captains' ball match.. my jumping is still lousy... failed to defend quite a few balls..
lousy meee.. the guys were playing soccer... felt like joining them.. but then...teacher sae cannot cannot... must play rematch.. sad nvr play soccer..
my fingers gt slightly injuried during the captains' match.. luckily i already quite used to it.. so nothing much.. just slightly painful..

hmms.. after tat.. complicated OFA session...
then after tat.. we went for break.. i eat like half already too full.. so share share with Yana..
after tat.. accounting was tough at first.. then very easy...
then... business class was funny though...
well... affter all tat...
finish classes and went hunting with gladys at J8 XP
the rest will nt be mentioned..

hmms..
thoughts for todae :
somehow.. i feel disappointed.. i feel kinda jealous with wat u two are trying to do to him..
but then... i must remind myself.. liking someone who is tat friendly always.. i must accept all this.. somemore he is just my fren.. i would rather stay calm... endure all tis.. swallow it down the throat.. then being jealous.. cos when u be jealous.. ur temper will be auto bad de.. so not a problem... i will have some self controls.. as long as i have memories with him.. im already satisfied and happy enough... :)

Labels: own.deemed.

Labels: ilovetodae.

well...
saturdae..
i went to godma's place..
celebrate godsis's birthdae.. quite fun...
we had spagetti...for lunch.. steamboat for dinner.. totally delicious.. :)
eat till so so full...
hmmms..
i duno why.. i keep on thinking and thinking of the words u casually mentioned..
i know that u were just answering the question...
but then... somehow the answer affect me alot...
hmms... even till sundae.. im still thinking and pondering about the words u said..
hmms.. todae should be slacking session at home...
quite tired recently.. tonight gonna rest early for mondae :) hahas...
hope everything will be fun and okay on mondae..


classic terms..
will he ever notice me..?
do he ever set his eyes for me...?
this 2 is the classic terms.. when u like someone and then the one u like never notice you...
hahas.. well..
todae i got reminded by myself again..
loving one person is seeing the person happy , not expecting to have the one u like to always be ard you..
seeing him happy.. im happy.. although i felt jealous and such..
but i still can't stop liking him...
even if i know he quite ungentleman and such...
i still have feelings for him...

will my heart ever stop beating for him...?
i not sure... my heart shifts easily...
tats the bad part of me...

todae i have fun... we watched jovi in our sch team's soccer match.. versus sg home team..
then.. after tat.. me , gladys , maylene and jovin bought the same earrings with different colour.. hahas.. then we went to amk and play pool.. :) i played against aaron.. ahmad and jovi.. but i LOST for all... sobs.. then i ask LY be my kor kor.. hahas.. then he say will help me revenge.. wakaka.. :X to me , he is like a elder korkor :P hahas... then after tat.. yana , balqis , me , jovin , guang and aaron.. we went to eat.. yumm yumm... :)
then we walked around then go off liaos :)
my legs hurtss..! especially the cut i got frm ytd..
anyways, ytd's binelle was very fun :)
we had so much fun.. playing around.. enjoying ouurselves..
creating memories.. which are crave into my mind... :) had so much fun..

all i want is to carry on creating more memories with u..
i will learn to have a big heart...
and learn to acpt watever tat comes to me...
my heart will stay strong..

Labels: love.is.a.mysterious.thing.

hmms..
tis morning have sandwich party..
super the fun..
then we played soccer..
hmms.. now my left arm hurts... and gt a big blister on my right foot.. sobs..
i only play like at most 1 hr ++ soccer..
sobs... the blister very pain.. fridae can go play pool~!!
super the happy.. hahas.. :)

my right leg hurts... got a big big blister... damn pain lar...
no wonder when after soccer.. i kept limping limping...
sobs.. i nvr had blister for so long liaos..
tmr still need to do binellei :X
sobs sobs..
my blister seriously hurts..
im gonna go rest already.. had so much fun todae..

serene is injuried.
left arm and right foot hurts badly :(

Labels: injuried.

hmms..
todae so so fun :)

• hmms. first. S&W , we have.. captains' ball match.. although the opponent team is kinda strong in volleyball and stuff.. but we manage to draw the match.... hahas..it was quite fun...
• accounting was rather boring... ofa was kinda boring too..
• bzf was cancelled cos teacher nvr come... end up.. should be earlier go home.. but they decide to stay for soccer match.. end up.. we stayed all the way till 6pm++
• during the 3 hrs ++, alot of things happen... gt two classes came to the street soccer court to play.. then its like our group only play for ard half an hr ++ then another class came.. the 2 classes.. both play so rough against us.. Jovi fell down badly.. Guang oso.. blister , hand sprain leg pain :X then.. nicholas old wounds act up.. haiyo.. see le oso sad.. first time see our class so many injuried.. feels kinda sad for them lar...
• ran to canteen 3 times sia :X keep on buying drinks.. so funny lar.. :X in the end.. although i nvr play soccer.. my legs hurt tooo....

alright.. tmr.. i will join in the soccer session.. gonna go rest soon.. very very the tired already... hahas.. :) hope i wun be clumsy tmr and kept falling down.. or else i will keep rolling around and then... thursdae dun nid go binelei alr.. XP gd nite!

Labels: happy dae.

todae happenings..

• all 8 of us bring the pink pink recycle bag :X so cute X)
• hmms.. todae... kinda happy because of him :) he made my day with such a small thing.. :) smiles.
• erms.. todae me and that certain guy.. took the same bus again.. so funny.. throught out the whole bus trip.. we kept look at each other then look away the next moment.. frm bishan bus stop till my house area :X then he oso appearance kinda shocking.. i was like braiding somethings... then he suddenly appear beside me.. :X shock me when i suddenly turn my head..
• well.. overall.. todae is a lovely day.. made a braclet for balqis.. and yana :) tmr then make more for the people who are dear to me.. everyone who is dear to me.. will recieve one :) hahas..

todae is such a happy day for me :) tmr PE got to play SOCCer.. hope my leg dun bruise or break :X hahas.. :)

Labels: happy day.

the bbq has a funny ending now...
by right.. supposingly it should be quite fun..
in the end.....
kor and kylie quarrelled..
then i was like half way bbqing.. and he suddenly tell me he wanna go already...
then i was like stunned and blur for the moment.. then.. 'orh' and then we left..
after i heard wat happen.. i realise.. 'no wonder'

hmms.. dun wanna say much about it lar..
she sms me 'sorry if i didn't entertain u tonight. u should know why.'
she just didn't realise that i was one of the kana offended ones..
because.. she said me and her okay le.. cause i apologise to her..
when i heard tat.. im was like 'WTF'
feel so agitated.. when did i ever sae sorry and i will nvr sae sorry
unless im in the wrong...

hmmms... well..
i dun wanna remember all this stuff anymore..
tmr gonna start to do my accounting homework and stuff :X
alrite tats all :X

Labels: hmms.

the past is gone...
now its time to move on..
dazing on the past...
maybe tat is really wat i have been doing...
but its tough to let go easily..
later going to kylie's bbq..
i scared very bored.. if bored.. then i confirm going off de..
hahas.. hope it will be fun..
i gonna start preparing already..
buais :X

Labels: bbq

im getting tired.. and sleepy..
rashes getting worse..
in the end ytd nvr go watch the mummy...

hmms.. todae.. sch still alright.. gt quite a few accounting homework..
somethings happen during break time.. i dun get it why she must lose
her temper to me.. others oso did the same.. she quiet quiet.. then i do..
i get scream at.. its so obvious she is pin pointing me..
i seriously duno wats wrong with her.. just feel very irritated with her temper..
its unfair to me.. but i think she just wanna scold me..

explain to her.. she just show me the dulan face... duno wats wrong with her..
i really hate it when people lose temper to me when im not in wrong..
if she scold us together i still wun say anything but she pinpoint then i bu shuang liaos...

hais.. i wonder why is everything falling apart..
i can bear one.. already diam diam bear it down liaos..
but seems like bear it down cannot stop it..

i duno lar.. i only know that.. never take a person for granted...
i already very ren liao.. if u nt my frens.. i long before already kpkb liaos..
i dun wanna quarrel so i choose to keep quiet..
but it doesn't means i dun have a mind of my own..
i give u ur respect and apologies to u when its my fault..
shouldn't u do the same..?
todae i learn..
treating someone tis way.. doesn't mean the person will treat u tis way.. most likely the person wun.. u will just feeel idiotic.. thats all..

serene feels idiotic..
serene tried her best..
no use.. just make myself feel more idiotic than ever..

Labels: am.i.dumb.

i’m just who I am, who I suppose to be.
Do What you want, Say what you want. Cos Isimplydunwannacare.

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If you don’t, let me go.

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About Me
Name : Serene
Age : 18
Birthday : 23rd of May 1991 :)


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wishing upon a star
[1] Create happy memories with my love ones
[2] Learn to control my emotions better
[3] Find the right one for myself :)
[4] Study hard and get better results~!
[5] Learn to express myself more properly :)
and ALSO to be HAPPY EVERYDAY

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