Friday, June 19, 2009 11:54 PM
every memory counts
hmms..tis few daes has been typingg stuff...tat is so sickening..really hate to type those stuff...but then..well.. its time to forget abt it..its all over.never again i will let the history to ever repeat. :)but without tat person i will never learn anything :)so its a good lesson learnt. hahas...well... i will learn to be able to look into my frens better..and oso treaasure them better..i must say a deep sorry to those real true frens whom i hurt before.sometimes i seriously dun mean it..but my words just came out before i can stop them >.<but deep down :) i really am glad to have u all as my frens :)every memory with u all isnt forgotten at all.. and is treasured. :)
learn to stand on ur own.
hmms...learn to stand on ur own :)if u think u are so great,why dun try going against me on ur own? :)why dun try going against me fairly instead of going the back alley again?cos u are afraid to lose to me? cos u are afraid that u will be trashed?if u think u are tat gd, stand against me on ur own and stop hiding behind others..from young, u have never stood on ur own.tats why u never did own a mind of ur own..start to learn early. if nt u will die later.but thanks to you.i learnt quite a lot :)i learnt a lot stuff about being back stabbed, being lied to, being make used of, being a moron that allow the person to cheat again and again..:) but those are all bad stuff ^^u allow me to learn good stuff too..like regain my passion for baking & photography, clay wordings, gain interest for craft making.. be more cautious to people, love my family more :)but end of story.i think u should stop making up ur own stories to tell ur frens :)if u want, show them proof.show them facts.and stop making up stupid stories.end of my line is...stop dragging others in. there are people who absolutely dun wanna be drag in yet u brainlessly dragged them in causing a trouble to others. let them know wat u said and wat i said :)people have eyes on their own to judge. they have the right to hear the truth instead of stories made up by you & your self-pronounced 'smart' brain :)Labels: a good lesson learn is worth everything
Thursday, June 18, 2009 8:29 PM
love them lots~
todae...just came home from a trip to GIANT @ tampines :)with my god parents.. god sisters..:) hahas..we had fun walking around in the big supermarket.. walked here and there...bought alot alot of stuff :)$200++ worth of stuff..!hahas.. most of the stuff is for god sis's weekend bdae celebration :)minority are food :Pamong the food.. there are my sushi inside :P and strawberry milK!hahas.. :) living here although there are small quarrels.. but daes are easier to pass by.. :)i like the days here cause they were never boring..we were always doing stuff occupying the time...the time here.. also allow me to enjoy lots of good food :)yummies ^^ alot delicious homecook food.. <3i love my god parents.. god sisters lots lots... :) muackies!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009 3:34 PM
4 yrs worth = nothing.
sometimes i honestly wonder am i dumb or smart..i can keep trusting a fren agn and agn..no matter wat she sae.. wat she does..i will just helplessly believe in that person agn...i try my best warning myself history will just repeat..but when the person promise to not let history repeat..i will just give in..but i duno why.. tat person choose to hurt me agn and agn..is frenship so cheap?well... saying to a gd fren who owes u money ' never mind , i treat as giving away money to begger 'if someone says tat to u.. hw would u feel?somemore tis person is kinda important to u.. and u two are suppose to be best of frens..supporting each other in their time of needs..but then.. when tat person repeated the history... i got nothing to say..i didnt know the 4 yrs worth of friendship cant even weight more than $20.u everytime sae is our frenship tat weak blarblarblar...but.. u are the very person who repeats the history agn & agn.without fail. u will repeat the same history.forgiving and forgetting is good..but when u forgive someone too often...tat person just wun learn.maybe the 4 yrs of our frenship cant weight $20...but i really feel its wasted..but i will learn to get used to a life without u..i do not need a fren tat insult another as a begger.one dae. when u reflect back.do realise.. if u dun wan others to say such stuff abt u, start by not saying stuff like tis abt others..becos the world is round.. when u say tis thing to a person..one dae another person will sae tat abt u..and.. u are christian.. where has ur christianity teachings gotten u..i kept telling others u changed for the better..but i guess tats just myself lying to myself..the truth always hurt..but i rather bear the truth than living in ur lies..
Saturday, June 13, 2009 11:48 PM
hmms...
kinda bored now with lots of emotions brewing inside me..well.. yesterday night time....i lost a game of mahjong.. lose quite a bit.. but luckily we play small small..after tat we went downstairs to have pratas & limau ice :Pyoohooo~ enjoyed a wonderful supper >.< (im growing fat i think)hahas...totally eat till full full :P well... after tat was comp playing & relaxxing...hahas.. after awhile..my god bro and his gf jio drinking and card/dices playing.. :)we had chivas with green tea...although im nt a big fan of green tea with alcohol...but it taste nt bad afterall >.<we played several rounds of different games... hahas..learn several new stuff.. :) long time since i drank :)and its my first time drink chivas..before tat was drinking.... vodka and something else >.<forgotten the name of it...well.. drank for ard an hr to two...then off to bed with a headache >.<guess i too long nvr drink.. then getting a headache..well.. now is a sundae of slacking.. supposingly gonna send my frens' flight..but cos tmr need to go wrk early in the morning...so... in the end cant go send them alr.. :(to pple who are going batam or cambodia : have fun and take care :) miss u all lots~!well.... i didnt know u think tat..the 4 years of our frenship is tat weak.. ger u are thinking too much..i jus need a breather thus the disappearances..alright.. going out for dinner.. bye...
todae.. i finally realise one important thing..
i finally know why i can never get along with kylie's bf & ex bfs..
becos...
simple explaination..
both of us wants her time.. but she can only give her time to one person..
thats the main reason why me and her bf can never ever get along..
wouldnt wanna explain more abt it..
but its just after thinking for a long time.. i finally realise it..
and oso maybe becos my character is kind of boyish.. so...
its like as if 2 boys fighting for her time... >.<
but then agn...
i must say i was kinda disappointed at times..
i nvr meant to want u to skip.. i alr said the choice was urs..
i didnt expect u to skip anyways.. and oso...
if u skip..
i probably will still be heading home..
i just dun wanna go there cos its really very out of the way..
but oso thanks to u two..
we dropped by at AMK hub's X Zone..
then i manage to get that interview...
hopefully can get the job.. at least got job.. low pay oso never mindd :)
hahas.. well.. todae was a very long.. been awake since... 8am tis morning till now.. 1am plus still not sleeping :)
maybe i just simply wanna enjoy my holidays...
i want everything to be smooth sailing :)
becos after tis 3 weeks...
probably will be hell for ard 2 mths...
hmms...
sometimes..
friendships are something weird to me..
the more i wanna treaasure something..
the more easily i will lose tat something..
sometimes i really simply cant trust anyone..
im sorry.. but the bond between us is over.
i can no longer decieve myself abt us..
we really arent gd frens after all...
everything abt us.. every single memory... was..
made up of lies... and masks..
its enuff alr.. i seriously dun wanna lead tis kind of life anymore..
sorry but im sick of making effort for this frenship.Labels: we are over.
Monday, June 8, 2009 11:30 PM
fun day
todae..finished sch at 11am..shldnt mention anything abt sch..nothing happy happened as usual :) but im fine..there is 1 thing happy! natasyah was so nice to share her dunkin donut~yummmyiess~changed and went to meet huiru jie , jeanette mei and my kylie darling..hahas.. kyliee came half to fetch me.. and huiru jie and jeanette mei was at the platform..we trained down to... Dhouby Ghaut..and went to P.O.S.H and bought brownies!long time since i had themm. yumm ~i had my fav, triple choc~ :)then we walked off to the Cathay..and had aston~!! :)yummmy~ had the usuals..4 of us all had different double up ^^yummy :P really love eating there.. so full and kinda economic :) hahas.. after tat... we walked to hemisphere cafe..chilled there..played card games... unoo~hahas.. so funny.. had a great time there.. chit chat and stuff..there nt bad.. quiet.. gd for chit chatting but drinks kinda too expensive >.<hahas..after tat.. we went to P.S daiso walk walk... for ard an hr >.<leg pain sia.. walk here and there.. hahas..decide on some stuff..then we seperated.. kylie walked ard waiting awhile more then leave..sorry to leave u there ger! so so sorry to pangseh u :(but really no choice.. =/ sorry arhs >.< *guilty*well... me , huiru jie and jeanette mei went off.. to meet..mummmyyyy~~ :) at pasir ris.. hahas..had dinner together..i duno why.. they always so happy to see me..makes me feel very happy too :)imptly. im here becos of them so im very grateful to them.. :)they gave me the values i treasure in life..without them.. im probably just normal as another..thanks you u all for making me into who i am.. :)sincerely grateful..feels great todae.. took my first big step..gonna live up to my favourite line :)life gonna be alot more different frm now on ^^
Sunday, June 7, 2009 11:54 PM
weekend of relaxation
i had a great weekend :Phahas..i went to my godma's house..friday went swimming.. lovely swim..jacuzzzi.. & suana..hahas..had a lovely morning relaxing my body...and also sorting through some stuff..well.. everything is in a clearer view now..no longer misty and clouded..all become more clear.. and easier to evaluate..hmms... whole entire weekend spent in utter relaxation..feels great to stay over at my godma's place..tat place.. everytime makes me dun feel like leaving at all..well... i feel alot better sorting thru everything and learning alittle impt fact i forgotten..:) great.. all ready for the last week of tis term before holidays kicks in! :)gonna go find a part time wrk ^^ arent gonna waste tis holidae :)Labels: reality
Wednesday, June 3, 2009 8:53 PM
2 accurate quiz
did 2 quiz on facebook..result was accurate..first quiz : what is your inner self?Your Result: A Moonlike Person
You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has dealt blows before. You tend to think about things alot more than other people. And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely. Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases. second quiz : what kind of mask do you wear?Your Result: Pain
Your mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right.
Monday, June 1, 2009 7:10 PM
feww daes..
many things have happened for the past few daes..been quite some time since i last blogged.. ard 1 week plus alr..i guess.. i have grew alot more soft and weak..i easily cry nowadaes.. which isnt good..todae i cried when teacher made a very unfair statement...'now. no more ISP rock, now. is ISP rudeim kinda... really disappointed when she said tat.and pin pointed me at it..she said some teachers made complains to her tat..a certain someone has been disrupting their lessons and was very rude to them.but the thing is... i make sure that i knocked on the door, greeted the teacher, pass the brochure to her or the class monitor and thanked the teacher before i go out..tat was what since young i learnt..and now someone is saying im rude?i feel... so wrong and tat.. my teacher did not asked me abt it before annoucing to the whole class..i honestly hate tat sentence she use..i can never get rid of tat image of her saying tat sentence in my head..i broke down nt only becos im wrong.but i felt as if tis tiny act of mine has spoil the reputation of ISP..my monitor and a classmate was nice enuff to say they believe im nt tat sort..i felt happy tat at least there are people who trust tat i wun do tat..the thing is...the ones closest are the ones.. tat nvr spoke..hahas.. i guess.. nowadaes no one stand up for anyone anymore.not even ur good fren.or hahas. maybe i was the only one thinking she is my gd fren but actually to her..im just a ordinary classmate whom he/she gonna see for 2 yrs of ite life, tats all.tis 1 week plus... really alot of things happened to me and around me..i suddenly feel life is taking so much out of me... till im so drained.so soft and so weak..i wanna be able to stand up strong once again..im kinda mix mix todae..sad and everything emoish becos of sch stuff..happy becos i had a lovely dinner with mum and dad..i miss eating dinner as a family..i would exchange anything just for dinners like tat..i wanted to tell them abt todae.. but..i cant bring myself to spoil the lovely mood..so i had to trapp the emotions inside of myself..sometimes when i fall.. i really dun feel like getting up anymore..Labels: beaten up.
Kathleen Sis ❤