jaw pain.. quite sore and painful now.. didn't felt it hurting in the afternoon.. body reaction must be damn lagg.. now then feel the sore and pain.. eyes quite tired le.. play captains' todae.. and kana headbutt by opponents' players. but then doubt they are on purpose cause overall, its just a friendly match.. hahas damn paiiinnnn.. and achiing.. i guess.. im off to bed.. ! NITE! anyways, dled maple into lappy le.. im back to mapling days. but must saave up to get my router.. if not everydae go kylie's place.. very late then reach home lors..
yay...! hurray..! i got my new laptop finally.. hahas so happy..! hahas.. i went to kylie's place and install a lot a lot of things lor.. hahas.. avg..msn.. blar blar blar.. pondering whether wanna install maplesea or not.. hahas.. tonight going to kylie's place then download maple lors.. hahas.. decided to have at least one game.. if not horrr.. very sian.. hahas.. =)) todae bought my laptop to school.. but in the end yana never bring hers.. now in OFA lab using lappy.. ^^ hahas.. after school maybe straight go meet kylie.. but i think i wanna go home bath first.. if not stinky stinky.. =P hahas.. gonna install and maple and have lots fun!
hmms. last night quite a few stuff happened at nite. after i went home from kylie's place, suddenly a lot of stuff happen between the smses frm me and kylie.. she suddenly tells me that her brother oso want that laptop and its missing.. and maybe her bro wun return her the laptop.. and lots more..
to me : why everytime last minute happens so much stuff.. always without fail.. these things always happens when everything seems to be most perfect.. i really dun understand.. god please guide my heart.. remove the weakness that i have in my heart.. i know when i gain something i oso loses something.. i dun wanna lose me and kylie's frenship over the laptop.. i rather dun have the laptop at all lors.. but i wonder what will i lose this time round..? my life seems perfect a few days back.. everything is working out well.. i got the bag i really wanted because of 10 pple :) thanks to GLADYS, MAYLENE, JOVIN, NATASHA, SUMAK, YANA, BALQIS, YAOGUANG, AARON & FALIQ. xD this 10 people got the bag for me frm zinc.. really like it and appreciate it a lot :) hahas. then the laptop thingy was moving smoothly too :) getting a camera soon :) and a new handphone too.. but everything starts falling apart at the highest peak. i started to fall down frm the highest peak in my life. god please guide me.. hold my hands and lead me on.. please give me wisdom to deal with all the difficulties.
thinking backk.. i think kor tried very hard to change after few days back i say i dun want this brother anymore.. i felt like as if i was made used by him.. but then.. da sao say.. give him another chance.. he will try to change de.. so i decided to give it a try.. but then... thinking seriously.. why is he trying so hard to be a good brother..? is it because of dasao.. or its because he seriously want this mei..? thinking and thinking makes me more n more emo recently.. i wonder deep down in his heart.. why is he bothering to try so hard.. if to let me judge.. i will say its because of dasao tats why he is trying so hard.. if im not dasao's fren.. maybe he wun even bothered to try.. thinking about this hurts me.. a real brother.. i guess he isn't the one.. because to me.. he is just putting in effort because of dasao.. not because he ownself want this meimei.. anyways, who am i.. he can have as many mei mei he wants to.. im just one of the many gers in his life.. one of the many many meimei[s] he can have in life... hais. disappointed more n more as i think.
23/5/08 went sch with my 2 bottles of jelly.. hahas.. my frens gave me a big big big surprise.. they bought for me the bag i want alot.. hahas.. so lovely.. and made a very sweet card lors.. somemore still buy a daisy for me wors.. hahas.. pingying gave me a pencil case frm myuk.. very nice^^ and choco too.. thenn.. adilah give cj7 pouch.. hahas..
after the accounts test.. we went hm... then met at 3pm oso.. hahas.. we met at bugis.. then go arcade play id4 and basketball and lots.... then after that go back to b1.. hahas.. we bought alot of food and eat n eat.. hahas.. then we go city hall area.. and go esplanade take LOTS of pictures which will be updated later ^^ hahas.. then after tat.. on our way to back to marina square.. while we are in espanade's lift.. the life JAMMED..
sobs.. almost cried inside lors.. hahas.. then we went to kfc makan.. ^^ after tat maylene n gladys went off first.. the rest 6 of us went to play pool.. so expensive.. 12 dollars lors.. then after tat... wentt hm lorss.. on our way hm.. instead we went to mustafa.. hahas ^^ bought quite a few stuffs.. hahas.. then after tat...... then we go hm after tat..
todae.. having my youth heart beat launch.. hahas.. was the usher for the event along with kor n dasao.. had lots of fun... so fun lorrsss.. after tat.. we went to suntec city.. wanted to go to kushin-bo to eat.. but then in the end went to marina square.. and go kbox eat kbuffet.. was fun.. we sang and eat.. and drank.. i first time drink long island tea.. =P got slightly drunk after tat.. dasao say.. i can't walk in straight lines.. hahas..
it was surely fun..!! tats it.. =) i had lots of fun..!! ^^
todae.. first lesson of the day is....... OFA. heard about last night match.. man utd and chelsea 1-1 first.. then.. penelty 6-5.. man utd wins!! x) so so happyyy...!
hahas.. dad woke up late todae.. so resulted i woke up late too =x wondering how many people will not be in school today worrs.. = hhmmms. my classmate Susan quite nice of her.. she go and help me open my locker.. to take things.. cause i damn tired today.. ultra the lazy to go pick up t he printing papers and OFA materials.. =P
gloomy glommy energy level.. im damn damn tired today.. yawnnies.. tomorrow is my birthday le.. somemore tmr late afternoon going out with my clique of frenss!! hahas.. ^^ happy happy.. look forward to tmr..
serene is happy.. thanks god for guiding me and my heart out of the.. confuse-ness.. :) i have recieve guidance from god :) ahem =) praise to the lord !
woohoos. computer pronouce DEAD. x) its heart beat is very very weak. guess too much reformatting.. virus attacks and such.. xD motherboard too tired to go on anymore...... today aaron passed the guitar i passed to him to Gladys.. then Gladys so funny with the guitar. she kept on asking whether do she look retard. hahas. so so funny lars. now @ OFA class. gonna type type type again. hope can get the lappy soon! then i can play games liao =P wahahas.
todae after sch.. end @ 3pm.. got photography lessons till 5.30pm sia.. then gonna go to NEBO @ AMK hub to meet Kylie.. =) maybe gonna eat a meal there =P look the beef cheese thingy =) but so.. sinful... =X
serene is happy. 2 more days to my egg crack day ^^ serene is awaiting all her lovely presents =) look forward to may 23rd 2008!! =)
todae. during S&W.. we have NAFA test!! we did the sit ups, standing broad jump and sit and reach.. when i do standing broad jump, i was so so nervous. i almost cried lors. but under the encouragement of my frens X) i manage to JUMP! =x but very little.. but at least i jumped!
after tat... OFA.. type n type n type.. then... break.. then Accounting.. xD hahas.. after tat.. the BZF =x Ms Harasha disturb me sia. =x made me blush xP hahas.. it was quite funny cause she walk near me only i blush and hide myself liaos =P duno why xP but she said something very meaningful and very true to me =x 'LOUD people doesn't mean they feel secure, they are LOUD because they wanna feel secure.. it covers up their insecure feeling.' because.. im tis kind of person. i feel very insecure and no confidence, but i always are loud, talk alot and stuff to cover that weakness of mine. =X
after classes ended.. we went to food court/mac and chit chat and eat finger bites.. =x we todae after S&W got take pictures.. maybe i will post 1 or two ba =X hahas.. see how first..
looking forward to ALOT of stuff =) hahas. 3 more days to my egg crack day :X wonder what will happen on that day.. only plannedd... that day got outing with my 7 good frens ^^ hahas..
Jovin was so sweet today.. she pei me sit frm douby ghaut to habour front just so that i will be able to get a seat all the way HOME.. so sweet of her.. so mafan her to do that :) hahas.. we had a chat about the plans of friday outing..!!
serene is happy that god gave her such a good bunch of friends.. that kept cheering me on.. giving me encouragement to do things that.. i have fears in :) THANKS u lovely peeps!
Todae. Hmms. Slept all the way till around noon time. then showered & ate wanton mee X) not very nice. then went to Bishan meet Dasao & Kor X) after settling My personal stuff, we went back to J8 and Kor Kor bought me a Pooh Bear Cup for My birthday present :) quite nice ^^
after tat, we went down to suntec city. walk walk around. we had hooch.. and i was like playing with kor kor.. we compete.. drink the whole thing down.. tat was my first time drinking liquor down the throat so fast.. hahas.
well.. after walking & walking, then we went to Dasao's place. played mahjong X) i so scared that will lose lors. in the end , never lost X) i won $2.80 =x
happy happy.. then went to Dasao ah mah's place eat dinner.. then go home liaos.. korkor seem so glommy todae.. duno why sia.. =x ask him.. he say.. ' u should know de.. ' but I DUNO X)
todae.. nothing much to do.. whole day just slack at home.. at nite then complete my last piece of accounts homework.. todae is quite a quiet day.. hope i can get a not bad pay part time job soon. hahas. tmr might be going out with Kylie. see how it goes then. serene is tired. serene is lonely. serene is confused. serene is... confined by her own heart.
to PingYing : short pain is always better than long pain. if u know patching back with him, will just end up getting u two more hurt.. then dun. whatever u do, just dun have regrets created.
todae. went for my interview at mint toy museum's cafe.. hopefully will get the job ^^
then after tat.. went to yishun to go to youth group's bowling outing.. then kylie bought me a pair of sandals for my birthday ^^ happy happy.. cause i want tat sandals since the day i saw it X) then after tat we went to orchid country club to had bowling sessions and makan sessions.. hahahas.. had lots lots lots of fun..
after tat.. we went to tampines' courts.. to go see Kylie's new laptop.. :) then i intend to buy over Kylie's previous laptop.. then pay her by installments.. hopefully kor can get her tat tablet laptop thingy.. then i can get her laptop.. quite sick of using this super ultra duper lousy computer.. which sucks totally..
i will pray very hard that kor kor can be approved to get kylie her laptop.. then i can get my own le ^^ hope that day come soon!!
serene had lots of fun todae. tats all. tmr will be slacking at home.. bored.
finally got u off my mind. u are O-U-T. your words always hurt me somewhere deep there. thank you for all those who cheered me up :) u all really bought back the smile in me.. :) special special thanks to Balqis and Yana .. who made extra extra efforts to make me smile todae..
wanted to post pictures here.. but then.. think dun want lars :X messy.. i only wanna post 1 picture :) which is the picture of my lovely good frens :) there there. here is it..
this 7 people.. [im the camera woman] are my lovely good frens.. they are always cheering me up.. :) bring lovely smiles back to my face.. finally after 3-5 times of rebooting my dumb dumb computer.. it starting to work well.. without the virus invading it already..! woohoo.. :) wanted to give up.. but i still carried on :) finally succeeded..!! :)
hmms. had a simple dinner.. tonight nothing much to do.. tomorrow going for 2 job interview.. one is @ 10am.. the other @ 5pm.. i rather hope i can get the first one.. because the first one is working at a toy museum's cafe.. hahas.. :)
alrite alrite.. tats all for now :X
to PingYing :
love has no right or wrong. its just how u see it.. and how u decide to go on for it.. i feel tat.. u are already with him for quite some time.. and the feelings are deep.. i duno how deep it is.. but i know theres already a place for him in your heart.. but u should know how many times this breaking up and patching process had happened right.. if u really wanna patch back with him.. then go ahead.. do what ur heart wants u to do.. if u duno wat ur heart wants.. give yourself time.. dun nid to rush through anything.. do what ur heart wants. if u duno wat ur heart wants, slowly think through it.. anyways, i guess i really need to talk to u.. i know i duno u well and everything but... i at least wanna speak my mind to u.. whether u choose to listen or not.. tats another thing.. tats all i have to say to u..
im turning myself into a nut case.. todae.. after something happened.. my wire like somewhere put wrong.. my smiles.. disappeared.. i try my very best to smile.. but deep inside me.. something is not there anymore.. duno wat.. but i can feel the empty spot growing inside me.. duno wats wrong with my computer.. its going hay wire again.. really hate it.. can't sit still one.. duno wats wrong with it.. even if i know.. i oso cannot do anything.. hate this helpless feeling..
its like.. as if u know the answer to the question.. but.. ur pen doesn't have ink.. and there is no one to help u.. having the answer there stuffed inside yourself.. feels horrible.. makes pple feel like dying there and then..
on my way hm on 88.. i was thinking and thinking about it.. and i decided.. im a dumb foolish ger.. i actually thought of confessing to him.. i must be crazy..!! he will never know.. cause in the end..i promise to put it.. deep in me.. as a forever secret.. being able to still talk to u occasionally is already gd enough.. i dun wanna repeat the tragedy again.. i dun wanna remb wat happened.. i dun want it to happen on u..
serene is going nuts. X) b'dae arriving in... 8 days time!! wonder.. wat will happen on tat dae.. only know tat day got our accounts test lars! so sad and unlucky rite....... =x but i look forward to tat day.. :) as usuals. tat dae either celebrate with frens or family ba.. but for now.. dun seem any dates yet.. so most probably... tat dae should be celebrating with family :) hmms. go try to fix my computer liaos. xD buais.
to PingYing : Ger.. I admit im disappointed that day.. when u didn't come school.. cause its like the previous day u just tell me u want full week attendance then u never turn up the next day.. but then.. as long as u happy can liaos.. i oso cannot say much.. u ownself take care ba.. the choices are all yours.. no one can help me make the decision.. at most they can only encourage u towards their preferred selections.. cheer up k.. i know its not easy to be without him.. but no matter what.. u got to stand up.. this is your life.. u sure u wanna just give up the fight like that..? if ya sure, then i got nothing to say at all..
now is my office application lesson.. ytd came home too late.. cannot blog cause someone is home already..
ytd.. evening time.. went to go meet melissa jie and justin then we went to fitness first.. that place quite nice.. but thenn... the swimming pool was SO COLD.. freezing lors.. then when u swim in it.. u feel like as if u are swimming in the ocean.. a ultra creepy thingy feeling.. hahas.. xD i oso go steam room. for only 10 mins.. im alr feeling so warm.. feel like my body is BURNING.. xD hahas..
then after tat.. we went to lao pa sa and ate our dinner.. the chicken wings and satays is horrible. ewws. the chicken wing is the worse i ever eat in my whole life.. the carrot cake was only soso.. melissa jie popiahs was ewww. watery watery.. then justin's fried kuey tiao is so puny amount only.. xD bad bad experiences.
then after tat we walked and chatted frm raffles place to city hall.. me and melissa jie drank hooch. quite nice.. quite a long time never had liquor liaos.. hooch become not that sweet.. just the rite taste.. no wonder melissa jie like it so much =) hahas.. then we planning one outing to go out together.. then we go pub drink... then morning go eat breakfast then go home together :) hahas.. surely be very very fun de lors.. =x but must save up alot alot.. hahas..
then after tat go home le... tats all.. now just finish typing typing.. still got a long long day ahead ahead.. =x
ehhs. todae we run and run.. i too long never run.. kept panting heavily.. XP but manage to complete it within the time given.. well.. then we did various stretching funny exercises X) and were introduce to our new new new classmate.. VJ.. then... we played netball while the others played soccer.. netball score 0-0 X) but was quite fun ^^
then after tat... OFA then accounts.. blar blar blar.. totally drained out todae.. chiong my accounts todae ^^
then... later.. either ownself go eat dinner.. meet Neil & the others for dinner... or dun eat X) hahas..
this few days quite fun.. met Pingying in the canteen todae during my short break from S&W.. she show me her hand.. its like OMG.. so many bruises just from 1 practice of volleyball.. the gers must be damn violent.. xD goshh..
hahas.. swimming will be on next monday wors.. really must get back to swimming liaos.. getting rusty XD hahas.. plus.. i today realize my body super the slack. must get it back to the previous state. X)
hmms. nothing much liaos.
to all tat are sad : cheer up k! i read a few blogs and chat with a few pple.. realize quite a few pple are feeling down but putting a brave front :) u all are really great :) but.. dun hide ur feelings too much :)
to all tat are sick : God Bless You :) u will Recover soon de k! dun worry.. take care of yourself. drink plenty of water :)
in the end... sat nite i went out at 8.20pm.. and rush all the way down to suntec city to watch iron man with Raymond, Andrea, Moo Moo and Jeffrey.. hahas.. :) iron man nice lehs! a lot people say its not nice but after watching it , its quite nice wors! love the suit. amazingly beautiful X) hahas.. then after Raymond send MooMoo home And Jeffrey to the MRT station... the rest of us went to have supper @ tampines area =x PRATA!! when i reach hm... its 2am++ but i found out that raymond lives just 1 block away from me.. hahas.. x)
well.. sundae soon came... i woke up ard 3pm++ then went to shower and makan my lunchie.. then after tat.. me & my family went to pick up my 2 aunts and 2 cousins =/ then we went all the way to Yishun.. wanna eat the famous thai food.. but then... the queue was T-err-i-ble.. xD hahas.. so we in the end opt for a normal coffee shop and had our dinner there instead.. =x its so-so.. still not horrible.. hahas.. after our dinner.. we went to swensens.. while Jie and Kenneth kor is queuing up.. me and keith and the rest went to john little with them.. and bought stuffs.. i bought 2 pair of casual shoes.. 2 3/4 pants :X hahas.. love the shoes =P then we had ho-rri-ble service at Yishun Swensens.. then went home.. i quickly rush thru 1 piece of accounts homework.. which i think must have thousand and one mistakes.. x) then finally went to bed @ 1am++ super super tired.
woke up in the afternoon. shower then go youth group. after tat. walked home alone. dasao and korkor went dating. throw me one person again. but. not their fault. a relationship involve 2 pple. not three. todae after lunch before going youth group. on the way to youth group. we saw dasao's korkor and his gf. then we took bus together. suddenly feel myself. really damn damn extra. hais. but i never say much. just diam diam. thinking and thinking now. tmr is mothers' dae. happy mothers' dae to all the mothers in the world and the netherworld. :)
todae. went out with da sao and korkor. we went to tampines makan. then go pasir ris park play play. very tired. then we go to korkor's da jie's ah mah's funeral. sitting there makes me think of my ah mah and big uncle. feel sad and emo. tired tired. go back to da sao's place. then after tat. went to eat porridge as dinner. then go home liaos. just came out from showers. very tired. brain dead. tmr must start doing my accounts hw liaos. tmr got youth group. sundae got mothers' dae lunch. my accounting starting to cmi liaos. have to jiayou jiayou le. cannot keep play around liaos. serene , jiayou!! X)
run for ur lifes..!! sotong is back! hahas. im tired. todae went forr.... seminar , lunch and dinner.. X) tired.. todae's lesson learn is that.............. dun always want to surpass others. u will just end up wasting urself. i tried my best to finish it. but it was too CRAZY. i can't do it. my eyes are dropping. and its only 10PM! tired tired. haven't done a single accounts hw.. too tired.. this weekends..i must really try to SIT down and down my hw. everything comes with a price.. X) so i must pay the price of my weekends. but its okay.
todae. todae. todae. well. i had fun. x) and im gonna go rest now :) my eyes are closing le. nite nite X)
tried my best doing my accounts hw... till my brain cells all FRIED. deep fried somemore.. im so tired now.. dun feel like going to school.. todae something wrong with me.. mood was going UP and Down.. very affected by the words u said. duno why ur reaction so big. ur facial expression sorta shock me. it was tat moment. i realize. u two are so Near. yet so far. i decide. im starting to fall into the love trap. but nono. i wun let myself drop into it anymore. at least not now. dropped dead.
love hurts. love makes pple turn stupid and foolish. YET, love is a required thing in life. why is it so irony. i help them so that i feel happy for them. yet i dun feel tat happiness. and feels something else instead.
dropped dead. i duno why.. people just cannot treasure their relationships.. i meannn... welll... i for one.. always wished to have a guy that love me a lot.. blar blar blar.. but then it doesn't happen to me.. funny enough.. it happens to pple around me.. and pple ard me.. those fortunate ones.. usually duno how to treasure their relationships de lors.. cos its being a usual thing for them to be loved liaos.. till they really duno how to treasure it liaos lor... i cannot open my mouth to just say it.. but i really wanna say to him.. 'she doesn't love u lar..' to me.. she dun look like she even care if you two broke up.. sorry to say.. but to me.. she have always been treating u like trash.. i dun even understand how she can attract u to love her till even she treat u like trash u oso dun care.. i promise myself.. i will NEVER want to treat my boyfren as trash.. a boyfren is for one to love and care for.. not for one to treat as a dog.. or a maid.. i know everyone got different ways of handling a relationships.. but to me.. this is a nono on how to treat your boyfren lars.. i confess.. i once thought i like u.. but i now realise.. its not like.. its more to pity.. i think its a pity how much u love someone.. and how that someone is treating you ba.. to me.. its just a sad case.. i decide to tell him everything. i dun care whateva crap im gonna tell him. im just gonna speak my mind for once.. enough of always thinking and hesitating. i wanna be able to express what my thoughts truly are. i dun wanna regret anymore. i dun wanna see sorrows and sad endings anymore. everyone ard me ... is losing the one tat love them alot just because they duno hw to treasure each other.. why people do this to the ones tat love them.. it makes me think back. how foolish i was 4 yrs back. when i love sebastian. how i did not wanna lose any chances with him. i can't remember why or what make me love him so much. at tat time i only remember i love him. and no matter what happen , i just wanna be with him. but i realize, just me putting in effort was useless. a total useless. if he dun wish to be with me, we will never be together no matter how much i want to or how much i do for him.
love makes pple do foolish things. love hurts. when break up occurs, at least 1 party is hurt. love makes people turn stupid. love breaks heart[s].
todae.. during our break.. i use yana's fone and took a few pictures XP so long never take pictures le :) wait my new phone come. everyone must let me take pictures =P
at first got another photo for my classmate de.. but he sae cannot put.. so never put lors :X sorry suddenly the pic disappearred... :
this is my good fren , Yana and ME :) never took pictures for quite some time :X hahas.. took with her.. :) she is always the one who hears my craps in class :)
this is me and my good fren , Natasha.. :) pretty right.... she got a lovely smile.. hahas.. pearly white teeth.. :) lovely huhs.. XD want her number... i ask her permission first xP
this 3 pictures are all i took todae X) once i get my handphone....... doubt it will be just this TINY amount =P alrite.. my eyes are tired.. nite nite..
well. i learn todae. dun have regrets in life. all it takes is a little understanding and courage to do it. and dun be nervous.. just remember.. u take that toughest first step.. and god will be there.. hold ur hand and help u through it. i really believe in this now. i was like so anxious and nervous.. thinking of ways and methods. then i said a little prayer to god. and he held my hand and gave me the courage to make things right for others. im happy.
met dasao & korkor @ 2pm .. hougang mall.. to eat lunch before going to their youth group.. then after going to youth group... we went to bowling alley.. but then no slots for us liaos.. then we went upstairs and played pool =x fun fun fun.. first match.. me and korkor.. in the end i lose.. cos of the black ball go in wrong hole.. xD second round dasao and korkor.. third round dasao and korkor.. dun remb who win who lose liaos. only know very fun.. after tat.. we went to dasao place and slack slack slack.. then i bought my guitar baby hm.. going to give to Aaron on monday.. cause i totally give up on guitar liaos. might as well give it to him since he gt interest.. hahas.. tmr still duno going to gym or nt.. took cab hm again. last nite and tonight same sia.. 5 dollars++ for both nite equals 10++ xD but then bo bian.. my eyes starting the cloud liaos.. i dun take cab hm.. later my left eye functioning fail i die... xD
alrite alrite.. todae tats all.. im tired. brain DEAD! anyways , my vocal cord is damage. can't project any voice at all. i dun wanna be a mute.. =(
end up todae.. i woke up feeling better in the late morning.. so i went to meet dasao and korkor.. then we went to wild wild wet.. hahas.. the first attraction we play...... is the ular lar... xD.. first time we play super the exciting lars.. xD i screamed =x then we oso play tsunami... and da sao and korkor went to play the slides.. xD they had funn.. so do i.. then we went to shiok river.. and teach korkor how to swim.. then we were swimming and swimming.. then.. teaching and teaching.. then one part i grab kor's arm to pull him away frm the wall.. i didn't realize it shocked him till da sao told me it shocked him.. xD so paiseh lors.. but after tat.. we didn't talk much.. then his facial express and body language.. tells me... he is defensive against me.. and he totally dun trust me.. we had kfc.. and left the wild wild wet area...
then we went to e hub.. and sit the ferris wheel... its very very nice.. hahas.. we sat inside with a little boy.. he is a mix blood.. very handsome.. he is only nine but he can speak well english cos his dad is american and mum a singaporean chinese.. xD then.. we had cup walker and yogurt.. xD quite not bad lars...
after tat.. we went to take bus and smth happened.. which got me pondering about kor kor and me.. im wondering.. is tis sibling relation workable between us.. it seems to be me.. who always been treating him as a kor kor.. and he is just treating me as dasao's fren.. it sort of disappoints me a lot.. i mean we dun go out much.. but i try my best to fit in... and frm somewhere deep in my heart.. i really wish tat tis kor kor.. will turn out to be my best korkor.. i dun want things tat happen in the past.. to repeat itself.. but.. my body is getting weary of trying and trying tat it just wanna drop dead...
maybe i think too much.. that my head is starting to get all heavy now.. very tired.. going to bed very soon.. way way too tired.. tmr going to Kylie's youth group.. hahas.. then go gym with them.. alrite alrite. buais buais.
to kor kor [ although u will never see tis.. but i still wanna write.. ] i not very sure why u can't accept me into ur siblings circle.. i feel tat u are wary of me.. and protective and dun trust me at all..but i understand maybe smth happened in ur past.. or.. smth lars.. but then.. all i wanna say is i really really hope u can be my korkor.. although we are not blood related.. but to me.. maybe becos i dun have a Real life kor.. i always wanted to have a gan kor.. tat i treat as a real bro.. but if ya uncomfortable with it.. just tell me straight.. i will just give up.. i just want my kor to be happy.. no point forcing u to acpt me when u really dun want too.. anyways , take care..!
todae.. at first should be going out with melissa jie de.. but then.. cos justin can't go.. then end up never go at all.. but thennn.. i went to meet Kylie and kor instead.. hahas.. we went out todae...
we went to watch movie , over her dead body.. very romantic and nice.. comedy too.. when i left my house to go meet them.. i realise my left ear is hurting.. and i can't hear properly too.. im like 'omg' then i realize must be ear infection liaos.. but then still went for the movies.. before tat we went to arcade.. and she manage to change tis figurine for me with her big packet of sweets tat she earn thru the winning of the JP pooh bear thingy.. after the movies.. at first we wanted to go sakae sushi have buffet but in the end.. no buffet so we went to NYNY to eat.. hahas.. it was very fun there.. we played pool.. ate spagetti.. xD candy floss.. and drank heniken.. xD very the expensive sia the heniken.. its 10 dollars per bottle.. somemore is the small one.. we ordered two nia.. if not sure damn ex.. end up kor drank 3/4.. kylie drank 2 mouths.. =x i drank the rest..
after tat.. we went to marina square.. see here see there... then went down to bugis street.. kylie bought a sling bag aka back pack.. :) and i bought a watch.. really wanted to take a picture of it and upload it.. but well no camera.. hahas.. then we went to kylie's place for awhile.. ard 10pm then go home liaos..
came home and had dinner.. tomorrow not going to schhool... not feeling well.. fever.. sore throat ... ear infection and a awful flu.. hope it all can recover ^^ hahas.. then i wun so xin ku liaos.. hahas..
i’m just who I am, who I suppose to be. Do What you want, Say what you want. Cos Isimplydunwannacare.
If you like me, tell me.
If you don’t, let me go.
This is my way, and that is your way.
About Me
Name : Serene
Age : 18
Birthday : 23rd of May 1991 :)
----------------- wishing upon a star
[1] Create happy memories with my love ones
[2] Learn to control my emotions better
[3] Find the right one for myself :)
[4] Study hard and get better results~!
[5] Learn to express myself more properly :)
and ALSO to be HAPPY EVERYDAY
Kathleen Sis ❤