i keep having lots of rashes tis few days..
todae had to leave school earlier.. rashes was way too itchy.. till all red red liaos.. got a few even bleed alittle bit..
so no choice.. better go home.. if tmr still so itchy.. then i will go poly clinic see doctor..
hope it will recover soon...

hmms.. quite tired now.. resting.. :)
my maple account got hacked sia..
but then nbm.. give up on mapling already. duno why recently totally no interest in playing maple sia... even nostale oso bo mood to play..
feel like playing games.. but then can't seem to have the mood to play rpg games...

hmms. duno wats wrong with me.. sort of get tired very easily also..
hmms..
sch daes always not enough sleep...
gets tired easily... almost everydae oso drowsy..
sleep how much also no use...
later maybe going watch the mummy :X
see how.. my rashes still very the itchy.. :(

Labels: itchy.

hmms.
i feel emo emo de...
nt really feeling myself..
dun feel like doing anything.. feel so tired all of a sudden..
*laze ard*
im feeling so tireddd...
so restless.. can't sit down properly.. hmms..
duno wat is wrong with me todae..

im feeling more and more tired as every second pass by.....
im losing myself.. super super the tired..
dun seem to have the mood to study properly..
laze ard.. slack slack..

tired yet cannot fall aslepp.. can't even smile properly..
i feel the gap between me and them.. its so difficult to communicate..
i know i gt my weaknesses.. but then..
they seriously need to give me more time.. to cope.. and change..
im gonna try to work as hard as i can.. :)
and work myself hard.. to numb the pain coming frm my heart..

im tired.
stressed and everything.
i wonder is it time to let go yet.

Labels: letgo.its.tough.

its over.
things will nvr be the same again..
well.. i feel sad.. but oso a sense of relief..
i will release the grip i have always had on my heart..
maybe its fate that make us end tis way..
fate.. are u telling me go like g and not him.. but then.. i alr choose to give up..
i will let fate decide on its own..
let nature come its way..

todae went to watch movie with kylie.. small celebration with kylie for her bdae..
went to watch [money not enough] , make me cry and laugh.. cry and laugh...
came hm... then realise all tis things... feel so sad abt it..
but i will let my heart heal on its own...

serene has fallen down..
but she will stand up agn.. :)
all she nid is love and time..

Labels: im.injuried.

omg.. im having rashes... sobs...
i just realise i having a lot rashes.. on my hand... err.. i think i know what happen to my hand liaos... hmmms... todae no wonder i was having fever whole dae.. caused by tis dumb rashes.. so itchy.. damn itchyyy...

tomorrow gonna go hear tis swimming talk.. hope it will nice..
tmr gt S&W.. hope can play captains'.. hahas...
after tat still gt OFA test.. hope i can pass with fly fly colours XP
hahas.. hope everything will work out properly...
hahas.. :) everything seems well..

hope our rashes quick quick be gone..!!

Labels: si rashes.

the abv is a picture taken just few minutes back..
the bear bear in the picture is given by royroy!
hahas.. very very cute de bear.. really like it alott.. hahas..
then...
i was just back frm ger22 aka Mary's bdae bbq..
had so much fun...
we play card games...
then the punishment is to drink a certain portion of vodka and coke in a cup..
i drank total of 4 cups.. 1 3/4 vodka.. 1 1/2 vodka.. 2 1/3 vodka..
end up quite drunk but still concious..
hahas.. luckily royroy there.. if nt i think i would have fallen down alot of times... is he keep on hhelping me.. sry tat i got him so worried becos i keep want to drink and play the card games.. after tat keep on very giddy.. luckily he was there for me.. hahas.. after tat i can't even eat beehoon properly... luckily he was there to feed me.. if nt.. i think i whole nite cannot eat anything.. had so much fun.. tmr going to go to meridian training.. hahas..
im so happy tonight.. =)

Labels: fun.

hmms.
todae is a very very plain..
quite boreddd..
at first should be going to swimming de.. but in the end......
nvr go swimming at all... becos... one sick.. and also cos the weather damn cold..
ended up cancel.. then went home.. on our way home.. gt tis 2 dummies.. they sat behind me and may may and then disturb us!
they started with blowing wind at maymay... then started to knock on the back of my chair... and then knocked on maymay's chair oso... gt me irritated.. then even asked stupid questions.. but i didn't reply at all.. luckily they didn't do it agn.. if nt.. i might gt into a fight XP wakakas.

really hate tis kind of pple.. irritating pple just cause they are bored..
somemore one of them frm my sch... so wat lars..
hais... irritated..

hmmms.. todae quite plain and boring...
well.. tmr nite jie is gonna leave for Japan.. kinda miss her alot..
hmmms.. hope she will have fun lors..!!
well.. todae nut nut so so busy... hmmms..
he must have had fun with badmintonnn!! wakakas..

Labels: bbq tmr.

hmms.. im home finally...

Labels: sick sick sick.

todae went down orchard... so happy thought can take pay.. ended uppp...
cannot... must tmr then tmr then go again lors..
so tired now.. been staring at the laptop for 3 hrs plus..
then todae very long dae in sch and after sch...
drained every bit of my energy..
i finally change tis blogskin i like alot.. did it for 3 hrs.. finding the rite one.. editing..
experimenting.. editing agn.. confirming... then done....
but.. kinda disappointed cos.. hais.. nbm nbm...
quite tired.. im gonna go get some rest .. nite..

Labels: drained.

hmms....
welll... after i finish classes todae...
me and jovin going home together...
hahas..
ended up we go to plaza singapura.. and walk around.. hahas...
then we chatted for a very very long time....
ended up.. i only reached home @ 7pm+..
well.. todae i bought something for me and him...
quite nice.. really like it alot... spent my money.. now pocket empty empty liaos..
sobs sobs.. but then nbm =) i really wanna get something tat belong to only me and him =)

Labels: handphone.chain.

well..
seeing him happy kinda makes me happy too.. >.<>
hahas.. although i didn't p.e at all... because... that dumb dumb teacher lars..
she ask me go help another teacher set up things then i nvr go run with themm...
ended up gt captain ball.. then i cANNOT play!! rawr.
sad lors.. waaaa~ *cries*

then went to change..todae i on dadd's car , someone msged me liaos XP hahas...
was wondering its who.. cause its so so early lors...
then realise its that someone who called me a someone x)
hahas... then i went to have my mac breakfast.. tummy accheee!!!
*sayang tummy tummy* xP
now... slacking during my ofa class.. quite tired todae.. till totally dun feel like having lessons.. wakaka.. slack slack slack... nua nua nua.. x) wakakas. xP

Labels: happydae.

Monday, July 21, 2008 6:45 PM

cold day.

lols.
such a cold day todae..
well... sch sch sch.. then gt business CA test... hope i didn't do too badly..
then after tat..
came home... and shift the dirty old study table out.. super the heavy.. accidentatly cut until my finger... pain pain... my finger rashes getting worse sia.. its nt even hot and its like super pain.... pain larss..
well.. place the new study table into my room after struggeling with it for quite sometime.. hahas.. xP now look alot more spacious.. x) woohooo~ so happy..!
well.. everydae the want in me grow grow grow... wanting it is just not enough.. u got to work hard for it..!!

Labels: workinghard.

Sunday, July 20, 2008 11:56 PM

work and sch.

well...
i fridae went to work and work...
had a bad experience at banqueet... hahas..

then sat went out with donut...
went to esplanade to study and then go suntec eat diinner ...
joke alot and laughed alot alot... had so much fun lors...
hahas... well...

todae went to had dinner together... and oso studied bzf...

hahas... tmr gt swimming.. bzf... and i know super super tired..
hahas... confirm damn tired de.. X0 but then... i know its gonna have fun...

Labels: x) tired n work

Wednesday, July 16, 2008 9:49 PM

interview.

lols.. todae went to interview with gladys and jovin...
at first is want to go marks and spencer to interview..
but in the end we decided that retail jobs really dun suit our lifestyle..
so ended we go to meritus and mariott hotel in orchard to interview... for banquet jobs..
immediatly acpted.. quite happy..
but then i know confirm gonna be super tiring de..
but then i just wanna be able to pay her..
so that i can be able to be free from her craps.
my headaches came so often lately..
but then i tell myself no matter how tough it is... i will be able to do it..
i will just stressed myself but then.. its gonna be worth it but then...
i have to think of finding the money to buy my shoes...
by tmr must buy le wors cause i friday starting work.. duno zhe me ban.. hais..
headachee headachhee.. gonna change to a new blogg skiinn.. >.<

Labels: interviewed

Tuesday, July 15, 2008 8:51 PM

im so so tired now.

im so tired now.. so so tired...
todae run 2.4km... ultra de tired.. almost have a asmatic attack..
head so pain... then.. finally its over and i manage to finish with a pass.. =)
then after tat. we had soccer... quite fun!

hahas.. im gonna watch tv..
tis morning someone so dots lors. duuno she when smsed my dad. say until like as if my parents owe her hundred thousand like tat. when its me who bought the laptop.. nicely tell her dun so childish act like a spoil brat still being so attitude.. hais. ended up 3 years friendship now.. is nothing but hatred.. hmms. but im still amazed how i only realise the true side of her after 3 yrs.. its always me who treated her as a best fren.. she had never.. she only find me when she is alone.. i always dun feel like convincing myself.. but now.. the truth has already shown me.. now im surprised how fast i cope with it..

thinking of changing my blogskins.. but still not confirm yet... hahas..
alrite alrite.. tats all for todae.. tmr gt acccounting test... stress..

Labels: stress.

Monday, July 14, 2008 9:31 PM

swimming lesson.

todae have swimming lesson.. just came hm frm swimming lesson...
so happy mood.. somehow although i dun really like being alone at home.. but i rather be alone at home then to have my parents nag and nag at me...

i prefered to be left alone then to be bugged... hais.. tmr gt pe sia. feel like taking mc. maybe im really gonna take mc tmr. but super the waste money lors..
but then.. i cannot be skipping pe for the rest of my life.. i got to face the music sooner or later.. might as well dun waste money.. hahas.. tmr must bath again.. sian.. i think i most prob changing then bath alittle ba.. hahas..

yawns. time to go get some rest.. i miss realxing days.. now everydae oso super the stress liaos.. hahas... i will still go on and then try my best even if i really too tired.. i will still force myself to go and try my best no matter how tired i am..

Labels: drained.

A New Me.

A me that will never be the same again.
changing for the better they call it..
changing a lifestyle might be tough. but i had enough of hiding in a shell.. time to come out and get things changed..

im gonna change alot of stuff in my life.. never gonna be back tat inferior side of myself..
=) smiles!
todae gt swimming lessons but then... i forgotten abt my googles!!!
sobs. i duno hw to swim without googles sia. sobs.
how how how..... if i buy a new one surely damn expensive xP
erms. how how how.........
wait so long then finally can go swimming.. now chu tis kind of pattern.. im dead.. go back then too late liaos... gonna try ask elder sis help me bring it to her work then i go get it frm her.. xP hahas..

lesson time. buais!

Labels: new me

Sunday, July 13, 2008 10:06 PM

im happy. relieved.

im so happy now. duno how to describe the happiness in me. but im truly happy.
i never realise how happy it is to tell the truth of my feelings..
after telling her the truth abt us.
although tis 3 years of frenship will be gone.
but im happy. i finally told her what kind of person she is. the true thoughts and feelings frm my heart..
although im grateful at times that she helped me and be there for me and stuff. but then...
it can never cover all the stupid things she did.
i thought not telling her was nt hurting her feelings. but then i realised..
why make myself so miserable for her.
she is not worth it.
i must learn to love myself.
stop torturing myself just for pple who are simply not worth it..

i somehow feel so relax.. my headache disappear instantly.. and it feels great.. i feel relieve.. i finally let go of that stone blocking everything in my life.. so sick of her presence in my life.. now finally can get rid of her.. feels great..

she make me indirectly decide on alot decisions that i have regretted in my life.. but then she similarly made me learn all about life.. by showing them to me.. backstabbing .. lying.. betraying.. and many more.. she helped me learn so much.. although i dislike her.. i must still be grateful in a way.. so ironic but true.. who would believe. tat 'angel' will turn out to be a devil. 3 yrs ago. i certainly did not believe tat will happen..

but i finally made me choice to leave tat part of my life behind. it might be lonely at first.. but i confirm will get used to it somehow. for sure.

Labels: happy.

Thursday, July 10, 2008 11:55 PM

Fed up.

life is so hard...
i tried my best...
i keep on trying.. they keep on scolding and insulting me..
i feel myself going mental already...
feel like gonna die very soon...

i keep trying to push myself onwards evern if everything is not very good in life..
alot of rough pits in life.. but then...
i realise.. i must find a part time job... even how tough the job is..
i have to do it.. i must be able to pay everything on my own..
once i saved up sufficient amount after my studies ended,
im confirm moving out of this hell..

headaches keep coming on...
i alr damn busy and stress in sch..
come hm still nid to face all this crap..
tis house.. got no warmth...
who knows.. maybe i will really quit schlig since she really wanted it..
always suggesting of me quitting sch..
everything saying craps about me...
make me hate everything about her... if i can choose..
im surely not coming home for good..

i had enough... so many years of bottled up feelings...
so tired of everything... hais..

Labels: lost.

in labb.

im so tired now in class...
just completed the OFA assignment.. presented todae my presentation finally.. simply rush thru everything.. so freaking nervous lors..

hahas...
later tonight maybe going makan with huiru jiejie.. but then i see my wallet..
i sian already..
x) so broke now..
later having accounts.. luckily i finish my accounts already..
hahas..
still got business classes later.. 2pm dismiss from sch..
hooray.. its the weekends finally... =) can rest at home le...
not really feeling well recently... stomachaches, headaches and alott moreee...
so easily tired.. X)
nid to go swim or smth soon..
no energy already...

Labels: tired.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 1:43 PM

tired&sick.

life is unfair..
i duno wat i did..
studied till ard 2am yesterday for accounts and my bzf..
end up next dae headache.. stomachache.. wateva crap oso come..
feel so sick now.. so tired...

todae rest at home.. way too uncomfy.. can't even get myself up to see the doctor..
wait till daddy home then see how...
he tonight duno gt xtra shift or not...
sian... nid to take medicine for my finger oso..
hope it recover soonn...
headache arrrrrr....
alrite alrite.. i nid a break.. gonna go lie down for awhile..
be back later.. x)
hahas.. still got abit accounts not done..
gonna find a part time job real soon...
jiayou to me!

Labels: sickandtired.

Monday, July 7, 2008 10:22 PM

i finally understood.

i just went through the tough part of my life..
i went to school with a heavy heart.. awaiting my punishment..
hahas... then realise that my teachers nvr scold me and instead talked to me about it and stuff...
well... i got alot to catch up now...
alot of stuff to do.. but then.. no much choices X)
i must catch up with the time i have lost in playfulness..
X) smiles. i decided.
i must save up... pay the debt debt..
then.. recreate my room... repaint the wall abit.. then add hangers so that i can arrange stuff..
hahas.. i truly can picture my new room look like what...
i realise what my dreams are now.. all figured out in my head..
my goals.. my wishes.. and my strategies...

i wanna be able to be part of the society...
well... i wanna be able to enjoy the life of a young adult.. x)
i wanna be able to work and spend my own money.. then be able....
to happy happy.. with my own life with my dear dear..
but then... i couldn't find a rite one yet...
i will still slowly slowly find the right one for me... x)

hahas.
=) im gonna strive to my best.. gonna be tiring at the start..
but as long as i have my goals..
no problem..!!

Labels: jiayou..

back to schhool.

well...
back to school.. hahas..

wow.. my class monitor is featured in the new paper yesterdae.. [ july 6th 2008 ]
hahas.. a teen that save his friend.. he actually jumped into the Singapore river..
hahas..
came to heard about it when i return to school..

well..
returning to school to be able to see my classmates makes me happy somehow..
but then.. well.. it feels weird..
3 weeks nt returning.. 1 mth nt seeing any of them makes me feel as if..
i dun belong.. well..
im just ultra sensative to all these things i guess.. i miss my classmates alot..
but well... xP its the holidaes.. hahas..

well... now the newly updated hot stuff of our class is Syarif.. the class monitor after he saved his fren x) hahas..

ltr got a 2 hr break.. then i can spend all of it with my frens..
although i feel the distance but then...
i believe time & memories will shorten the distances...

Labels: backtoschool.

Saturday, July 5, 2008 8:25 AM

maple-maple-maple.

woohoos..
maple and maple and maple...
for those who understand nth abt maple.. skip the next paragraph..

for the time i stayed over @ my godma's place..
most of the time is spent on mapling..
well.. my bandit is finally level 65 [ after doing numerous quests and using two 2x exp coupons.. ] im so tired now.. x(
i trained the whole night last night..
chiong my 2x exp at Mp3 map.. tired tired.. but happy cos finally can use dark mate...

back to the main topic.
todae is his birthday.
i admit if its a mth earlier de me.. i will be happy cause todae will be able to see him agn..
but then.. sad to say.. tat old me.. is gone.. relationship are no longer in my mind anymore.. i will let the flow go on by itsellf.. whether or not i will have a good relationship.. bad one or none at all.. i will leave it to nature.. im too tired and sick of always being someone tat others want me to.. rather than being someone that im happy being at.. hahas..
chim chim.. but i understand can le..
last night i watch tv and heard abt tis line..
translate to english.. it means..
love is something invisible that can't be seen..
love can only be felt in ur heaart.. x)

i lost the idea of what is love after a few failures in relationship side..
but then... when watching the show.. and hearing tat phrase.. i regain back what i lost.. and can now move on in my life..
i used to think i love him alot and i wun love any guy as much as him.. time and time agn.. my love cupid prove me wrong.. and show me what is the right path for me to choose..

the quotation i have. quote frmmmm xP
[ tis is my life , i will live it how I want to. and not how others want me to ]

Labels: thoughts.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008 5:03 PM

a decision to make.

hmms..
welll.. i now undersand to be love is good.. but thennn....
to be love by someone you dun love is a bad thing...
although u enjoy being dote but thenn.. well..
u have to make a decision whether to accept him or not...

i dun like having a guy who has financial problems / smokes or health problems...
and he practicaaly have them all....... LOLS..
he treat me quite nice but thennnn... its not possible between us.. there is no chemistry...

i would love to go out soon...
2 weeks + never go out liaos...
so people.. feel free to date me out sooonn!!!

Labels: decision

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Name : Serene
Age : 18
Birthday : 23rd of May 1991 :)


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[1] Create happy memories with my love ones
[2] Learn to control my emotions better
[3] Find the right one for myself :)
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[5] Learn to express myself more properly :)
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