Wednesday, October 29, 2008 11:59 PM
hmms..well... todae nt feeling well again.. headache and headache...fever fever..hmmms..well... todae.. i rest rest rest..and in the end... cook macoroni for fren :)hahas..i taste alr i feel nt really nice.. but he say its nice :)then i was like so happy..he ate till almost finish lars..i think nt nice de.. is he cos i cook de then eat it downn..but thanks for his kind thought too..when i cooking tat time.. couldnt see clearly.. then cut until my finger.. even burnt my finger tips.. pain siaa!freaking tiredd now...well.. im gonna rest soon..thoughts:i duno whether i got chance or not..but the memories will..always be in my heart... :)i already tried my best already..whether or not.. wats the ending like.. its nt within my ontrol anymore le..so i will just let fate decide for me..i hope it will be a good ending...but thenn.. if the ending is badd.. i at least can say.. ' I already try my best le '
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 1:19 AM
mondae... 27/10/08..hmms.. public holidae.. stayed home and stonneee :did alot of stuff though...then very very tired...hahas..brain dead..tuesdae.. 28/10/08...todae...went to sch at 9am...finish class at 11am.. damn early lors..then me jovin and gladys went to fairprice.. after lunch..bought ingredients for making Sushi..!!hahas.. then we made.. crabmeat hotdog sushi :its really decently nice ^^then after tat...i went to meet Kaka , Kat jie they all...and bring them sushi and dessert...hahas..T and Kaka very nice.. they actually help me finish all the food : although its nt exactly very nice..so nice of themm..the night was fun.. filled with laughter.. and oso.. embarassing..i blushed so much...tomorrow.. got to rush home after school...hahas..:) hope everything goes well...thoughts :love isnt tat simple..i always thought as long as both parties like each other.. nth else matters..tats where im seriously wrongg..it requires alot other efforts..it requires allot alot other attention..it requires u to give ur heart and soull..to gamble.. as love is a double edged sword.. it might kill u..if ya nt careful enuff..but.. watever the case is..i know one thing for sure..i wun ever regret loving u..as the whole entire process.. was filled with..happiness.. laughters.. tears... sadness.. and so much more..those will be memories embedded into my heart.. for as long as i remember..Labels: love.wun regret.
Saturday, October 25, 2008 2:02 AM
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hmmms..few daes nvr update liaos..hmms..tis few daes quite a lot stuff happened..ups and downs..ups and downs..now just need to think next step is what only..my head hurts frm thinking..thoughts :i should have left earlier.. avoid u earlier.. then maybe all tis wun happen..im sorry to be causing all this...i said before de..if she hurt u again..i wun let go so easily anymore..nw..i seriously wun let go tat easily..at least until u find a better one...i will try my best ba.. :)at least try till i got no energy left...Labels: love is tiring
Tuesday, October 21, 2008 11:42 PM
hmms...todae.. after class..went to kick soccer..woohoos...before tat... some stuff happened.. was quite upset..decided to chanl tat sadness to energy..enjoyed playing soccer alot..first round..we played gers vs boys.. 4 gers.. 3 guys..second round..2 guys 2 gers vs 2 gers 1 guy..third round..switch teams.. hahahs...im the goal keeper for the dae cos my stamina quite low..then can't keep run alot..hahas.. for me... i alr improve alot liaos..hahas.. had so much fun...although there is only the 7 of us.. but damn fun..after tat.. me jovin.. balqis and yana .. we went to nebo..and makan.. hahas.. slack..chit chat..after tat went homee...thoughts:although.. i have loss the access to ur keys..but then..im gonna continue be by your side..supporting u..be by ur side.. :)hopefully one dae.. happiness will appear at my side.. :)but for now.. i just wanna see u happy :)Labels: love.died.alive.
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hmms..2 daes since i blogged.. hahas..well...lets start from sunday 19th october..hmmms..on sundae.. i went to meet kaka for dinner.. along with jer and storm...hahas.. jer and storm were late so me and kaka went to arcade..after they arrive, we ate at pepperlunch..chatted.. walked ard..then after tat go home..hmms...mondae.. 20th october..i spend close to a hundred dollar.. oh my goshhh~cabbed cabbedd..drinkk drinkk @ coffee beann...makan makannn....movieess..snacks snacks..makan makann dinner...drinnkk drinkkk and eat cakey @ TCC...fainted!whole dae spent ard hundred..but quite fun.. went out with my best frens :) my sisters~! and kaka with twiiniee! :)damn fun todae... drank too much coffee thus tis hr still awake.. :Phahas..tomorrow maybe gt soccer.. females only~!!thoughts :i duno wat is the outcome.. but i decidedto give it my best shot..so far still alright :)quite positive i guess... :) hope everything goes well... ^^well.. i like u..and i decided my feelings for u are true..hope u will appreciate them.. :)i duno whether it will be happy ending or sad ending..i only know if i dun try.. i wun know..if i try.. and i fail.. then it means its fated.. :)Labels: love.changing life.
Sunday, October 19, 2008 4:37 AM
pictures of the dae :
hmms.. hahas..went out during evening time just now..met up with online frens.. hahas..well..there is kat.. kaka.. and lots more..they were bowling.. and bowling.. hahas..facinating skills..:)watched them bowled..hahas.. next time i oso wanna bowl bowll..~!!tomorrow not really have anything planned.. but.. im gonna..try to plan a dinner date :Phope he agrees to go then... hahas :)thoughts:loving u more and more as the moments passed..understanding u need much more than i thought.. but i wun..give up this easily ... forming the key to ur heart..bit by bit.. just hope u will let me in one dae.. :)
Saturday, October 18, 2008 2:07 AM
hmms.well...todae.. 10am finish class..me and gladys and jovin went to play pool..still got other guys there playing oso...then after tat.. we went to eat lunch.. then go amk walk awhile.. after tat..we went to town...buy movie tickets.. chat ardd... after tat..we went to watch 20th century boys..quite nice lar the show..ard...7/10 stars..well...its only the first episode of the 3 episodes..after tat.. we went to Aston to eat..yummmy~! simply delicious..at there. me, jovin and gladys oso met up with andy... then we had dinner together..hahas.. was quite fun.. after tat.. we went to go play pool.. very very fun...after tat zoom home...thoughts:well.. i ought to give it my best.. :)i wanna give it my all...:) i wanna try to gain the key to ur heart.. :)Labels: hanging on with whatever i got.
Thursday, October 16, 2008 11:18 PM
well..todae.. quite fun :)we went to NEbo.. after class..then.. me , gladys and jovin go meet andy at there..we played board games and chat alittle..hahas..well... its like freaking fun... long time nvr had such fun alr...then play like ard 3 hours+ damn damn fun!then we went home soon after that.. ^^well.. im glad.. tmr class cancelld.. :) 10am finish school alr!yay.. :)thoughts:maybe.. just maybe u might be the right one..i duno whether u will be the right one for me...but i only know that..i should give it a try.. before i decide on anything..so.. im gonna give it one shot.. and hope for the best ba... :)hope it works!Labels: new.try
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 8:58 PM
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hahas.. i rarely put pics of myself on my blog..
welll the one on the left.. is me with balqis's specs.. half frame..
right one is with gladys's specs.. frameless..
hahas :) tat is what we did when we were free..
we were playing and sharing each others' specs.. hahass.. :)
todae lesson quite alright..
yana over slept never come..
maymay nt feeling well when home half way..~
take care maymay!
todae headache... but then able to last thru everything..
:) well... todae nth much oso..
tmr can go GYM! ^^
WWOOHOOOS..
half a year later.. im gonna be different for sure..!
:) yay...
Labels: specs.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 10:31 PM
todae after a short dae at class...we stayed back and play soccer till around 2pm..then after tat we went to watch House Bunny the movie..quite good.. rating is 8/10..although the storyline abit funny.. but comedy level is goood :)its quite nice overall.. very worth the price :)hmms... after tat..we each went on our way..todae.. although i spent all of my money..but i enjoyed today totally..it was damn fun.. ;)thoughts:i hopee... its not migraine...if it is...im so dead.. recent heavy headaches are killing me..bought panadol.. to kill the pain, hopefully....recently.. my condition is getting worse...supposingly is cos nt enuff slp recently.. lols.. hope tmr will be better :)Labels: movie. house bunny
Monday, October 13, 2008 11:59 PM
hmmms.first dae of school...met up with them at 9am then head to schh..end upp time table was change without notifying us...so ended up..we went to play soccer.. todae soccer quite fun :) enjoyed it alot..hahas.. had so much fun :)well.. after tat we had 2 briefings frm 2 different teachers..so sad.. my CA seems nt a good teacher cos they timetable she planned for us.. is like..WTF?! hahas.. well.. no choice.. she 1st dae alr never come le...duno wats wrong with our teachers.. always come out tis kinda pattern..so upsetting and disappointing..after classes which ended at ard 2++... we head do amk to help jovin make new ez link in the end she forget to bring passport alongg..then we ate at pizza hut.. the food isnt very goood..but im fine with it..ermms.. after tat we hang out at the playground nearby.. then soon..ard 6pm+ we head back to amk hub.. i suggeste..to go Nebo for a drink as the environment there is good for me..in the end.. one of the waitress spill 2 cups on jovin and spill some on me and gladys..somemore they nt apologetic somemore.. still can smile and laught..after tat.. we chit chat alot.. i had fun todae :)thoughts :i duno why u just cant acpt me for who i am..keep on asking me to change..but if i change then wats the point... i rather be love for who i am,than who i will be.. :)tats all for tonite.Labels: first dae of sch
Wednesday, October 8, 2008 4:20 AM
well...everytime..my heart moves one step closer to u..you will run one thousand steps away..i try to take one more step..and u disappear..i duno wat to do anymore already..Im trying my best..but u are disappearing so fast..Till I can't even catch my breathe..My feelings for u.. are fading away..disappearing with the wind bit by bit...Thoughts :i can't understand u anymore..u are floating far far away from me..I dun seem to understand u now..Im just glad to know that u are happy nowadaes :)tats good enuff for me..Labels: fading away
Tuesday, October 7, 2008 5:12 AM
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im down with depression xPduno why.. recently... can't seem to think of any happy thoughts..everyday seem so long & draggy..i can't seem to be myself anymore..i really wanna just be ME.. but its so tough... the more i wanna be me..the more i can't..tmr is outing day.. hmmms..suddenly dun feel like going.. i duno why... but i just totally dun feel like going at all.. im so tired suddenly..i just wanna have a stress free lifestyle for a moment.. indulging my life with just games and laughters for the last week of holiday..i dun wanna let others' words or wat affect me..but sometimes..i just can't help it..im dropping into.. a darkness tat has now form in my life..hmmms.. i duno will i or will i not go..but.. most probably not..i dun wanna be start thinking wildy again... i rather lock myself in a room.. cool down and think thru everything properly..if not.. i believe one dae.. i will just burst.. and die..im leading a stressful life becos..my imagination is too wild..crazy thoughts run thru my mind.. making me tired..thoughts:crazy thoughts run thru my mind..running till my mind is near bursting..so much problems.. so little time..my head hurts..aching everyday..how i wish all tis will just end... its getting more and more...tiring...Labels: tired.headache
Monday, October 6, 2008 5:22 AM
hmmms. a little long since i last blogged. :)well... now spending my last week of holidays @ my godma's place in tamp. :)welll... just recieved my pay..only gt 210..wat the hell lors..really regret working banquet.. shld have took the starbucks job..then at least more money lors..hais.. :X sian sian sian..hmmms.. next holiday maybe i go get smth more stable le..if not..very poor.. year end still wanna go genting de..later nt enuff money..hmmms.. nth much for work..except its tiring and the pay is like... kns..hahas.. but overall , its still okay..except tat its tiring..but overall.. i seen alot of stuff..learn quite a few stuffand oso... know... X) its hard to earn money...hahas.. im gonna start to save up here and there..thoughts:i duno wats on ur mind anymore..its not easy to figure out..hmmms.. i wanna understand u..but the more i wanna reach for u..the more.. i feel tat u are far far away...now..u seem so different frm the one i used to be amazed at..now...the more i know about u..the more memories i have with u in it..the more... i feel the distance between us...i hate the distance.. but i can do nothing to help it..i cant shorten it..the more time i spend with u..the more i realise.. u arent what i thought u would be...u are.. so... Different till its scary..Labels: diff u.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008 3:23 AM
me and you.
slack the whole dae at home.. resting my bones and aching muscles..hahas..whole dae play computer games.. chat with frens.. watch tv..and slack :Phmmms.. thinking thru alot of stuff..starting to see alot of stuff appearing more clearly in my mind... finally a chance to sit down. and think everything thru properly...clear up my head's many many thoughts..hmmms. i decided..my life will nt just be abt u..i admit u mean alot to me.. but i oso know..i mean nothing but just a normal normal fren to u..i know i cant bear to lose u.. but i oso know..my disappearance will mean nothing to you..i tried hard enough already..now im just gonna wait patiently..i gave it my all already.. i tried my best.. the rest...is up to u already.. i duno wat is gonna be the outcome.. i only know..the outcome.. will at least make 1 of us happy.. i know.. u happy.. i will be happy.. so i pray to god..tat it is you who is gonna be happy with the outcome.. i rather be seeing u happy..than seeing u sad..chances are low.. but im hanging out to the last tiny bit of chances with my the remaining of my energy.. one dae.. i know im gonna learn to let go..but its not the time yet..i hope i wun be wrong at making tis choice..im gonna hang up..till i see the sign to let go.. when i reach tat time..i will learn to let go with a smile...now i can only stand at a distance and cheer u on.. :)Labels: mylove.
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Kathleen Sis ❤