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Wednesday, April 29, 2009 9:58 PM

grapeee.

i havent been blogging muchh...
was kinda busy with the sch stuff...
finally have some spare time to sit down and blog..
hahas..
mondae ended sch.. then went window shopping with gladys and jovin..
at far east plaza..
we walked and ended up chatting at one place for 3 hrs ><
hahas.. had so much fun chattingg..
after tat.. was a shared dinner and sushiisss~
then home we goo...
tuesdae was kinda boringg =/
waited 5 hrs agn for badminton training ><
hope next week onwards can use the time more meaningfully..
we had a movie in the library and borrowed some books during the 5 hrs..
after tat was badminton training..
had much fun playing with balqis..
i still got so much to learn..
so much tat i nid to improve on.......
i wanna be able to play properly together with grape...
hahas..
well.. went home after tat..
parents was so thoughtful tat they bought dinner for me..
although i protested against it >.<
hahas...
wednesdae which is todae...
had s&w.. woohoos. fun..
other classes were plain boring i guess =/
hmms..

some stuff happened tis few daes..
i was soon to realise..
liking grape doesnt mean i have to put my life on hold to wait for him..
grape is important to me..
but then...
liking him now.. one sided...
is gonna get more and more tough as the daes go pass...
seeing him just makes me feel so carefree..
so happy..
being able to talk to him makes me feel... happy..
im satisfied just being able to be around him..
having him as a stead is wat i want..
but.. now.. its satisfied..
at least we dun avoid each other...
which might happen if i ever confess to him..
i duno.. honestly.. im at lost when deciding anything ard him..
or involving him... im lost..

Saturday, April 25, 2009 2:06 AM

busy busyyy

thursdae...
we went out...
after the long boring talk..
we went to plaza sing to celebrate kissie's bdae which shld be on the 24th =/
so much fun..
we ate at kfc..
then we went to istana park and snap lots and lots of pictures together :)
enjoyed myself alot :) so so funn~~
hope there is more to come ^^

nw... gonna sleep quite soon..
just came back from work not very long ago..
backbone aching alot now..
sobs.. gonna rest my tired body..
todae wrk gave me lots of torture..
but i learn tat.. sometimes u just have to grit ur teeth and bear with it..
im just so glad everything is over...
gonna take a week's break frm wrk.. way too tiringg..
tmr might be going out with cousinnns =/
hope its gonna be fun..~
niteeee~

Wednesday, April 22, 2009 8:42 PM

understandings.

hmms.
tis few daes kinda busy so never blog muchh...
mondae had sch in the morningg.. and wrk in the evening till late night..
then tuesdae like zombie in sch >.<
had badminton training..
kinda fun but weird too.. =/
waited for 5 hrs for tat 1 hr of badminton ><
todaee.. had s&w..
favourite subject excluding the NAFA test. xP
hahas.. badminton bazooka! =x
damn damn funnn~ ^^
well...
kinda tired.. can feel my throat burning after a round of run =/
duno why.. maybe body getting sick soon.. ><
lack of rest then exercise alot... =/
hahas.. tmr gt 2 hrs classes... after tat going to a talk =/
then after the long draggy 5 hrs talk..
we gonna go out celebrate kissie's bdae!! :P
woohoos. cfm damn funn~! miss going out with my clique :)
Gonna bring my camera there for lots of snapshots!!
cant wait for tmr...! ^^

Sunday, April 19, 2009 5:00 PM

we are history.

well..

we went movie watchingg~!!

we watched ' taken '

its very nice and cool :)

very matrix style.. hahas.. :P

:) well...

before movie watching.. me , gladys , jovin & louis went to arcade to play games..

so fun sia! :P

we played alot different type of games while Dejun is still on his way frm his earlier activites..

hahas.. :)

everyone had so much fun..

after movies we went to istana park there with snacks & drinks.. and slack at there :)

hahas.. so much funnnn~

well.. fridae was work after sch..

then.. after tat.. saturdae is oso work..

todae finally gt some time to slack :)

and relax myself..

later going meet my god sisters..

and then tmr gonna be sch and work..

gonna be a busy week ahead..

hope my body will be able to take it~!!! :)

jiayouuusss~

some stuff.. once lost is lost..

no matter how hard u try..

u wont be able to retrieve it back anymore..

i love our frenship just the way it WAS..

but then.. everything seems so different now..

im so tired frm always repairing the cracks in our frenship..

its tiring me out totally..

i miss the old days which was easy and stress free..

but those days are only in history..

becos u and i have both changed for the worse or better..

i tried too hard till im starting to crack from inside alr..

Wednesday, April 15, 2009 8:38 PM

tis few daes..

well..
tis few daes hasnt being blogging much..
cos kinda busyy..
well.. sch started.. first dae of sch.. guess wat we (gladys, jovin & me) did =x
we went to find dejun at his work place after sch ends..
hang ard there till he finish work.. and we chit chat and such..
hahas.. so fun..!
had a great meal at swenson :):):)
after tat... 2nd dae.. tuesdae..
after sch went to kylie's hse to bake stuff with gladys after sch..
had some fun there too..
todae.. finally some badmintoonn~~!!
hahas..
had so much fun todae.. :)
but now whole body oso tired...
:) tis few daes so much fun and laughter.. hope things will get even better :)

i need to understand u more..
i really have so much tat i wanna find out abt u..

Sunday, April 12, 2009 11:59 PM

mentally drained.

todae..
went to cut hair with my aunt at fusion...
after tat.. slacked at home.. last dae before sch reopens..

disappointments.
planned before the holidays to bake cupcakes for april 14..
and now.. everything is destroyed..
just become i relied on someone's confirmation..
i guess.. i shouldnt rely on anyone at all..
at least.. not her anymore..
everytime.. she makes me rely on her..
when i rely on her.. i get shit from her..
to her.. april 14 nt important.. but its important for me..
have u always realise one thing?
when something happened , u always ask me to UNDERSTAND you.
when im UNDERSTANDING you.
whose gonna understand me?
sad to sae.. understanding oso have a limit.
im getting tired of always going your way..
giving YOU understandings tat U request..
wat abt ME?
i always try my best to put u first..
but.. i had enuff.
i trust u with my plan..
and now everything has went down the drain..
u help me onto the peak of the mountain and now..
u kicked me off the mountain..
im so tired of all tis...
keep trying to lie to myself.. for wat fcuk!
everything dun seem to go right.. tis wrong tat oso wrong..
when will lady luck come for me..?

family bbq

went to...
a family outing~
bbq at downtown east.. cos sis took a chalet for the weekends :P
hahas..
overall.. it was serious fun :)
we will do this again somedae i hope :)
hees..
we had lots of yummy food..
chicken wings... mashmellows!... hotdogs...
and lots more :P
all yummy yummy~!!
had so muchh funn~ yippeee..
i guess.. a few stuff tat happened have changed my thinking abt some stuff..
well..
some stuff are better gained thru experiences..
commitments are hard to bear with..
but i will try to stay commited into actions tat my thinking had set..
suddenly.. i feel so scared of losing anyone dear to me...
i dun wanna feel that horrible feeling agn..

god.. if u are going to take anyone away from me..
please take me..
i dun wan to go thru tat feeling of losing someone dear agn..
it hurts so badly.. i can still remb the pain till tis day..
it hurts.

Saturday, April 11, 2009 4:53 AM

drained

hmms..
love is smth tat can seriously change someone..
it can drive someone to madness..
but it can oso drive someone to strive hard..
life is something tat everyone has to go through..
the world is unfair.. no doubt abt tat..
sometimes... i just feel so tired being around humans..
although im a human too..
but i duno why.. i experience such weariness..
exhausted by all this humans around me..
love isnt blind...
love makes u turn blind.. to everything around u..
i had enuff for todae..
my postivity is maxed out alr for todae..
my stamina is so weak..
i cant be positive all years long..
whenever i reach home..
inside my room.. its when i can recharge the positivity by being neutral mood..
im so tired out...
being positive.. and smiling no matter wat for the whole dae..
till.. my emotions are all drained...
i have never felt tis way before...
like u cant even find 1 bit of positivity in u anymore..
totally drained out.. no energy..

had buffet at sakura with my aunts and my cousin.. my sis & her bf..
kinda nice.. but the standard dropped..
well... after tat was shoppingg....
we shopped for hrs~!!
and i gt myself 2 topman shirts :P
to me , its very nice ~
hahas.. overall todae damn fun..
tmr going bbq with family and relatives at downtown east..
hope it will be fun :))

Friday, April 10, 2009 3:03 AM

2nd trainingg

hmms..

2 pics of the dae.. its linked..

one at the top is a house with a heart door..

the picture name is door into the heart..

the second one which is at the btm..

is a big bunch of keys..

im trying to imply is that..

im trying hard to find a certain key tat can unlock that heart door of urs..

well.. i know it will be kinda hard..

but i wanna give it my best shot at it..

probably u wun ever know about all tis..

cos i dun intend to tell u anything abt it..

until.. next yr.. if next yr , i still have the same feeling for u..

i will accept my feelings and confess to u..

on the condition tat by tat time.. im already able to love myself..

im still learning to love myself..

because if u cant love yourself... you cannot love another..

so... tat will be at least another around 8 months..

well.. :) im gonna jiayou on my side to work out the plan..

from now onwards..

i will be studying & working on the same time..

its time i earn my keep..

:) im tired of always asking extra money frm my parents.. >.<

i wanna be more independent!!

well..

went to banquet training agn with gladys..

todae didnt do much.. time passed very quickly..

well.. before going for the training..

i actually had lunch with gladys , louis & dejun...

at PIZZA HUT!

hahas.. deliciousss...

so long never eat baked rice... yum yumm~!!

we joked and laughed thru the whole entire time there..

after tat... we went to the arcade!!

XP super the fun.. hahas..

we drove.. shot... =x damn fun sia~~!!

hahas... after tat.. louis and dejun have to go off for their moviee..

and me and gladys went walking ard...

hahas.. after tat was training for us...

kinda got teased by the senior assistant director =.=

he is oso training us..

and he kept teasing me >.<>

hahas..

after the training..

was dinner and lots of chit chatting with gladys..

then home sweet homeeee..

tmr.. oso known as laterrrr...

gonna have buffet at sakura international buffet restaurant >.<

with my aunts.. keith and sis and her bf...

alrite... tats all for todae..

my determination... seems stronger than before..

i wanna be able to hold on to this feelings..

i dun wanna lose them..

i will try my best to hold onto my determination and find the right key..

i'll wait for you.. and myself to be ready to confess to you..

Thursday, April 9, 2009 3:27 AM

scars

why tis picture todae..?
well...
tis picture is a heart... tear into many many pieces..
and a tape trying to tape it back..
no matter how it is tape back..
it will always always.. have scars on it..
so... hearts are very fragile things..
hearts are one thing that heals with time..
but... scars can never disappear.. never..
scars are things tat.. can nvr be heal..
not by time... not by anyone...

well...
i went to banquet training at conrad hotel with gladys..
not bad the training..
learned a few stuff... :)
well.. tmr gonna lunch with gladys , dejun & louis..
hahas.. got training again.. >.<>
nida wake up at 9am.. byees.

Monday, April 6, 2009 11:19 PM

woohoos..
tis 2 daes so... BUSY~!!
hahas.. yesterday..
went to ecp with gladys , jovin , kylie , keith , dejun & louis..
hahas.. found a shelter.. we had picnic then they went cycling..
i sat there and did some photography and drawingg...
hahas.. after 2 hrs.. they came back.. we finished the food..
then off we went homeee..~!!
after i reach hm..
chit chat here and there.. slept at 5am >.<

todaeee...
went to meet desmond and kylie..
hahas..
we went to buy tickets for the Unborned!
>.<
ended up only gt me and kylie..
the movie is 3.5/5..
the storyline is kinda weird...
its kinda abt twins..
well.. the animation is good..
the sound effect nt bad..
main point is...
its more scary than MIRRORS or OMEN.
>.<>
overall..
we had jelly legs after the movie >.<
after some shopping at carrefour..
home sweet home..

Friday, April 3, 2009 11:45 PM

jiayouu!!

the above....
is the fairytale of rapunzel..
cute right..?
well... it belongs to the fairytale world only..
in reality...
none of this will ever occur...
fairytales are good to dream about...
but it will nvr come true in reality...
tis is a fairytale.. which i wanted to live in..
but... too bad.. reality has never fail to wake me up..
well... i guess we dun really have a choice whether to live in a fairytale of reality...
no one wants to live in reality if fairytales can last forever..
but sometimes reality is really too scary.. and frighteningg...
till it freaks me out..
sometimes... i wish we can choose which dreams can come true..
and which wun..

im already trying my best for u..
but its been so one sided slope... till..
im feeling so breatheless...
so....exhausting...
keep trying to climb up on the slope... yet i just seem to be slipping off...
more and more...
the slope seems to get harder and harder to climb...
i seem to be slipping off more than i can climb..
im trying to reach the top of ur mountain...
well.. starting from tmr onwards... im gonna...
go on a diet on my own ^^
hope i will suceed..
im not doing it just for you.. but oso for myself..
i wish to see... a prettier me..
nt the me now..
i wish to be able to look into the mirror and love wat i see..

Wednesday, April 1, 2009 4:10 AM

steamboat dinner

steamboat outinggg with gladys , jovin , Dejun , Louis , keith and kylie...
seven of us... went to la mei zi steamboat restaurant and eat...
eat till..... so full >.<>.<
goshh.. think we all ate too full~
well... we went to suntec sky garden and took lots of pictures!
hahas.. >.<>
but too bad :P i promise nt to publish themm~!!
hahas... well...
long time since i had so much fun & laughter...
well.... overall todae...
play till kinda tired...
had so much fun eating & chatting..
alot of jokes happen during steamboat dinner...
for the first time.... i ate so much during a buffet.. and didnt stop much for 2 hrs?!
hahas... :) i think next time wanna eat buffet must call more pple..
chit chatting lets me survive thru buffet sessions..
after all tat... slack alittle at suntec mac...
then off we go for homee!!
hahas..
after tat.. was a dota session with keith and dejun~
later results coming out alr.... goshhh >.<>
nervous me...