time and time again. why must always be the ones tat are near me to be the ones tat are hurting my heart.. i duno how to look straight in ur face anymore.. now tat i know the truth.. the painful truth.. hurting so much.. till i can feel my heart cracking bit by bit.. why must things always turn out this way.. u all dun get it how much it hurts me.. but it seriously hurts so badly..
i can feel my heart bleeding... dripping blood down me... u make me seriously duno how to face him anymore.. seeing his face or her face.. reminds me of the painful stab im trying to forget.. but.. im glad finally i know the truth i have been suspecting for so long.. all i want is to continue being frens with him.. i dun want him to know a thing.. because.. im too afraid to lose him.. too afraid to risk it.. too afraid of his avoids..
u make me feel like a idiot.. like a fool.. i suspected.. everyone say im wrong.. but then.. the truth just backed up my suspicious.. the ugly truth hurting me so badly.. tat i wish its just a nightmare.. tears wanting to flow but hold back by my stronger self.. now i know.. friendship can be the dearest... but it oso can be a great pain.. friendship to me... its like a double edge knife.. i really wish to forgive u.. but i seriously can't.. wat u are doing.. is hurting me so badly.. taking away every single bit of courage i once had..
thoughts: u destroyed everything im trying so hard to protect and keep.. u act like an Angel infront of me.. and did tat behind my back.. i couldn't believe it.. but its the.. ugly truth.. if i didn't suspect u, i duno how long im gonna continue being a fool.. a idiot.. a dummy.. letting u fool ard with me..... u took away every single bit of courage i once had.. now.. the misery is starting to grow.. all because of the words u said to him.. the power of words.. is so scary.. and hurtful..
i’m just who I am, who I suppose to be. Do What you want, Say what you want. Cos Isimplydunwannacare.
If you like me, tell me.
If you don’t, let me go.
This is my way, and that is your way.
About Me
Name : Serene
Age : 18
Birthday : 23rd of May 1991 :)
----------------- wishing upon a star
[1] Create happy memories with my love ones
[2] Learn to control my emotions better
[3] Find the right one for myself :)
[4] Study hard and get better results~!
[5] Learn to express myself more properly :)
and ALSO to be HAPPY EVERYDAY
Kathleen Sis ❤