Monday, February 16, 2009 9:03 PM
paper frenship
todae...now finally sitting infront of my comp relaxing...so tired.. bones and muscles tired..todae.. i finally felt like a fool..doing so much.. yet no one seem to appreciate it..rather than appreciating it.. u all were wanting to edit it..i duno why i stay up till 4am for..as usual.. u all were first jump to editing it rather than appreciating it..well.. forget it..i gave it my best.. u wanna edit then edit all u want..nothing seem good enought for u all.. unless its u all ownself do de..i realise i been going with the flow too much..till i lost my own direction..luckily im still in time to find my own direction..and re-schedule my stuff.. :) its never too late i guess..well.. i thought we are good frens..till the week i was sick.. i suddenly realise our 'good frens' term is build on..nothing but paper.. its so vulnerable.. and easily to be flipped..no concern was from u all.. the only stuff i heard from u all is.. project project project..dateline dateline dateline.. worse sms i seen in tat week was about asking me to do the project even though im sick..becos of..? DATELINE.i didnt realise u all thought im a no life person until tat week..i was sick and all u all said was PROJECT & DATELINE.i feel retarded for even thinking we were GOOD FRENS..im just a used tool.. a used puppet to complete ur projects and to meet datelines..whenever u had a change of plan,u wun ever tell me. i feel like a idiot.. thanks for making me feel like one..i go the cross country becos u PROMISED me u will accompany me all the way..in the end?u back out todae without telling me.. if i never ask jovin, i will never find out..im ALONE for the run. but luckily , i still have time to back out of it..if not, i really will be a idiot tat day.thanks for making me like a fool , a idiot.i treated u as a good fren, and u treated me as a fool. i honestly got nothing to sae about u anymore.i tried to fit in alr. but i had enuff of trying so hard for a 'paper' frenship.enuff of the crappy stuff..todae other than all those crappy stuff..i had s&w..!! finally after a month x.xwe had captains' ball.. although some accidents cope up but I certainly had fun :)miss the sort of simple fun :) & simple happiness..tmr going to kylie's house.. maybe baking cookies.. Yay~ :)for now.. im gonna rest my tired muscles.. :)Labels: fake frenship.used puppet.
Kathleen Sis ❤